Section 58

  At least Shen Shuxian has achieved one thing that I haven't done before - she is at least controversial, not completely good or evil. Her ending is also unpredictable, at least for now.

  (58)

  Back in the dormitory, quietly, the wardrobe door was open, it was Kang Yuanyuan's wardrobe, inside was pitch black, didn't dare to look inside.

  In the dream, Ning Xingguo was naked and Xu Saihan, also naked, walked towards him with a twisted body. They sought pleasure together, it was so joyful. Someone shouted loudly, someone came in, it was Xu Baoshan, holding a gun, shouting loudly. Shen Shuxian didn't know who to protect, their backs were smooth, their organs were robust, the scene was extremely embarrassing. Xu Baoshan's shotgun aimed at Ning Xingguo, with a loud bang, but hit Xu Saihan's head instead, exploding, brain matter splattered everywhere, white and mushy brains. Shen Shuxian hugged Ning Xingguo and wailed, don't leave me, don't leave me.

  When she woke up, it was already daylight. Xu Sairen was combing her hair in front of the mirror. "You had a nightmare, didn't you? You were screaming your head off all night, 'Don't leave me.'"

  "Nightmare, it is. I sometimes feel unwell like this." Shen Shuxian also slowly got up, suddenly her face turned pale, the ritual objects beside her seemed different from last night, they were stained with blood.

  Xu Saille also turned pale with fright, "Throw it away quickly, hurry up!"

  "Why is it like this? Who gave you this magical artifact?"

  "Vengeful spirit, vengeful spirit, it's helped you block it." Xu Saille carefully picked up the blood-stained khakkhara, wrapped it in paper, "He told me he was a lama, he said that if there's blood on it, it means it's already lost its effectiveness. There are evil spirits, this dorm has ghosts, even at home we don't have such things."

  "No, no, there are no ghosts in this world at all." Shen Shuxian said firmly. Lamas, ritual objects, blood, everything is an illusion. Who is playing tricks on me? Who is against me?

  Ning Xingguo often said to her before his death, "A child does not speak of strange things, strength, chaos, and gods." He also said, "If you cannot serve people, how can you serve ghosts?" Shen Shuxian always seemed to understand yet not understand, saying "Then why do I often dream of ghosts?"

  "That's your illusion, you coward." Ning Xingguo's hands gently stroked her hair.

  Hallucination? Why is the hallucination so real, why is there blood on the golden statue? Shen Shuxian began to waver. In the end, the golden statue was still disposed of by Xu Sailing, who muttered a string of words towards the west and asked what it was, saying it was an exorcism spell from Tibetan Buddhism.

  "How can you remember so clearly?"

  "It's very simple, just recite the 49th verse of the Anma mantra and you'll be fine." Xu Saille was extremely devout, from a young age Xu Baoshan had told her that there were spirits everywhere, and for things she couldn't explain, she still wanted to believe in some kind of mystical power.

  In class, Shen Shuxian felt that Kang Mi was still staring at her from the back, but when she turned around, the seat was empty.

  Eating alone, feeling lonely. Xu Sairen is eating in the small cafeteria on the other side. If Kang Miao were here, they could chat and discuss together. Suddenly realized that what's beside me isn't eye-catching, once I got used to its existence and it left, the desolate emptiness can't be described.

  Zhou Huijuan was also killed by herself. The girl who always spoke with a sense of superiority was killed by herself.

  Longing, crazy longing for them, unfortunately, taking a wrong step on the wrong path can never be turned back.

  Shen Shuxian mechanically picked up some green vegetables with her chopsticks, chewing slowly. She caught a glimpse of something moving in the dish and lifted her chopsticks to reveal several pieces of rotting black meat underneath the cooked Shanghai greens. The surface was teeming with lively white maggots, densely packed and squirming about.

  Like the piece on the neck of an extremely thin vase.

  He vomited until his face turned green, the cafeteria chef came over to apologize, "Sorry, I don't know how this happened. I clearly cooked the pork belly thoroughly and covered the rice bowl properly."

  Xu Sairen supported Shen Shuxian and said to the master, "Be more careful next time, this dish is so disgusting!"

  Shen Shuxian shook her head, indicating not to say anything more, and went back to the dormitory to rest. She had asked for leave, so she wouldn't be attending the afternoon classes. Zhang Xiaoping came over to visit her, bringing some apples and a kumquat sapling, which he placed on the table. As he looked around the dormitory, he felt a chill run down his spine due to the gloomy atmosphere.

  "Zhang Shemon, would you mind closing that cabinet door for me?" Shen Shuxian said, half-reclining with a basin beside her.

  The cupboard was full of dust, Zhang Xiaoping turned on the light and as soon as he touched the cupboard door, he retreated a little, several large rats scurried out, covered in dust, with beady eyes.

  Hurry up and open the door, sweep those few mice out of the way.

  Shen Shuxian was still in a state of shock, "I'd better move to a different dormitory."

  "Alright, I'll get someone to clean it up. The room next to mine will be ready for you to move in tomorrow." Zhang Xiaoping helped her cover herself with the quilt and comfortingly patted her forehead, "Poor child, rest well."

  It's already late after this sleep.

  Xu Saille had been back before, saw Shen Shuxian sleeping, and didn't dare to disturb her, so she called a car to go back, forgetting to take her own hat. During the morning exercise, there were many people, it was cold in the morning, and the key point was that it was beautiful. Other girls didn't wear hats, but she wore one which made her stand out. If only this all-girls school had boys, it would be better. Dressing up wasn't much fun either, this new school uniform was okay, but the skirt was too long and old-fashioned. The girls' schools in Shanghai looked better.

  Xu Saihan asked about the school situation and also asked why Shen Shuxian hadn't returned. Xu Sailu said, "She's sleeping, it seems like she didn't rest well yesterday. That dormitory is strange, I heard that Kang MiaoMiao was in that dormitory, the one who hanged herself at the city gate, and she was classmates with Shuxian."

  Kang's body was taken away, the stretcher was scattered, and his clothes were rotten. The undertaker returned from vacation, took the body to a desolate land and burned it. No one collected the ashes, which were blown by the wind and scattered everywhere.