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  "Uh-huh, okay, I'll go first then, still need to go to the hospital for a B ultrasound."

  Shen Xiaoqiu smiled and left, it turned out that a woman with quality and intelligence was like this. A woman, a wife who is not favored, wants to defeat her emotional enemy, her husband's mistress, uses not only beating and scolding, but a smile, a firm and unshakeable heart, the child in her belly, an expression of not caring about anything, all of which can make you completely lose your way, and she will also gain blessings and perfection. What is more disgusting than smiling when facing an emotional enemy? Shen Xiaoqiu did it, for Shen Junhao, for their home, she did it, forever holding the flag of victory.

  Men are all lewd, and there is no married man who does not want to play with excitement. As long as a man has money, he dares to do anything, and he will not care about the feelings of his wife, because men only use their lower body to look at a woman, even if the wife at home is beautiful and excellent, they will still think about trying other women, this is the nature of men, and it's hard to change.

  Shen Xiaoqiu was precisely because she understood, so she wouldn't make a fuss. Making a fuss would be pointless and only make her man dislike her even more. So she endured and pretended as if nothing had happened, still being completely obedient to Shen Junao. However, Shen Junao didn't have the good fortune to possess his own wife again; he could only watch with open eyes, and this was also a form of retribution.

  I don't know if in the future when your husbands cheat and then kneel down in front of you asking for forgiveness, we women will soften our hearts. Looking at the pitiful appearance of our husbands and then looking at our well-behaved children, women often forgive men's mistakes like this. Maybe he really will change, but the emotional scars and humiliation can never be made up for a lifetime.

  Friends always joke and ask me if I will marry a man or a woman in the future. Until now, I still haven't thought of the most correct answer to this question. Having a man's love is happiness, giving love to a woman is fulfillment, if both can be obtained... Hehe, am I daydreaming?

  My persistence seems more and more pale, weak and meaningless, but there is no excuse for giving up. I am a person who likes to be true to myself, and once Han Shi Ya decides on something, she will see it through even if it kills her.

  Later, Mei Liu fell in love with a young man who looked quite good and came to work here. Mei Liu also couldn't tell how they got to know each other and how they fell in love, it all felt like a dream.

  Heaven always favors Meili, giving her the love she wants. The boy doesn't know that Meili used to work here; no man would be willing to marry a woman who used to be a prostitute as his wife. I'll just let Meili not tell him, it's better for this secret to rot in my heart forever. If I feel guilty, then I'll treat him extra well later on, nothing can't be made up for as long as he wants it.

  Mei Liao also quit her job here, I told her to take good care of herself in the future, she couldn't bear to part with me either. But how could I have stopped you? This kind of work was never suitable for you anyway, it's better this way, and after a good life, you will forget about this experience.

  After Meirong left, I became even more indifferent. Every day, I just smiled at men with a fake smile, and my usual expression was cold and detached. Even Oulian couldn't stand the change in me. I didn't know why I had become like this, smoking and drinking all the time. Han Shiya had really hit rock bottom.

  Later, I don't know who said that Mei Cui had AIDS... I was stunned. When I called Mei Cui's phone, it was already an empty number. I didn't dare to believe that it was true, but they spoke with such conviction that it sent chills down my spine. How could this be? She had just started her new life, how could she end up like this? I prayed every day for Mei Cui, praying that she would overcome AIDS with her strong willpower. But at the same time, I knew what kind of disease AIDS was, and I couldn't bear to think about Mei Cui leaving me one day, leaving her mother, leaving that boy... I didn't know if that boy had been infected or not, I didn't know anything.

  Later, they said Mei Cui had already... Perhaps by then my heart had become numb. When I heard the news, my heart suddenly ached and I wanted to cry but couldn't. It seems that God is unfair like this, taking away good things early to accompany him in old age. What if one day I contract AIDS? I don't care, what about Ou Lian then?

  I'm still living a muddled life, and I've gotten used to this place where everything is real. People are real when they haggle with you over prices, real when they praise your generosity for giving big tips, real when they give you extra privileges because of your good looks, real when they want to keep you around because you're skilled in bed, and real when they wait naked for the next customer without even washing up after each transaction. I've forgotten what it's like to be kissed by a man, what it feels like to have an orgasm, and all I do is mechanically cooperate and provide service like a machine.

  Some people say that going to a nightclub to find a girl is not as good as buying an inflatable doll to relieve boredom, at least the doll is only used by one person and is clean. Hehe, now there are even products that can replace girls, it seems that humans still need women very much.

  It wasn't until I was about seven years old that I found out she wasn't my biological mother, and at that time, I became even more arrogant towards her. When I went back to the hospital where I was born, many of the nurses had changed, but I still saw the head nurse who took care of me back then. She remembered that it was Xiao Miao Miao who raised Ou Lian for me, and at that time, they were all afraid that I would be sad, so they all kept it a secret.

