Youth Begins Because of You (5)

  Thursday, April 15, 2010 sunny

  If I say that I'm extremely dissatisfied with TuTu and Wei Xingyun's recent frequent encounters, would anyone think that I'm a petty ghost?

  That rainy day, after the two had dinner together, she appeared under the building of Wei Xingyun's company the next day, asking him to accompany her to a bookstore and also greeted his colleagues; And the day before yesterday, her computer was malfunctioning, so she asked Wei Xingyun to go to her home, where her mother happened to be at home, and invited Wei Xingyun to stay for a simple meal.

  Not long ago, I was still comforting myself that Weixing Yun would one day welcome a new life and that the appearance of another person in his life would be a good thing for him.

  When someone who might be possible actually appears, I become unbalanced again. Even if that person is a good friend of mine.

  Because she is my good friend, I can understand her eyes and vaguely feel her thoughts, so I feel more uncomfortable.

  Wei Xingyun couldn't see how welcome she was, but he never excluded her either.

  One is my best friend, the other is the man I love. Logically speaking, if I were a sensible and reasonable person, I should be happy for them, but why do I feel betrayed?

  Although Tú Tú didn't seem to be in a hurry to show anything, when a girl starts frequently asking a boy out, she's not just trying to comfort him with good intentions, right? Moreover, Wèi Xíngyún doesn't seem that heartbroken.

  Last night, they chatted online. Tutu took the initiative to speak, while Wei Xingyun replied with a few short phrases during the game.

  Tu Tu suddenly said: We sympathize with each other, we both feel guilty towards Meng Meng, so we are filling in the wounds for each other.

  Wei Xingyun, who had stopped to rest in the game, saw this sentence and suddenly sank his face, replying: You're wrong, I don't feel guilty at all. The one who should be feeling guilty is her.

  He finished saying this sentence and quickly exited the chat window without responding to Tutu.

  I'm furious on the side, yes, I'm guilty, but my guilt is absolutely not towards you! Making a date with my friend, Wei Xingyun, how dare you?!

  I'm unhappy, very unhappy.

  Just tonight, TUTU invited him to try out the new Sichuan restaurant in our neighborhood. During dinner, when she suggested that they invite Xiao Qun and her boyfriend over for a gathering at her place this weekend, my discontent finally reached its peak. A pair of small eyes stared fiercely at Wei Xingyun, whose glass cup filled with water suddenly shattered.

  All three of us were startled.

  I was shocked and lost color, no way, when did I have such a strong idea?

  I don't know if it's because of my strong resentment, but after that, Tu Tu became much quieter.

  After dinner, Wei Xingyun sent her to the entrance of her residential area and refused Tutu's invitation to go upstairs again. Just as he was leaving, he suddenly said: "We've had a lot of work tasks recently, we might have to work overtime, so I won't be able to have dinner with you together."

  Tu Tu was taken aback for a moment, then smiled, "Mm, okay."

  "Wei Xingyun said in a low voice: 'Cheer up, you don't need to feel guilty, she doesn't want you to be like this either.'"

  Tu Tu forced a smile, "Alright, you too, take it easy. Goodbye."

  "Goodbye."

  I stood by and thought gloomily, goodbye, goodbye, I hope you never see each other again.

  However, walking behind Wei Xingyun and looking at his lonely back in the dark night, I suddenly felt a pang of heartache.

  Xia Mi, you're not taking me with you? Even if you're a ghost, that's too unfair. You've died and yet you still won't let others freely develop? So, following Wei Xingyun around all day, are you happy now?

  Then I thought sadly, but following behind two people, it would be heart-wrenching.

  To say something sour, I used to be as simple as a glass of pure milk. I was happy because Wei Xingyun was happy, and I was sad because Wei Xingyun was sad. I always hoped he would do well, seeing him get first place in the exam made me even happier than getting full marks myself, and seeing his dejected face when he lost a game also made me feel down.

  Now I'm so selfish that even if I still have the nerve to call myself pure, it's only because I've added melamine.

  I slowly walked up and leaned against him, as if I had never left.

  Dear, I love you, did you know?

  I love you, I love you in the faint light of six o'clock in the morning

  I love you, I love you on the 8 o'clock bus in the morning

  I love you, I love you in the keyboard sound at 10 o'clock this morning

  I love you, I love you in the noisy twelve o'clock

  I love you, I love you in the twilight at six o'clock

  I love you, every moment, every minute, every second, all love you, only love you.

  I love you, even when your mouth is full of foam while brushing your teeth.

  I love you, loving you when you walk alone in the opposite direction of the crowd.

  I love you, loving you when you sit silently in front of your computer screen

  I love you, especially when you wear your headphones and focus on work.

  I love you, loving you when you sit in a room in darkness lost in thought

  I love you, every side of your face, every silhouette of yours, even if you don't love me.

  As Wei Xingyun stepped into the house, at the moment he turned on the light, I made up my mind to adjust my attitude and observe his life with an open-minded heart, not allowing myself to be distorted by jealousy.

  I try hard to recall the younger me, recalling is now my greatest wealth at this moment. Although for a very long time, I look back on the past and always feel that I am more of an actor than actors themselves.

  Author's note: Ahhh... So short... I'll just post two chapters at once then...

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