Chapter Seventeen: The Lonely Dream

  The dazzling light forced me to open my eyes, but I couldn't open them. When I blinked and looked around, I found that I had already woken up. The lights in the company were dazzlingly bright, and the computer on the desk was still flashing. I had returned to the world of the living again.

  Security guard Yang Xiaofei and his wife and child all disappeared like the dream just now.

  I rubbed my eyes, a wave of sadness surged up in my heart, and I still fantasized about starting an inexplicable romance with Yang Xiaofei. However, this dream was too short-lived, just a blink of an eye, and I suddenly woke up.

  Know people know face don't know heart, also don't know if they have a wife or not.

  I hung my head in sorrow, at this time, I saw the QQ avatar on the right bottom of the computer screen flashing constantly.

  It was a verification message from a good friend when I opened it casually.

  The person who sent the message was called Lonely Dream, perhaps this name is particularly suitable for my current mood. Looking at the thick night outside the company, I involuntarily pressed agree, and soon the avatar flashed again.

  "Hello!" Two words appeared on the screen.

  "Hello." I hesitated for a moment before responding.

  "I'm so glad I got to meet you on a night like this." More words appeared before me.

  "I am too." I felt a twinge of anxiety and some hope in my heart.

  "If I'm not mistaken, you're a beauty."

  I feel my eyelids burning and my heart beating faster.

  "I'm really sorry, I'm not a beauty, just an ordinary girl." I hesitated for a moment and still told the truth.

  Half a day passed without a response from the other side, and the blank dialogue box remained still, my heart sank.

  Everyone likes beautiful women, but I don't.

  I slowly got up and walked to the glass door in front of me, and my ordinary figure appeared on the clean glass. My ordinary face that couldn't be more ordinary, round but not round, square but not square, seemed to be telling my mediocrity, weakness and incompetence.

  I am so inconspicuous, like a small grass in the flower bed at the corner of the street, or a dull pebble on the riverbank. No one will notice me, and no one will like me.

  I suddenly thought of Yang Xiaofei, the figure that seemed to be waiting for me on purpose, his caring eyes, and the words he said that hit my heart. I felt as if I had already touched the warmth he gave me, but it was just a flash of sunlight. In the blink of an eye, my sky turned into dark clouds again.

  Perhaps everything in the dream is real. I spread out my palms, under the lamplight, trying to distinguish the lines on my hands, has my fate been cursed by that ugly girl in the dream?

  Slumped back into the chair, staring at the still quiet screen, weakly closing the dialogue box. In this state of mind, I didn't feel like writing any research report.

  I feel like I've become a broken jar, and I really want to smash myself against the wall opposite me. What work, what salary, what livelihood - all of it can go to hell! I'm a person nobody cares about, not even my parents want me anymore. I'm living alone in this world with harsh bosses, colleagues who take pleasure in my misfortune, and endless bad luck that could happen at any moment. What reason do I have left to stay in this world?

  It's late at night, and the surroundings are quiet, as if all the people in the world have disappeared, leaving only me still tapping away on my computer, typing out one word after another. The sound of the keyboard echoes through the silent night, occasionally interrupted by the rumble of a large truck driving by outside, reminding me that I'm still alive in the real world of the 21st century. Just as I finally finish writing the research report, my QQ avatar suddenly flashes back to life.

  Suddenly, my heart started racing. On such a deep night, the flashing of QQ, as if it touched another restless heart that couldn't calm down.

  "Beauty, are you still there?" Still the desolate dream from just now.

  "In short... I've said it before, I'm not a beauty, I don't look good, just an ordinary-looking girl." I typed out this string of words somewhat impatiently.

  "Haha," the other person laughed, sending over a smiling face with gleaming teeth. "You're really interesting, okay, female, no, ordinary-looking girl, thank you so much! I was in a bad mood tonight, but after getting to know you, for some reason, I suddenly became happy."

  "My mood isn't good either."

  "Why? Can you share?"

  "My parents got divorced today."

  "Oh, what bad luck."

  "I don't know why they got divorced, they've been quarreling all these years and I'm used to it, but no matter how much they fought, they were still a family. Now that they're suddenly divorced, I find it hard to adapt."

  The other party did not respond, but the sourness in my heart was like a dough that had risen and expanded uncontrollably. I continued to knock.

  "Now I have a feeling of being abandoned, I think they don't take me seriously, thinking about my lonely childhood, I really feel that life is meaningless."

  "It's actually very normal for parents to get divorced. If I had an unhappy marriage, I would also choose to divorce. Rather than forcing ourselves to stay together, it's better for each person to find their own happiness."

  Standing and talking isn't tiring for you, I almost got hit by this sentence. The conversation didn't go well, I thought of going offline. But the avatar flashed again.

  "But if I were you, maybe I would tie them together with a rope."

  I couldn't help but laugh.

  "A forced melon is not sweet."

  "That's it, as long as you understand."

  "You're good at comforting people, but I still can't shake off this feeling. I think there's no one in this world who truly cares about me. And just now, I almost fell in love, but it was a fleeting romance that ended as quickly as it began."

  "Why?"

  "Because I was just moved by him, but his wife and children appeared."

  "Hmm, quite interesting. I also got dumped today, the girlfriend who grew up with me since childhood became someone else's mistress."

  "Oh? Is that so......"

  "I feel disheartened and disappointed, emotions are nothing compared to money!"

  "Ah..."

  "I'm suffering and lonely, I originally wanted to use this outdated QQ way to casually get to know a woman and ask her out, but I didn't expect it was you who made me not give up."

  "Me? Because I'm not beautiful?"

  The other party sent another smiling face with a big grin.

  "Not because of that, but because you're cute."

  I widened my eyes and carefully looked at the words on the screen again, but with a bang, the computer was like a gate that had been shut down, and it went black. A light static electricity made the hairs on my hand near the screen stand up, and at the same time, the overhead light also went out.

  The office, which was just bright, immediately fell into darkness.

  The power went out. After I came to, I slowly felt my way up from the chair and stood up. Outside was also pitch black, it seemed that the entire electrical circuit in this area had failed.

  Suddenly plunged into the darkness, I was extremely frightened, and trembled as I felt my way from the east end of the office to the west end, and then from the west end to the door. I tried to open the door, but thinking that outside was an even deeper darkness, I turned back, like a mouse blocked by a cat at the entrance of its hole, turning round and round in circles. Finally, fear and fatigue exhausted me, and I fell asleep on the sofa at the door.