Youth Begins Because of You (4)

  Sunday April 11, 2010 heavy rain

  This morning, outside the window, it started drizzling with a patter of small rain.

  Wei Xingyun is a freakishly homebody person, reading books, surfing the internet, playing games... basically all activities he tries to complete indoors.

  In the past, as long as I had a holiday, I would think of ways to drag him out with me to have fun, go shopping, take a walk, and after coming back, I would boast to him: if it weren't for me, you would have been moldy from inside out.

  Then he would say: Xia Miomiu you are just a crazy rabbit.

  "Crazy Rabbit" was a very popular movie when we were young, Wei Xingyun always thought I looked like the kid who got entangled with the crazy rabbit in it. Not as fierce, but once crazy, I would surpass him. Every time he said that, I really became the crazy rabbit and pounced on him, beating him up badly.

  But now he can lie in bed and stare blankly, playing with his cigarette case.

  I don't know what Wei Xingyun is thinking about right now. Maybe he's just like me, reminiscing about the past, catching my shadow in his memories, or maybe he's simply spacing out. As for recalling all sorts of things related to Zhuo Er, I feel a bit embarrassed.

  Sitting opposite Weixingyun for the first time after his death, I began to think about Weixingyun's future life.

  I'm referring to romance.

  I know that even if I don't want him to forget me, and even if I don't want another person to appear by his side, Wei Xingyun's life will still move in the direction of a normal person.

  By then, even if I'm unwilling and heartbroken, I can only stand by helplessly as an outsider, watching him go through his life.

  Love, marriage, childbirth... until he is old and grey, perhaps he will suddenly recall that he once had a girlfriend who loved him dearly, but died in the prime of her life.

  Then, in the afternoon sunlight, Xie Xingyun sat on a rattan chair, possibly sighing, possibly tears streaming down his face, or maybe he would fall into a deep sleep.

  Will I wait for him until that time? After he walks to the end of his life, and meets with his soul, will he still remember my face at that time?

  The doorbell rang, and Wei Xingyun got up to open the door.

  Outside the door stood Tutu, and the rainwater in her hand dripped down from the umbrella.

  She said: "Fortunately you are at home, outside the rain is getting heavier and heavier, I came up to take shelter."

  Wei Xingyun stepped aside and beckoned her in.

  I saw Tú's face relax with a sigh of relief, and I felt some joy in my heart. Although I'm already dead, I still hope they can all be well and get along harmoniously from now on.

  She sat down and kept looking around nervously, her expression looked very uneasy. I think even Wei Xingyun could see that she wasn't just passing by, but had come up to apologize.

  She has always been a proud girl, and this is probably her first time apologizing so actively.

  "Wei Xingyun," Tutu seemed to have made up his mind, "Last time's matter was my fault for being too rash, don't take it to heart."

  Wei Xingyun poured a glass of water and placed it in front of her.

  "Everyone has been in a bad mood lately, I can understand," said Wei Xingyun.

  "Actually, I'm also very sad in my heart, I just don't want..."

  "Have you eaten?" Wei Xingyun suddenly interrupted her.

  Tú tú stopped for a moment, "No."

  Wei Hangyun glanced out the window, the heavy rain was still pouring down. He stood up and walked towards the kitchen, "The rain is too heavy, I'll just stir-fry two dishes simply, let's eat here."

  "Don't!" Tutu's voice suddenly amplified.

  The guard looked back.

  Tú Tú smiled slightly unnaturally, "You don't have to bother, I'll apologize instead. Let me take you out for a meal."

  Wei Xingyun also realized that it was a bit inappropriate for the two of them to be eating together in the same room, so he didn't object and put on his coat, going down with Tutu.

  I didn't follow him, quietly sitting on the sofa, a certain thought crept into my mind, swirling and lingering.

  Will Wei Ying and Tu Tu have a chance of development?

  In the university for these few years, it's not that no one has pursued Tú Tú, however even when facing the most fervent pursuit, Tú Tú always firmly shakes her head. In the dormitory after lights out, we lie on our beds and ask her why, she always says: "Not the right person."

  "What kind of person is the right one?"

  In the darkness, TuTu fell silent for a moment, then said, "The kind that makes you want to go all out for him."

  I personally think this answer is very vague and overly artistic.

  Is Wei Xingyun someone who can make Tu Tu forget everything? Doesn't seem like it.

  So it was just my imagination after all.

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