Chapter 82: Cherish a Man's Tears (05)

  There are some things in life that cannot be forced or rushed. What is meant to come will come, and what is meant to go will eventually leave!

  It's always easy to hear friends say it, but when it comes to doing it yourself, it's so hard. Chen Haonan was lost in thought again, perhaps he was still trapped in that confusion, and he never managed to walk out of it...

  The three days of June 6, 7 and 8, the college entrance examination that was advanced by one month compared to previous years came quietly. The third-year high school students were busy rushing to the exam venue, welcoming challenges, and preparing for a big battle, while the first- and second-year students had a rare three-day holiday because of this.

  The class had just announced the news of going home from school, and Ou Yang Yiweng sent "Xin Ling Xuan" to Chen Haonan. He knew she must have written another "Overnight Guest", but he didn't rush to open it and read it, only smiling and bidding her farewell... However, as soon as he returned home, Chen Haonan eagerly opened "Xin Ling Xuan", looking for the new page left by Ou Yang Yiweng. Finally, after "Overnight Guest (Four)", he found "Overnight Guest (Five)":

  Facing the sunset, this day's calendar is filled with sadness.

  I am waiting again, waiting for tomorrow's arrival...

  Journey of tomorrow

  We will brave the wind and rain, and march forward with songs.

  Sitting in the quiet corner, I couldn't help but think of past sorrows and mistakes again.

  At this moment, I am searching for the oath of the past again

  But despite many promises, all I got was a few drops of wind and rain.

  Regret, there's really too much regret!

  But then I had another wonderful idea...

  Raise your head and gaze up at the sky, where stars are twinkling everywhere.

  The stars tonight seem to be conveying some kind of message.

  Their information is much more mysterious than I imagined...

  Twinkling in the dark, I wish upon a falling star

  Then I can make the most beautiful wish come true.

  From now on, I will follow the road illuminated by starlight

  Keep going...

  Not many people know,

  I just want you to know

  Knowing I am just a passerby

  A traveler with aspirations...

  Reading Ouyang Yiweng's poem slowly, Chen Haonan seemed to have entered the situation she described: The night was very dark, without a single moonlight, but the starry sky was so beautiful. They seemed to gather in the night sky, telling one fairy tale after another. At this moment, Ouyang Yiweng leaned against the window, looking at the beautiful starry sky, and infinite reveries surged in her heart. Suddenly, a meteor flashed across the sky, she excitedly hurried to put her hands together, making the most beautiful wish.

  Suddenly, a different impulse emerged from the bottom of Chen Haonan's heart, this impulse stabbed him with a throbbing heartache, and yet it seemed to have a slight tingling sensation. However, what exactly this feeling was, he still couldn't say clearly, but he vaguely felt that something was going to happen...

  During the three-day holiday, Chen Haonan sometimes helped with farm work at home with his sister Chen Jiayi, sometimes chatted with his grandparents and mother about family matters, and sometimes lay in bed reading books or went out for a walk alone... In this way, the holiday passed quickly.

  On the afternoon of June 9th, Chen Haonan returned to school early as usual. When he arrived at his dormitory, he found that two clothes he had changed a while ago were still on his bed, so he took a bucket and prepared to wash them. However, when he looked under the bed, he found that there was originally a large bag of laundry detergent, but now only an empty packaging bag was left. He was very angry, but there was nothing he could do about it. After all, in some respects, the entire dormitory had long entered a "communist" society - however, just as he was about to enjoy the benefits of this "communism", he found that the shared laundry detergent resources of the entire dormitory were zero! There was no way out, so he could only go out and buy some.

  Chen Haonan could have bought a packet of laundry detergent at the school's small shop, but thinking that he hadn't gone out for a stroll in a long time, he decided to go out and take a walk. As soon as he came out of the school's back door, Chen Haonan rushed straight to "Longxing Supermarket", the largest and only self-service supermarket in Linfeng Town.

  He quickly picked up a bag of laundry detergent and walked away, Chen Haonan decided to pick up a few more bags of instant noodles. So, he took two packs of "Kangshifu" and three packs of "Fumanduo" from the shelf. However, just as Chen Haonan was about to turn around and go to the counter to pay, a girl suddenly appeared out of nowhere - she blocked his way with some anger... "Jiajia?!" Chen Haonan was shocked for a moment, because the person who blocked his way was Li Jia, the sister of his good friend Li Donglin. Suddenly, he remembered that time in Lin Yu Village, and that one wrong impulse.

  Ever since then, Chen Haonan had been regretful about that trip to "Lin Yu Village", especially the fact that he had kissed Li Jia in a daze made his heart feel guilty. So, he visited Lee Donglin's house less frequently, because he was afraid of seeing Li Jia's eyes, and even more afraid of the awkwardness when they were alone together...

  So, every time he comes out onto the street, Chen Haonan always sneaks out of the school's back door. He is afraid that if he walks through the main gate, he will run into Li Jia. However, at this moment, Li Jia suddenly appears in front of him. Startled, he says somewhat nervously: "Jiajia, you... how are you also here?"

  However, Li Jia just smiled and called out "Hao Nan Ge", then said: "I have something to tell you!" Her voice was still sweet, but it lacked a bit of girlishness and had a hint of overbearingness.

  "Let's go, talk while walking." Chen Haonan said and went to the counter to pay.

  "Hehe!" Li Jia secretly smiled to herself and quickly followed up.

  However, Chen Haonan and Li Jiagang had just walked out of the self-service store when they ran into Li Donglin, who had just emerged from an internet cafe. Due to the class division and increasingly tense studies, Li Donglin and Chen Haonan hadn't hung out together in a long time. So as soon as they met, the two old friends started chatting idly. There was no way for Li Jiagang to join in, so she could only stand by with puffed cheeks, watching them quietly without saying a word. Despite this, Li Jiagang looked at Chen Haonan's smiling face and his relaxed demeanor, and suddenly felt especially happy and relieved in her heart...

  Back in the dormitory, Chen Haonan sat on the edge of the bed, dazed and confused. He didn't know why, but suddenly he felt a sense of confusion, as if he was standing alone in an endless desert with no light, no trees, no flowers, no insects, and no people - only himself, foolishly standing there, accompanied by loneliness, desolation, helplessness, and the biting cold wind.

  He lay down abruptly, Chen Haonan rubbed his head hard, forcing himself to calm down, but he couldn't do it. Maybe it was his father's death that he still hadn't adapted to, maybe it was the current learning situation that made him worried, or maybe it was Li Jia's immature feelings towards him... Anyway, all of this made Chen Haonan become confused.