Chapter Thirty-Four: The More You Love, the More You Hurt

  In the following days, Jiang Xiaoqiao stayed in her dormitory and didn't go out.

  She stays in her dormitory every day with a messy hair and dirty face, staring blankly at her phone, as if waiting for a call, or maybe waiting for a reply.

  Of course, Lin Yishui, Liang Xue and Jiang Yun all had doubts about Jiang Xiaoqiao's condition.

  But out of a sense of confidentiality, I can only pretend I don't know and say that she might be too tired lately.

  I looked at Jiang Xiaoqiao's depressed state and wanted to help her, but was powerless.

  I hope she can get out of her weird thought circle as soon as possible, and I also hope she can give up this child.

  I only return to the dormitory during the three meals a day, to help Jiang Xiaoqiao with her meal. The rest of my time is spent studying in the library with Lin Yishui, Jiang Yun and Liang Xue. Occasionally, Fang Wenke will also come to study with me, bringing Zhao Jun along.

  It was my idea to let Fang Wenke bring Zhao Jun to the library. I just wanted to give Zhao Jun and Jiang Yun more opportunities to cultivate their feelings, but all the signs are showing that my actions are superfluous, Zhao Jun is simply unmoved!

  Today was the same as usual with us four girls in the library, Fang Wenke and Zhao Jun were practicing Taekwondo in the gym.

  I flipped through the hundred-page summary, quickly scanning all the exam content with my eyes; Liang Xue, a diligent student, repeatedly copied the same question on her draft paper, she always felt that good memory was not as good as a rotten pen head; Jiang Yun, a clever student, summarized the exam points on white paper, and at first glance, it was an ordinary academic tyrant; while Lin Yishui, a tyrannical student, wore professional headphones, sat there nodding to the rhythm, her eyes staring at the book, but she hadn't turned a page for half a day, as if isolated from the world...

  I straightened up, stretched and decided to end today's morning struggle.

  Liang Xue and Jiang Yun saw me close the book and put down the neutral pen in their hands at the same time.

  Now only Lin Yishui with headphones was still lowering her head, I just wanted to stretch out my hand to touch her head, but Lin Yishui suddenly sang a loud song.

  At this moment, everyone in the library looked over at us, it was so embarrassing.

  Liang Xue saw that Lin Yishui had not reacted yet and quickly removed the large headphones from her head.

  At this time, Lin Yishui finally lifted his head and came back to himself.

  Li Xue whispered to her: "Sister! You're too absorbed in the song, aren't you? Just now you even sang out loud, and now you've become the center of attention!"

  Lin Yishui looked around and found herself still in the library, with everyone staring at her and smiling fawningly.

  Lin Yishui's face suddenly turned red, and then she buried her head in the crook of her arm. The three of us snickered softly.

  As we walked out of the library, Liang Xue said to us three: "Let's go out for lunch today! We won't go back to the dormitory, how about going straight back to the library?"

  "Let's go!" Lin Yishui and Jiang Yun replied in unison.

  "And you? Unnamed?" Liang Xue asked as she saw I didn't respond.

  "Of course! But you guys go straight to the library later, okay? I still need to bring lunch for Jiang Xiaoqiao!" I replied.

  "What's wrong with Jiang Xiaoqiao lately? She won't even say when I ask her! You've been bringing her lunch for how many days now, almost two weeks!" Liang Xue said somewhat impatiently.

  "It's just bringing lunch, it's a convenient thing to do, and it won't tire me out, what's the hurry! Xiao Qiao might have something on her mind, she'll be fine after a while!" I explained.

  Liang Xue looked at my vague response and once again brought out her female detective spirit, starting to interrogate me. "Wei Ming, do you know something that you haven't told us?"

  Her question really made me feel guilty, because I've never been good at telling lies since I was a child.

  I shook my head and calmly said: "Don't be so suspicious, it's not like I've leaked state secrets or anything!"

  Liang Xue smiled and didn't continue asking questions. The four of us went straight to the mixed rice restaurant at the school gate and had a delicious meal.

  When I went back to the dormitory, I packed a mixed rice and stone pot bean paste soup for Jiang Xiaoqiao, which were her usual favorite dishes.

  It wasn't until I opened the dormitory door that I found Jiang Xiaoqiao curled up on the ground, convulsing and covered in sweat.

  I hastily put down the dishes and carried Xiao Qiao back to bed, feeling her forehead, only to find that she had a fever.

  I quickly rummaged through the cabinet and found the family first-aid kit that Fang Wenke had prepared for me, took out the antipyretic medicine, and fed it to Jiang Xiaoqiao.

  After she finished taking her medicine, I took out my phone and wanted to call Fang Wenke to take us to the hospital.

  But before I could dial Fang Wenke's phone number, Jiang Xiaoqiao stopped me with all her might: "Weiming! Don't...don't make the call, it'll be fine in a bit, I don't want...others to know."

  Looking at Jiang Xiaoqiao's frail appearance, my heart is really too distressed. I don't know why a woman would torture herself like this, and it's all for an unworthy man and an untimely child.

  I sat beside Jiang Xiaoqiao and took care of her for a while.

  I saw that she had recovered a bit, and hastily handed her the still-warm rice and soup. Jiang Xiaoqiao looked at the food in my hands, shook her head and said: "Weiming, thank you for taking care of me, but I don't think I can eat."

  I took a spoon and scooped up a small amount of soup from the bowl, placing it at her lips. "You have to eat something, even if you can't! If you don't, your body will collapse! What about Liang Chengming? Hasn't he come looking for you? Didn't he call you?"

  Jiang Xiaoqiao saw that I had already brought the soup to her lips, so she had no choice but to drink it down. Then she said to me: "He's here, and he's called too, but he still wants me to have an abortion. I told him, I won't abort the child, if he doesn't divorce his wife, I'll go to his house and cause a scene!"

  "Xiao Qiao, I don't want to lecture you anymore. Why can't you understand? Your family isn't short of money either, why do you have to degrade yourself like this?"

  "I love him too much, I've invested too much in him, I just can't let go! But why do I love him so much, yet he treats me like this?" As she spoke, Xiao Qiao began to cry again.

  "Do you want to know why he treats you like this? He can treat you like this because you've given too much! Because you make him feel that you're too easy to get, and he feels that being with you is no longer exciting!"

  "It won't be him, he's not that kind of person! It won't be......" Jiang Xiaoqiao cried while pounding her chest, the scene was heart-wrenching.

  Jiang Xiaoqiao still didn't eat anything and couldn't struggle out of her suffering.

  I don't know how long this state of hers will last, or when it will end. All I see in her is too much reality and the fragility of love.

  In love, it's always the one who is most sincere that gets hurt.