Insufficient balance

  A week later, Bo Shanna left, leaving me with the most unforgettable deep kiss. No matter how I shouted and called behind her, she didn't even turn her head back and walked away.

  "Bu Shanna, don't go! You can't go!" I don't know where the courage came from, but I desperately kicked and struggled to hold onto my grandson Changsun Ting. I wailed loudly: "Let me go, let me pull her back! She can't leave, I know that if she leaves, she'll never come back again. There's a... black death energy on her!"

  "Shut up, you bastard! She's using her own actions to express a woman's most sincere love, challenging an enemy she can't defeat! Facing a man who has already made her completely desperate, do you still want a strong female warrior like her to be your private nurse for how long? She wants to fight to the death for you before being softened by emotions and becoming an ordinary woman! Although I don't agree with her methods, I, Zhangsun Ting, respect such a strong person!!!"

  Gulerm?

  This name flashed through my mind, and I was really stunned. All the memories replayed like a movie clip, this name has become a synonym for the pinnacle of the world in my heart. At the peak of my youth, I was just an insignificant and humble life in front of him. No matter how hard I tried, even if I burned myself out completely, I couldn't surpass this peak of heaven.

  I slowly sat down on the ground, my whole body trembling with fear, unable to utter another word. Zhang Sun Ting looked at me with eyes full of disappointment and said in a low voice: "Coward!" After that, he turned around and left without looking back.

  Yang Qing stood in front of me with a strange expression, pulled me up and said softly: "Big brother, you used to be my most admired hero, it was you who taught me how to be strong and unyielding. Now that you've become like this, I can no longer respect you, but I cannot ignore you!"

  "Yang Qing!" I was like a drowning person who suddenly found a lifesaver, clinging tightly to Yang Qing. Now that Bu Shanna is gone, I really need to find someone who can make me feel safe.

  "I'm not a person with great power, but I'll use all my strength to protect you. As you said on the battlefield when you threw that gasoline stove into the enemy's heavy machine gun position: 'If you want to kill my brother, step over my dead body first!'"

  I gazed at Yang Qing with tearful eyes, and in the blur of tears, his slightly chubby body suddenly became majestic.

  Yang Qing's face suddenly changed, his body stiffened like a rock, he stared at me for a long time, revealing a miserable smile: "Haha... Big brother actually showed me a respectful expression, heaven, this is the biggest joke that God has played on us! I finally understand why Instructor Bu ruthlessly abandoned you and chose to go alone on the path of certain death. Seeing you like this really makes anyone who knows you feel heartbroken!"

  Yang Qing slowly pushed me away, firmly saying: "I can't give you any more reasons to become weaker, Chang Sun Ting was right, if you're really destined to end up like this for the rest of your life, it would be better if you had died on the battlefield back then. At least that way Fu Yinxue would still be a strong and unyielding hero, still the lifelong goal I've been striving for!"

  "Bu Shanna, Chang Sun Ting, Yang Qing......" As I gaze at each of my friends who have left me far behind, I kneel down on the ground and sob uncontrollably. They've all gone, leaving only a lonely me, alone in this cold and solemn hospital room. Why must I still live? Is it just to let them despair one by one?

  People passing by looked at me with curious eyes, but not a single person came to comfort me, letting this big man kneel on the ground and cry continuously. A weak man would never get respect and understanding anyway.

  I don't know when a cold wind blew in the sky, and I, who was wearing thin clothes, couldn't help but shiver.

  "Fu Yuxue, why are you still here? Your body has just recovered and is still weak, it's easy to get sick!" In the midst of a slightly angry scolding, a white garment with body temperature was thrown over my body. I was pulled up by a pair of slender hands, and I slowly turned my head back. She was the nurse who was in the hospital room when I first woke up, she was the special care nurse for this ward, her name seemed to be Tang Qian. When Bu Shenna was around, she rarely appeared in front of me except for necessary work. Looking at the concern that couldn't be hidden in her beautiful face and eyes, I suddenly found a new reliance.

  That night, I cried and made a scene, exhausting my temper. Tang Qian finally indulged me in my rudeness, letting me pull her onto the bed, where I rested my head on her chest. Her breasts were softer and more prominent than Bu Shanna's, with an indescribable pleasant scent. I buried my face between her twin peaks, feeling the gentle friction, extremely comfortable. But I couldn't fall asleep, repeatedly tossing and turning, unable to calm down. Bu Shanna left, Chang Sun Ting left, Yang Qing left... Tang Qian, my last reliance, would she also leave due to endless disappointment? Wasn't it because of her little girl-like admiration for the former hero that she could tolerate and accommodate my irrationality?

  Is there a way to make her never leave me? I held Tang Qian's body, which was getting hotter and hotter, my heartbeat was also getting faster and faster, I stuck my head on her right chest, and I could also hear her increasingly tense heartbeat.

  "Tang Qian." I called out softly.

  "Hmm?" She wasn't asleep either, opening her eyes to gaze at me softly. Under the moonlight of the dark night, a hint of serene purity reflected in her pupils.

