The rose under the sun fifty-three days after the mask of the messenger was torn apart

  It's a thick diary, I don't know where to start reading it, and I don't have that much time to finish it all. I just flipped through some of it casually. I already knew about the recent events she wrote about, but she didn't reveal anything new, just complaints and sentimental feelings. Surprisingly, most of it was about those men, I think they must be her clients? I closed the diary and continued rummaging through the drawer.

  That book is quite old, it was from when I was three years old, there aren't many words written in it, but it showed me so many stories, my illness, her job hunting... originally... I don't know why, but I started crying, feeling like I had wronged her, it was all because of my need to be cured that she couldn't do anything else, so she went to work as a prostitute. I cried, looking at those words, they were like tattoos, piercing my heart forever, unable to be erased...

  Later, because I would flip through Ha Se-ya's diary whenever I had the chance, I found out more secrets. The one that shocked me the most was that I wasn't her biological daughter! That was something she wrote when I was seven years old. At that moment, everything felt so ironic - she had devoted her life to someone else's child. Back then, I didn't feel grateful; instead, I wanted to escape from this terrifying woman. I even thought about going to the police station and telling them I wanted to find my biological parents and never live with that woman again. But I didn't do it because I couldn't bear to leave her alone - she had already been dumped by a man and was heartbroken, so how could I make her suffer more? So I pretended like I knew nothing and continued living with her, eating, drinking, sleeping, and even pretending to still hate her like before.

  Until I met you, Oh Jeong-hwan. That's when I realized that all my endurance wasn't in vain, but I couldn't reveal the truth that I'm not Han Se-yeon's biological daughter. I thought it would be okay to be with you too, but you only saw me as a lady, just like Han Se-yeon, and that's when I felt hopeless. I knew then that I shouldn't have any illusions about men. So I stopped your advances towards me. You don't owe me anything because you're not my real brother. You simply got involved with a girl who had some feelings for you too, so it was an equal relationship between you two. You didn't owe me anything, really didn't owe me anything, so there's no need to make up for anything forever.

  It seems like I've slept for a long time, and only woke up when the train stopped. This dream was very vivid and beautiful, but unfortunately, I didn't have the chance to tell you about it. Ou Jingxuan, if you knew that I'm not your biological sister, what would your expression be? If you knew that I'm not your biological sister, would you still like me? Would you want to be with me? No, now you already have Xiao Xiao, and I also have Ling Xiu, we've both found our own haven. It's just that the beauty of the past didn't last.

  "Are you awake? Where did you go last night? Why are you so sleepy?" Ou Jing helped Ou Zhen out of the car, and she was still half asleep, having slept through all that noise.

  "Last night... had some wine with mom... went to bed late..." Oulian rubbed her eyes, and returned to this familiar place again, she didn't know whether the feeling was good or numb.

  "You knew you had to rush for the train today, yet you still drank what wine? You're really giving me a headache."

  "I said, Ou Jingxuan, when did you become so impatient? Are you also like this with Xiao Xiao?" Ou Lian started complaining, or rather, it seemed more like she was being jealous.

  "Xiao Xiao is my wife, of course I have to be gentle with her. I'm not as patient as your husband Gao Lun Xiu, you can just pout at him and he'll indulge you." Ou Jingxuan smiled, maybe if she was a bit annoyed, she wouldn't be so sleepy.

  "Cut it out, I knew you weren't a good brother." Ou Lin glared at him.

  "You're just realizing now, but it's not too late, heh heh." Ou Jingxuan followed up with a wicked smile.

  "It seems like you were just pretending to be good to me before, well done. You must have been tired." Ou Lian said sarcastically, as if she was really angry.

  "What's wrong, Oulian? You seem a bit off since you got in the car. Don't tell me you're really angry? Brother was just joking around, and of course his feelings towards sister are genuine!" Ou Jingxuan hastily coaxed Ou Lian, afraid that she would actually get angry, still caring about her so much.

  "Never mind, just keep your most sincere heart to treat Xiao Xiao well." Ou Lian looked at Ou Jingxuan, this was what she wanted to bless the most, because they were equally important to her.

  "I'm also grateful to Guo Lengxiu for being so good to you." Ou Jingxuan nodded.

  He should also bless his sister wholeheartedly, that man is so good and he has nothing to worry about. Being able to see Oulian happy is also his heart's desire, and he will be fine with Xiaoxiao too. Such a destination is great, we all guard the people we love and watch our loved ones live happily ever after, and because of gratitude, we will also be very happy. It's just that for a lifetime, it will become a regret, Oulian is my most beautiful dream, if I couldn't protect her then let her smile freely, this way I will also be at peace.

  "Finally back... Eu Jin... From now on, you're not allowed to leave me again, it's really like the years have passed in seconds..." Guo Lingxiu tightly hugged Ou Zhen and carefully leaned against her neck to breathe.