  I didn't say anything, just told them that Oulian is doing well now, Xiao Xuanxuan is also doing well, and I'm doing well too. Without saying much more, I left, and at that moment my mood was very heavy. I don't know what identity I should face Oulian with in the future, as a mother or just as Miss? Perhaps it's all the same result anyway. Originally, I thought I could give up everything, as long as I have Oulian, having her by my side is enough. But unexpectedly, she isn't even my biological child. Although it doesn't matter much, although this kind of thing happens a lot, there's still a knot in my heart. I don't know if I should thank Xiao Xuanxuan or blame her. Perhaps if it weren't for her decision back then, I wouldn't have given Jingxuan to Oujie Feng, and would have kept my own flesh and blood by my side. The current Oulian is no longer my hope. I started to miss Jingxuan terribly, asking Oujie Feng to see him again and again, but only a few times did he bring Jingxuan out. He didn't let me recognize Jingxuan, saying it's because he's afraid that knowing he has a mother like me who is a prostitute would make him feel ashamed.

  Han Shiya smiled, now she is the same as Ou Jie Feng, both can become a shame in the hearts of children who know the truth, it's good to be equal. In the future, I won't ask to see Jing Huan so frequently, and Ou Lian will not let him see Ou Jie Feng again, because he is not our child, I don't want him to worry about Ou Lian for nothing, Ou Lian is my debt, I can handle it alone.

  I don't know when it started, but Ou Lan also began to dislike me more and more. Maybe it was after she grew up? She didn't want to talk to me, her mother who works as a prostitute, for even one sentence. She always studied so diligently, which made me worry the least about her studies. From childhood to adulthood, I never attended any of her parent-teacher conferences, and she wouldn't let me go either, probably because she was afraid I would embarrass her. Hehe.

  Once I sneaked a peek at her diary, I finally understood why this kid was studying so hard. She said that once she got into college, her mom wouldn't have to work as a mistress to make money anymore, and then she could support her mom.

  That night, I cried. Han Shi Ya is also a mother and will be moved by her child. I don't know if I should continue or not, but it seems like I have no way out. I endured the heartache to continue doing what Ou Lan thinks is most shameful. She can hate me if she wants, maybe when she finds out I'm not her biological mother, she won't be too attached and will choose to leave me? Who would want to be with a mother who's a prostitute? If Xu Xu hadn't adopted her back then, perhaps her fate would have been different, and she wouldn't be living in this dirty world every day.

  "Alright, don't send us off anymore, mom, let's go home, we have to head back too." Oulian and Ou Jingxuan got on the car, but Han Shiya still couldn't bear to part with them as she looked at them inside the vehicle.

  "Alright! Take care of each other..." Han Shiya instructed.

  The car slowly drove away, and Han Shiya wished she could see them like this forever, but unfortunately, there was no more time.

  Han Shiya hugged her arm, and as she got older, it was really easier to get cold. If she could see Oulian and Ou Jingxuan both getting married while she was still alive, that would be great. Hehe, they were just kids... But being able to see them graduate was also good, how did even this become a luxury? Han Shiya sighed, human life really is in heaven's hands.

  "Ou Jingxuan, haven't you noticed that mom seems to have aged a lot?" Ou Lian also had a worried look on her face.

  "Yes, I found that Dad and Mom have aged a lot. Before, I was always by their side and didn't feel it, but now when I leave and come back to see them again, I really feel they've grown old so fast..." Ou Jingxuan said helplessly.

  "I don't want to leave Mom anymore, I want to spend more time with her. In all these years, it seems like my mom and I only know how to quarrel." Oulian felt a little regretful, wishing she could turn back the clock.

  "What's wrong? Why isn't your relationship with mom good?"

  "Because of her profession, I couldn't take it." Oulian looked out the window, holding back tears.

  "Isn't everything okay now? Mom has opened her own store, and nothing like that will ever happen again." O Jeong-hwan patted O Jung's shoulder to comfort him.

  "I always feel sorry for her... especially sorry..." Ou Lian smiled and still wanted to cry.

  "Let's just be good and filial to Dad and Mom from now on, okay?"

  "You be filial to your father, and we'll be filial to your mother together." said Ou Lin looking at him.

  "Alright, I don't want to argue with you either. If you won't forgive me, then so be it. Let's just take care of mom together." Ou Jingxuan smiled and nodded in agreement.

  "Hmm! I'm a bit sleepy, brother. Can you hold me while I sleep?" Ou Lin seemed to be acting spoiled, but it made Ou Jing feel honored instead.

  "Ah? Oh, of course not a problem, come on - completely free!" Ou Jingxuan smiled and opened his arms.

  Ou Zhen An was leaning comfortably in Ou Jing Xuan's arms, but Ou Jing Xuan was tense and didn't know where to put his hands. Ou Zhen An, on the other hand, felt like it didn't matter, hehe, but this feeling was also good, she wouldn't think wildly, it was just a little sister leaning on her big brother.

  When I was twelve years old, I secretly read my mother's diary. Because I was very curious about this woman, so when she went to work, I quietly opened her diary.

  Chapter 52: The Increasingly Heavy Burden (End of Chapter)