Chapter 6 Yesterday has gone far away, but it will always exist

  Yesterday has gone far away, but it will always exist and can never be erased.

  Those past events have left no mark.

  At this moment, I am immersed in the memories of the past. In my heart, I will always remember a boy named He Xiying. Those memories about him have become a deep imprint in my heart, no matter how the world changes, it will forever reside in the sky of my heart.

  I remember that summer, his eyes were filled with warmth, he wanted to say something to me, but it was buried in the wind, from then on, his quiet gaze became a certain kind of wound in my heart.

  All this is because I had no choice but to decline politely.

  But Western movies, you know? In the days that followed, there were things you didn't know about. That thing made me clearly understand that my polite refusal did not bring me happiness.

  That day, we each exchanged papers to grade because we had to do one or two sets of exercises every day. Due to the tight schedule, the teacher could only collectively explain on the same day and then let us correct the exercises in our hands, so that we could do new exercises the next day.

  I wrote very detailed steps for you, but my tears are already swirling in my eyes. I'm trying my best to hold them back and not let them fall, knowing that at this moment, those tears are faintly visible under the glasses I only wear during class.

  You kept turning your head to look at me. You seemed to be asking me: "What's wrong with you?" I read the concern in your eyes.

  And why did I cry? Because of the girl Su Qian in front of you, she talks to you every day after class. That day, you two went to school together, all our classmates thought you were together, including me. But later I found out that wasn't true. You just happened to meet by chance.

  That thing made me clearly understand my own mind. But everything was already vague, before, when you said you wanted to be friends, I had already turned around.

  But you know what? I just wanted to make my learning environment a bit simpler. In front of others, I'm the proud princess, but in front of you, that feeling is gone, and instead, I get nervous and can't speak, many times, it's because of me, that makes us not say a word from the moment we meet on the way to school until we enter the school gate. I also don't know why every time I see you, I'm not as natural as usual, but when I leave, I miss this feeling. This situation didn't change until later.

  I read a book about a girl who would get tongue-tied whenever she met someone she liked because of her racing heart. Am I similar to her in some way?

  The greeting card you gave me, I will treasure it forever and ever, until old age.

  Actually, when I passed by the book market, I found a beautiful greeting card with a blue-green background, winter sun hanging in the sky, and a girl standing in the wind, deep in thought... Its scenery is beautifully melancholic, deeply attracting me.

  Back home, I wrote down a blessing: This season is cold, the winter sun hangs high in the sky, you are forever my first and last thought.

  Then, along with my hopes, it was locked in the drawer.

  Because I couldn't untangle these emotions in the midst of my busy school life, I could only let go. So it was doomed to be a beautiful yet heartbreaking memory, with no future.

  So, sorry Western movie.

  In memory, his quiet eyes make me always sad, but I know this is not my fault, it's a joke that time plays on us, and it's tempering us.

  And I heard them say, let bygones be bygones! Those painful memories of the past, just freeze them in memory forever!

  This season, the city no longer has fluttering snow, only spring sunshine, falling flowers, cherry blossom rain, and fragrant green grass... everything is so beautiful.