  Looking into these eyes that contain no impurities, I feel ashamed of myself. However, my fear of loneliness still gives me the courage to ask: "Can I kiss you?"

  Tang Qian didn't say a word, she just gently closed her eyes. Under her silent consent, I lifted my head and pressed it against her body, lightly kissing downwards. Her lips were warm and soft, with a hint of coolness and the taste of lip balm. As I kissed and teased her, using the techniques I learned from watching videos, her lips finally began to heat up. When she subconsciously opened her mouth and let out a soft moan, my tongue slipped in, entwining with hers, stirring up the desire that trembled through both of our bodies.

  My hand tentatively reached up to her twin peaks and gently squeezed, seeing that Tang Qian didn't react at all, I plucked up the courage to insert my hand into her clothes, following her increasingly hot skin, inching towards her ample bulge. When I finally covered the girl's sacred breasts with my large hands, Tang Qian's entire body suddenly shuddered.

  She pressed down on my clumsy hand through her clothes and whispered, "Look at your awkward movements, you've even hurt me. Are you still a virgin?"

  "Mmm!" I nodded honestly, with the tips of two fingers on my right hand gently shaking the core of her chest.

  "But I'm not a virgin," Tang Qian said softly, feeling the surge of desire from me: "Your first time should be given to someone like Bu Shao who loves you wholeheartedly, a perfect woman who has the power and can devote all her emotions to you. You two are meant for each other... But if you really want to, I'm willing to give it to you. Please be gentle, don't hurt me."

  I nodded vigorously, I need more care, I need to get close to Tang Qian who is still a stranger immediately.

  As the clothes on my body gradually decreased, I became more and more excited. When we were finally naked in front of each other, under Tang Qian's guidance, I entered a woman's body for the first time. The sudden wetness and warmth instantly enveloped me. In the increasingly rapid ***, the man's gasps and the girl's moans slowly filled the entire hospital room.

  When we finally calmed down and hugged each other quietly in the midst of passion, Tang Qian suddenly said, "Thank you."

  I rested my head on her chest, stretched out my tongue and gently rolled away a bead of sweat from the tip of her pink nipple, lazily asking: "Why thank me?"

  "My original boyfriend, my first man was the company commander of X teacher, he died in that raid and his body was not even found. Thank you for avenging him, I instinctively believe that the enemy who stained my boyfriend's blood is already dead at your hands." Tang Qian stretched out her hand to hug me gently: "I don't know what kind of heroic figure you were in the past, but you can gather so many excellent partners around you. I like the current you, a little man who needs to rely on me every moment and can't leave my side for a second. If you like, I can stay with you forever until you get tired of me. When that day comes, please tell me in advance, and I will unconditionally let you go free."

  Covering my mouth, in this moment Tang Qian's eyes flashed with a gleam of enlightenment, she said softly: "Don't rush to make any promises to me, you are only temporarily lost yourself, just like a river that has been blocked by a long dam, although it can only rage and roar on the spot for now, but when you accumulate enough strength, you will surely burst forth with a mighty wave! At that time, I, like a wildflower, will be too insignificant to keep up with your footsteps, and only someone like Captain Bu's wife will be able to accompany you side by side and soar through the skies with you! You are destined to belong to her, and she is destined to belong to you, no one can intervene in the tacit understanding between you two that belongs to the same class."

  In a corner that I didn't notice, Tang Qian gently wiped away the tears from her eyes and squeezed out a smile: "A girl like me who is ordinary and incomplete can still receive your love, which means I'm still a very charming woman. In the future, I will definitely be able to marry a good man and give birth to an intelligent and lovely son. When I have some free time, I may suddenly think of you, at that time you may have already become a real hero. If we can coincidentally think of each other at the same time, this kind of spiritual tacit understanding is enough to make me feel no regrets in this life!"

  “Tang Qian!” At this moment, I was finally completely moved. She is indeed a great woman, bearing the pain of losing her beloved, and yet she tolerated my most impolite invasion, and generously opened up an escape route for me.

  "Dummy!" Tang Qian teased, scratching my nose with a light smile: "You've been flipping me over and over on your body, making me actually want it too. It's just that as a girl, I have a thin face and can't take the initiative to speak up. And I'm surprised that this is only your first time, yet you're able to make me almost forget who I am."

  The flirtation between the couple ignited my passion, and in Tang Qian's cry of surprise, I thrust into her body again. She panted and said: "It seems that Qian'er is indeed self-inflicted, your strong body will make Qian'er suffer a lot. Make an effort to let Qian'er feel happy, I will deeply remember every time we are happy together, and when I miss you in the future, I will take them out one by one and slowly savor them."

  Sweat and tears seeped out of me at the same time, and when I was most exhausted, I suddenly thought of Bobina who was walking alone towards her death.

  (Xiao Yao: Who else is saying that I, Lixinxin, am slow? Now I update more than 6,000 words every day. Today I updated 10,000 words. What's slow and what's fast?)