Chapter 29: Drowning Sorrows in Wine

  Xiao Xi stared at me, her eyes filled with incredulity. I found myself lacking the courage to even look straight at Xiao Xi now. I said you've already heard it, there's no need to say anything more. Xiao Xi immediately burst into tears, and as I heard her sobbing, my heart felt like it was being pierced by a thousand arrows. I had hurt Xiao Xi, I owed Xiao Xi an apology, but what could I do now? All I could do was steel myself and break up with her.

  "Why? Mu Ge, you were fine just now, why did you suddenly tell me you want to break up with me. We've never had a fight from the start until now, we shouldn't be breaking up. You said you'd love me forever, and I love you too. Mu Ge, what's going on?" Xiao Xi kept crying and questioning me nonstop. Every word of hers made me feel guilty, as if I was heartlessly abandoning her.

  I told Xiaoxi that I just didn't like her anymore and I didn't want to be with her. But Xiaoxi didn't believe me, she said there must be a reason and asked me to tell her.

  I'm in agony, but I really don't dare to tell Xiao Xi this. I gritted my teeth and said coldly: "I like someone else, I've fallen in love with someone else. Is that reason enough?"

  Xiao Xi shook her head again, she still didn't believe me. She said I had always been with her and hadn't contacted any other women. I said yes, I really fell in love with someone else. I was chatting with a girl on QQ, she's very pretty and gentle, I like her very much.

  When she heard my heartless words, Xiaohui finally believed them. She burst into loud sobs, constantly choking back tears. My heart also ached with Xiaohui's crying. At this time, Xiaohui suddenly got down from my bed and stared at me with an icy gaze. She said to me in a rush: "Lu Mu, I hate you."

  "Lu Mu, I hate you." This sentence is so familiar, I remember she said it once when I saw her taking a bath, and unexpectedly, it's still the same sentence now. I've already hurt Xiao Xi twice, each time hurting her so deeply.

  I don't deserve Xiao Xi's forgiveness, I'm not worthy of loving her, and it's impossible for us to be together again. My mind is a mess, I feel like I'd rather die than live without Xiao Xi, I feel like a walking corpse.

  That day, Xiaohui actually left with her aunt. When she left my house, I stood far away and watched her, I saw the hatred in her eyes. And at this time, my aunt's face was also not good, I don't know if it was because of the quarrel with my dad or what Xiaohui said. My aunt didn't even say goodbye to me when she left.

  I suddenly felt that my loved ones were moving away from me again, and at this moment, the only one standing by my side was my dad. But I hated my dad at this moment, I hated him for being so sentimental everywhere. Afterwards, I didn't talk to my dad anymore, and he didn't ask me why, but instead fell silent too. I found that my world had turned gray again, a world that was originally full of love and affection collapsed instantly today. All that's left is endless loneliness and desolation.

  I called Xie Yi and Yang Li, I said I wanted to drink, and asked them to come out. After that, I didn't care about my dad, and directly rushed out towards the outside. I made an appointment with them at a small restaurant, but when I arrived, they hadn't arrived yet. But I couldn't wait any longer, I just wanted to drink, I just wanted to use wine to numb myself.

  It was just the right time for dinner, and there were many people in the small restaurant. Except for the table at the very back which had no one, all the others were fully seated. I walked directly over and sat down at the empty table, while calling out to the boss to bring me a crate of beer.

  The boss brought the wine, but he looked at me with difficulty and said: "Little brother, this table has been booked by someone else. You can't sit down." I was already in a bad mood, so I didn't care about that much, and directly shouted at the boss: "You just open the wine, when the person who booked the table comes, I'll talk to him myself."

  The boss seemed to have also discovered that I had a big temper, and so he could only obediently open five bottles of wine for me. I directly took the bottle and started drinking it up, I felt the wine was very bitter, the more I drank the more bitter it became. However, I still continued to drink towards my stomach, one bottle of beer under my continuous belches was actually finished. Just as I was about to pick up the second bottle, someone directly snatched the bottle from me. I looked at the person and saw that it was Xie Yi, then I glared at him, and grabbed another bottle on the table and started drinking again. Xie Yi frowned and looked at me, asking what was wrong with me, why I was drinking like this. He asked where Xiao Xi was.

  I heard Xiaoxi, and the bitterness in my heart surged up. I picked up the wine glass again and started drinking, and this time tears finally couldn't be held back and flowed down. I told Xie Yi that I had broken up with Xiaoxi.

  Xie Yi said, "Is it because of Xiaoxi that you and I are breaking up?" I shook my head and said it was me who initiated it. Xie Yi immediately looked at me in surprise, asking why, and saying that Xiaoxi is such a good girl, always quietly following me, never saying anything, and how could I break up with her. At the same time, his fist in his hand was about to hit me.

  I couldn't help but laugh and said: "Xie Yi, if you're a brother, then hit me, kill me once and for all."

  Xie Yi put down his hand, picked up a beer bottle and started drinking. At this time, Yang Li also came over, he saw us all blowing bottles, didn't care what we were doing, directly followed suit, picked up the wine and drank it desperately too.

  After I drank the second bottle, I couldn't take it anymore, my stomach was bloated and I couldn't continue with a third bottle. At this time, Xie Yi asked me that since it was me who proposed the breakup, why was I still feeling sad.

  I smiled self-deprecatingly and then told them the news that I had heard Xiao Xi was my younger sister. As for other things, I didn't say anything. Xie Yi and Yang Li were also stunned after hearing my words, probably they didn't expect that the reason why I broke up with Xiao Xi was this either. I said now I really want to die, every day without Xiao Xi is extremely painful.

  Finally, they both started advising me, saying that since heaven is going to play tricks on me like this, I shouldn't go against the tide and be stubborn with Xiaohui. They told me to go and have a new romance, only new feelings can wash away all of this. I don't know if this will make me forget Xiaohui, but I really need to give it a try. I know that there's no possibility for me and Xiaohui anymore, so I must let go.

  I feel like my life is just like a Korean drama, and it's even more complicated than that. I only blame my dad for all of this. As we drank with them for a while and vented our frustrations, I felt a bit better. Just then, four young men in their twenties walked in through the door, looking very arrogant. They walked straight towards our table. One of the more muscular guys walked up to us, slammed his fist on the wooden table, making it shake. He glared at us and said, "This table was booked by us first, what right do you have to sit here? You kids don't know the rules, huh?"