Chapter 006 Refusal, Because of No Sense of Security

  On Monday, after the second class, Wan Zhaohui sat in the classroom reading "Pride and Prejudice", with the cover wrapped in white calendar paper. People around her didn't notice what book it was, but they saw that she was completely absorbed in it. She liked Elizabeth's unique personality in the book, and admired her confidence and unique insights when facing the wealthy Darcy.

  "Chao Hui, your letter!" Liu Huifeng hastily ran in front of Wan Chao Hui, holding a letter in his hand.

  Wan Chao Hui was staring blankly, suddenly being disturbed, feeling a bit annoyed. She raised her head expressionlessly and looked at the letter shaking in Liu Hui's hand. "My letter, give it to me!" Wan Chao Hui lazily stretched out her hand to take the envelope, but Liu Hui dodged away.

  "Zao Hui, take a look at this envelope!" Liu Hui said mysteriously.

  "What's wrong with the envelope? It clearly says 'Wan Chao Hui'! It's for me!"

  "Oh dear, I'm letting you see this stamp!" Liu Hui said somewhat impatiently.

  "What's wrong with the stamp?" Wan Zhaohui didn't have the mind to pay attention to these things, she was thinking about who sent this letter, looking at the flying and sloppy handwriting on the envelope, it seemed a bit like Lin Boyang's, could it be his letter? What is he doing sending a letter at this time?

  "Oh no, you're so silly, this stamp is stuck on upside down, didn't you notice?" Liu Hui's loud voice immediately drew the attention of her surrounding classmates.

  "Can't you just speak directly?" Wan Chao Hui saw that her classmates around them were paying attention and got a bit annoyed.

  "Really, you don't even know this? The stamp is upside down, which means it's a love letter! The person who wrote the letter is confessing their love to you! No wonder you little girl won't accept anyone else's pursuit, could it be that you're waiting for the owner of the letter?" Liu Hui said with a pretentious serious thinking face.

  "Stop messing around and hand over the letter!" Liu Hui's voice was loud enough for everyone in the classroom to hear, and they all stared at them with bated breath, curious about Wan Mei's romantic secrets. It seemed that now there was finally a development, and it couldn't help but disappoint those boys who had a crush on Wan Chao Hui, who were jealous of the owner of the letter.

  "Look, you're finally anxious! I'll give it to you!" Liu Hui said with a smile.

  Wan Zhaohui received the letter and carefully looked at the handwriting on the envelope, becoming even more certain that it was sent by Lin Boyang. He couldn't help but mutter to himself: "He's writing me a love letter? Is this guy messing with me?"

  Wan Chao Hui opened the envelope, took out the contents inside, and Liu Hui leaned over to take a look. Wan Chao Hui covered the letter with the envelope, staring straight at Liu Hui in front of him.

  "Alright, alright, I know, letters are private, I'll leave you alone, take your time!" Liu Hui tactfully walked away.

  Wan Chao Hui smiled faintly as she unfolded the letter to read its contents.

  Chao Hui: Hello!

  Long time no see! I finally heard news about you, how did you end up studying finance? In high school, didn't you say you wanted to learn cooking and become a chef? Chao Hui, I'm not someone who likes to beat around the bush, so I'll be honest with you - over the years, I've had no less than ten girlfriends. Now, I want to find my true home, can you be my girlfriend? Looking forward to your reply!

  Lin Boyang

  After reading the letter, Wan Zhaohui was skeptical: what was Lin Boyang up to? Why would he suddenly ask her to be his girlfriend without any reason? Could she trust him? Even if it were true, Wan Zhaohui couldn't agree. She asked herself, and she had to admit that she had a good impression of Lin Boyang. She liked his intelligence, and they shared the same disdain for their high school's rigid standards, which judged students solely on their grades. They had both entered the school with high scores in the middle school entrance exam, but their grades had suddenly dropped. The main reason was their young teacher, Pan Jianguo, who favored students based on personal preferences and family background. It was easy to overlook students like Wan Zhaohui and Lin Boyang, who were proud and sensitive. As for Wan Zhaohui herself, she needed encouragement and affirmation; she needed to be valued and guided in a positive way. This was her motivation for learning. In junior high school, her respected teacher, Deng Wenyang, had been an experienced educator who understood students' psychology. He had treated Wan Zhaohui with the same love as a mother would, often saying that she had good memory, high IQ, and was very smart. She could remember many things without having to memorize them. Originally, her parents had hoped that she would attend a vocational normal school and become a teacher at a railway school after graduation. However, Teacher Deng and all the other teachers thought that Wan Zhaohui was a child with strong self-esteem and should attend a key high school and take the college entrance exam to have a brighter future. Now that she had failed the college entrance exam, Wan Zhaohui didn't blame anyone, but deep down, she hadn't given up on herself.