  "Hehe, yeah, don't be like that, so many people are watching......" Ou Lin felt a bit embarrassed, his own brother was still standing beside him, and it was indeed not good for him to see this.

  "Hehe, let's go in quickly, how about we go eat later?" Guo Lingxiu asked with a smile as he looked at Ou Jingxuan.

  "I'm not going, I have to go find Xiao Xiao later, that little girl is yelling at me to accompany her to the movies, you guys go ahead, I'll be fine with Xiao Xiao." Ou Jingxuan also had a happy face, and Ou Zhen looked very relieved.

  "Alright then, what does Oulian want to eat?"

  "Let's go to that noodle shop." said Oulian after thinking for a moment.

  "You wouldn't have mentioned it and I would have forgotten, but now that you mention it, I do miss the noodles from that place. Alright, let's go there." Guo Lingshu was completely satisfied.

  Ou Jingxuan looked at Ou Lian, with an inexplicable indifference on his face. At that time, he still liked Ou Lian and wanted to be with her every moment, but now it was impossible. If he could start over again, would he insist on Ou Lian or consider Xiao Xiao? Haha, how could he possibly start over again? Ou Jingxuan, isn't it great like this? You're happy, Ou Lian is happy, that's enough.

  Peaceful and happy days always pass quickly, I wonder if everything will change when I go to college with Oulian? Will she break up with Gaojun and I'll break up with Xiaoxiao? Even if we're together every day, nothing can happen between us, Ou Jingxuan, forget this stupid idea, you and Oulian are impossible, it's impossible in this lifetime.

  "What do you mean? Are you going to go against me?"

  "Liuxiu Ge, let's not mention what happened in the past, but we must do something decent for Yuanbin Ge's memorial day, otherwise... others will suspect..."

  "What are you suspicious of? You little brat, can you speak clearly for once? Will anyone suspect that I was the one who made you do those things to him back then? Will anyone suspect that I was the one who told you to put sleeping pills in his drink? Who would think that? I've always been so loving towards Yuanbin, this younger brother of mine. No one will suspect me." Guo Lingxiu smiled.

  "Can you be at peace with that? It's just Yuan Bin's memorial day, consider it accumulating good deeds for yourself. Even Lang Xiu can't be so heartless."

  "Accumulate virtue? If I were to accumulate virtue, I wouldn't have done such a thing. How could I not be at peace with myself? His Ou Lin, I've taken good care of him. I've long said that Ou Lin would be happier with me than with him. All this is for Ou Lin's own good." Guo Lingxiu looked at him with a serious expression.

  "Liuxiu Ge, sometimes you are really scary."

  "That's for sure, I wasn't a good person to begin with. To get Oulian, I had no choice either. You should sympathize with me, how pitiful I am, being torn between my sworn brother and the woman who moves my heart the most in this lifetime. What can I do? I can live without limbs but not without a heart, without a heart, one would die."

  "Longxiu Ge, don't you really plan on helping Yuanbin Ge with his memorial service?"

  "I said it wasn't necessary, if you want to miss him just go to his grave and offer some flowers, and accompany him for a chat, he's lonely enough by himself..." Guo Lingshu began to ponder.

  "He won't be lonely; I buried him alongside his child with Oulian..."

  "Well, it's good this way, we can be reunited."

  "I never thought that Lian Shu's brother would be so ruthless, not even sparing their own children..."

  "You're not just finding out now, besides, if that child Oulian were to be born, she would only suffer for a lifetime. She will remember Yuanbin for the rest of her life. What I'm doing is all for her own good, it's just a matter of spending some money at the hospital and it's done, why not?"

  "Haha, yeah, it seems that nothing is unattainable for Lianxiu Ge. He's really impressive." The man smiled and tears also flowed out.

  "Tomorrow is Yuan Bin's memorial day, cry then. Don't cry now, I... it doesn't look good." Gao Lingxiu only felt his nose souring too, how could he not be heartbroken.

  "Hmm, does Lianxiu Ge also miss Yuanbin Ge? You guys are like real brothers..."

  "Shut up! Don't say another word! Don't say it again......" Guo Lingxiu turned his head, and tears still fell, he thought it was just a mist in his eyes, even though there was no wind at the time.

  I originally wanted to come over and tell Guo Lianxiu that I would be going to university after a while, because I really want to fulfill my own dreams, but I didn't expect this dream to die before it was even fulfilled.

  "Is what you said true?" Oulian pushed the door open and looked at Gao Lianxiu with such despair, thinking that he was a good person all along.

  "Hit... Ou Zhen... you, how did you come?" Gao Lingxiu stood up and looked at Ou Zhen. The muscles on his face twitched constantly, he knew he was done for, they were done for...