003. Mei Ting's Diary Excerpt (3)

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  The Republic of China twenty-three years August twenty-third Monday weather:

  Today, I had a big fight with Zhou Junsheng. This guy is too disappointing. I never thought he was infatuated with that Japanese woman to the point of being lovesick. Just because I didn't want to be with him, he got impatient and scolded me. Waaah, it's so heartbreaking.

  I saw Liu Zhenfeng again in the cafeteria, he still looked so calm and serene, as if nothing would ever bother him. Who was that girl next to him? Was she his girlfriend? Had he already had one? Ah, what was I thinking, it's none of my business whether he has a girlfriend or not, he's not my boyfriend or anything. Geez, overthinking again.

  But why, why do I have such a strong sense of loss in my heart? This feeling of loss is something I've never experienced before. How can this be? Even if Zhou Junsheng betrayed me, I would only feel indignant, but why do I feel such a great sense of loss now that he has a girlfriend?

  It's all over, another sleepless night today...

  Republic of China 24 years February 1st Tuesday weather:

  These days, I've been in a cold war with Zhou Junsheng. I'm getting more and more disappointed in him, and our interactions are becoming more and more formalized. I don't know if this means we're about to end things? My dorm sisters keep advising me to make up with Zhou Junsheng, but is it that easy? The wound has already opened, and it was caused by Zhou Junsheng. What's even more infuriating is that he still wants to pour salt on the wound. It looks like breaking up with him is inevitable, I just don't know when. This is pretty frustrating, after all, we've both met each other's parents. Will our parents agree to us breaking up?

  Recently, I've been dreaming about him a lot. His melancholic eyes and that unkempt beard are really captivating. However, in my dreams, there's always a girl who appears vaguely by his side. Every time I try to rub my eyes to get a clearer look at the girl, it's always unclear. I'm afraid, afraid that this woman will harm him, and also afraid that she'll come after me and take him away from me.

  No way, he's mine, he's mine, I won't let him go to anyone else! Oh my god, have I fallen in love with him? No way, that's impossible! Am I being too...

  Republic of China 24 years May 26 Wednesday weather:

  In a few more days, I will be graduating and my job is almost found. It's at a newspaper company, or rather, the Central News Agency. The salary is pretty good too. Ah, my dream of being a journalist is finally going to come true! That's great! I wonder which newspaper company that guy ended up finding.

  I hastily went to understand, and the result stunned me. That guy didn't look for a job, but instead enlisted in the army. What can this weak scholar do by joining the army? Be a clerk or a staff officer? Now that there are battles everywhere, especially with the Japanese who are lurking in the Northeast, eyeing our inland rivers and mountains covetously. How can he enlist at this critical moment? Isn't this like throwing himself into the mouth of a gun? No, I have to go and persuade him to give up this idea and come with me to the newspaper office.

  But...

  Woe is me, no matter how I advise him, this guy seems to have made up his mind, he's determined to join the army. Humph, it must be Jiang Cheng who incited him, that guy has always been shouting about wanting to be a soldier. Then why doesn't he just go by himself? Why does he have to drag Zhenfeng along with him? Isn't this harming others?

  Alas, it seems I've really fallen for him; otherwise, why would I be in such a rush for his sake?

  Republic of China 24 years June 1st Monday weather:

  Today is the day of farewell, we all went to Jinjiang Restaurant for a meal together, after all, everyone has been in school together for four years, and the feelings are still very deep. I quietly looked at him, really hoping that he could walk up to me and say those three words.

  Finally, I waited for him, but unfortunately he said something that made me extremely angry. He saw me staring at him silently and making cute eyes at him, and then ran up to me and said: "Mei Ting, are your eyes uncomfortable? Did you get sand in them or do you have an eye disease?" Honestly, I was hoping he would say those three words to me, but instead...

  When we parted ways, I cried and was heartbroken. I didn't know when I would meet him again, but I also didn't have the courage to say those three words to him...