  Sometimes Wan Chao Hui felt that Lin Bo Yang was quite good at catering to her psychology. The deepest impression was a month before the college entrance examination, when the head teacher Pan Jian Guo borrowed an audio classroom from the school to relieve the pressure on his classmates, or rather, to relieve the pressure on those top students who were full of hope. Let everyone sing happy karaoke together! When Wan Chao Hui watched Pan Jian Guo and those bookworms in her eyes singing some campus songs, listening to their off-key voices, she felt a strong sense of disgust in her heart. Finally, she couldn't control herself, stood up, pointed to Lin Bo Yang who was playing the song, and sang a song "Xiao Xiao Zou Yi Hui". Lin Bo Yang was shocked when the sad melody of the erhu mixed with the happy rhythm, Wan Chao Hui took the microphone, imitated Ye Qian Wen's high-pitched voice, and emotionally started singing: The world is vast, time is fleeting, the tide rises and falls, who can see through the joys and sorrows of life and death? The red dust is rolling, the love is deep, the gathering and separation are destined... Lin Bo Yang was surprised and delighted to watch Wan Chao Hui, couldn't help but pick up another microphone and sing along with Wan Chao Hui: Leave half awake, leave half drunk, at least in dreams there is you following me, I bet my youth on tomorrow, you exchange this life for true love, how many sorrows are there in the years, why not walk away freely?

  The two people's sense of rhythm is very compatible, completely blending into the atmosphere of the song, ignoring the curious eyes behind them: Are they in love?

  As Wan Chao Hui recalls the days spent with Lin Bo Yang, a faint smile involuntarily appears at the corner of her mouth. Lin Bo Yang would always sing different songs to her when she was feeling down and silent, until he made her laugh; he would tease her on April Fool's Day; he would get jealous when Wan Chao Hui lent her bicycle key to other handsome guys in class; he would play a game of shooting three-pointers with Wan Chao Hui on the basketball court, where the loser would buy soda. Lin Bo Yang could always use his seemingly inexhaustible confidence and optimistic spirit to infect Wan Chao Hui, making her temporarily forget the faint sadness in her heart.

  Wan Chao Hui repeatedly looked at the letter in her hand, although all memories of Lin Bo Yang were vivid, but Wan Chao Hui had a very firm idea: she could not be Lin Bo Yang's girlfriend! The reason was simple: what she needed was a lifelong love that would never change. Facing Lin Bo Yang, she didn't feel secure. In the letter, Lin Bo Yang admitted to having almost ten girlfriends, and as a freshman in college, his romantic history was already so rich. It was hard to imagine how he would be in the future. She felt that Lin Bo Yang could betray her emotions at any time! Moreover, Lin Bo Yang's personality was frivolous and lacking in depth. In Wan Chao Hui's opinion, he couldn't become a great figure. Choosing him as a partner, her family's elders wouldn't take it seriously!

  At noon that day, Wan Zhaohui did not go home and wrote a letter to Lin Boyang after lunch.

  Bo Yang, hello!

  I was surprised to receive your letter. To be honest, I'm afraid I won't be able to accept being your girlfriend! You are one of the few good friends I had in high school. If this ruins our relationship, then let's just cut ties. But if you think it's no big deal, then we can still be good friends.

  Ten thousand mornings dawn

  The next afternoon, Lin Boyang received a reply from Wan Zhaohui. In the letter, Wan Zhaohui refused to be his girlfriend, which was what he had expected. He didn't think that his sincerity would have no effect on her, and she was really too stubborn and heartless, making it difficult for him to deal with her. This aspect of hers was very similar to Lin Boyang himself, and it was also the part that interested him the most. If Wan Zhaohui had easily accepted him, then she would have lost all significance in his eyes. It's human nature for men to be drawn to what they can't get. However, he still felt that Wan Zhaohui had feelings for him, and it wouldn't be easy for her to treat him as just a good friend with her personality. He just couldn't understand what was going on in Wan Zhaohui's mind - her thoughts were always elusive and unpredictable. Sometimes she would be silent and melancholic, with a hint of sadness between her eyebrows, while other times she would be laughing and joking around, very childlike, making it hard for people to guess what she was thinking. Unlike Ye Caiyun, who had revealed her true feelings after just a few interactions. Among the other girls he had been in contact with, there were also some who were difficult to deal with, but in the end, they hadn't escaped his charm. However, when it came to Wan Zhaohui, Lin Boyang had been unable to capture her heart for three years of high school. He refused to believe that Wan Zhaohui's heart was really as cold and unfeeling as stone. Lin Boyang took out a small notebook that he always carried with him, which contained a passage he had secretly copied from Wan Zhaohui's writing:

  Half awake and half drunk, half joyful and half sorrowful.

  I don't understand, what kind of sorrow is in your heart

  I was drunk for those gentle and affectionate eyes

  My sorrow has never been known to anyone.

  Locking up my helpless thoughts

  Lock up the dream that I should have woken up early

  Lock away half of the joy in that desolate wilderness.

  From this day on

  At this moment

  Don't blame me for being heartless

  Don't blame me for being ruthless

  Don't hate me, my heart is like water

  Life is short, so walk freely.

  Get out of your own way, get out of exhaustion!

  He had read this text dozens of times, and he really wanted to understand Wan Zhao Hui's true heart from the words. Sometimes he would fantasize that the text was written for him, but after a while, he would think it didn't seem like it. Who was she intoxicated with? Who was she sad for? Every time he recalled Wan Zhao Hui singing "Carefree" in the audio classroom, Lin Bo Yang's heart felt as if it had been struck by something, and it hurt a lot. In fact, he didn't want to fall in love, but was there a woman in this world worth him putting his true heart into? Would it be her, Wan Zhao Hui? Underneath her cold exterior, did she also have a heart willing to give everything for true love?