002. Mei Ting's Diary Excerpt (2)

  PS: Everyone come to vote, give Longjian the motivation to write, don't worry, the main text is being written by Longjian, actually these miscellaneous talks are not bad either, like Mei Ting's diary which is pouring out this little girl's feelings for Liu Zhenfeng.

  Republic of China year 20, December 26, Tuesday weather: ***

  Alas, the New Year is approaching, but at this time, the Japanese launched a comprehensive invasion of Shanghai. Every day, I hear the rumble of gunfire, and every day, I live in fear. The other day, I received a letter from home, my parents hoping that I can return home quickly, after all, Shanghai is not safe now. However, none of our school's out-of-town students have returned home. Can I go back? Of course not.

  Today, on the school's playground, an exciting protest rally was held. The principal's stirring speech gave me a sense of serving the country. Yes, China has reached a critical moment of life and death. The three northeastern provinces have fallen, and I saw that several classmates from Northeast China have become homeless. This tragic phenomenon is happening right next to me, and just thinking about it makes me want to cry.

  Today, there were two programs that stood out at this gathering. One was the vocal performance by students from the music department, who sang a rousing song - "Defend the Country Battle Song". The song was great, especially the line "Everything we love since childhood, we would rather die than give it to the enemy." It was so moving! The person who wrote this song is really great. Later, I found out from Jiang Cheng that he actually wrote this song himself. He's really talented and passionate!

  The second impressive program was when Junsheng announced that there would be a patriotic rally and parade the day after tomorrow. Hehe, Junsheng looked so cool when he said that, and at the time I thought I should participate too. I found Jiang Cheng and them, wanting to drag them along to sign up together, but unexpectedly that bad guy actually advised me not to participate. Hmph, able to write such a magnificent song, yet he's a coward, I despise him, super despise him! How could I have fallen for someone so annoying? Is there something wrong with my taste? But he shouldn't be that kind of person... Ah, done, tonight I'll definitely lose sleep...

  Republic of China year 20, December 28, Thursday, weather: ***

  It's too cruel, it's simply too cruel. Everywhere is blood, everywhere are students being beaten, killed and arrested. Today is the eve of the Lunar New Year, on a day like this, everyone should be at home celebrating happily. But now, many people have been killed or arrested. The scene is too miserable. If I hadn't run fast enough at that time, I'm afraid I would have been unlucky too. Why is this happening? We are all students, we were just having a patriotic rally and march, what did we do wrong? We only asked the government to resist Japan, is that wrong? The bandits have already reached our doorstep, Shanghai is the gateway to the capital Nanjing, can't the government see that the southeastern gate of the capital is being invaded by the invaders? No, it can't be. My hometown, beautiful Suzhou, is less than 200 miles away from Shanghai. If Shanghai falls into the hands of the invaders, my hometown will become the front line of defense for the capital. Can I let my beautiful hometown be destroyed in the flames of war? Absolutely not! Why can't other government troops fight back like the 19th Route Army? Hmph, the 19th Route Army is great, the other government troops are all cowards.

  Junsheng is fine in the end, he escaped and came back. This time's parade activity he was an advocate for, whether or not he will be implicated in the end, it really makes one worried!

  Just now, I saw that scoundrel again. He's still smiling at me, looking at my disheveled appearance, and he's actually laughing. Humph, he must be mocking me. He thinks he has foresight, not participating in this parade, and seeing his smug expression is infuriating...

  The Republic of China 23 years April 1st Sunday weather: ***

  These past few days, my mood has been extremely bad. I had already gradually forgotten that scoundrel and was wholeheartedly in love with Zhou Junsheng. But, he actually... while dating me, he was also dating other girls, and their relationship was quite ambiguous, even developing to the point of sleeping together several times. What does this mean? If he pursued me at first, why did he still want to mess around with other girls? Is it that having just me wasn't enough for him? Or is it because I refused his advances, so he went out and messed around? I'm not a selfish or petty girl, but love is selfish, how could I possibly share a man with another woman? Especially in the past few days, I saw him have that kind of relationship with a Japanese woman. That woman even used her mouth to... it was really shameless, really disgusting. How can there be such disgusting people? Especially when I saw Zhou Junsheng's face enjoying himself, just looking at him made me feel disgusted. However, I admit that after three years of dating, I have indeed fallen in love with this pretty boy. Although I still can't forget that scoundrel, I heard he still doesn't have a girlfriend. What is he doing? He's already at the age where he should be considering his lifelong goals, what is he thinking?

  Today, I met him by the Huangpu River in Puxi. He looked so melancholic, with a gaze that's almost lethal to women. At that moment, I almost impulsively rushed over and wrapped my arms around him, using all my tenderness to comfort him... Haha, am I being too much?

  I invited him to walk with me, we talked a lot, and I also told him about my emotional problems. He shared some of his own perspectives, which were quite novel. It seems he has been influenced by Western culture much more than I have, especially when he said that love is two-sided. Yes, love is indeed two-sided. After chatting with him for a while, my mood improved a lot, and we became good friends...