A girl with clear eyebrows and bright eyes wants to kill a teacher's cold heart

  After listening to her words, my heart was trembling with cold and heat. When she spoke of the sad parts, I almost shed tears several times, but she didn't shed a single tear, as if it wasn't about herself. It can be seen that this girl has experienced unimaginable hardships, and her originally tender heart has become numb, apathetic, and hardened.

  "Have you already made up your mind to kill the teacher?"

  She said without a doubt:

  "Yes!"

  As soon as she said the word "yes", her head suddenly turned to one side, and her eyes also widened, with a chilling light in them. A terrible feeling made me realize the severity of the problem at once.

  "You've already decided to kill him, so why come find me?"

  "Our principal is okay with me, it's him who told me to come find you. I want to kill the teacher, everyone in school knows about this, no one can control me, so they let me come find you. I've read your book, I admire you, otherwise, no one would have made me come..."

  This is a very stubborn child, if I can't conquer her and suppress her arrogance, this consultation will be a failure. She will become more and more unmanageable, the consequences are unthinkable, so I secretly tell myself: I must succeed, I am not allowed to fail.

  I said firmly to her:

  "Don't you believe I can convince you?"

  "It's impossible and also unnecessary."

  I lowered my voice but ordered her in a very forceful tone:

  "Look up and stare into my eyes!"

  She raised her head in surprise, staring at me with wide eyes:

  "Teacher Si, you..."

  "Bai Xue, listen to me carefully. You've underestimated my abilities. If I can't convince you today, tomorrow I'll take down the sign and never do psychological counseling again. Do you believe me? Answer me!"

  Her face flushed red as she lifted her head, pursed her lips tightly and shook her head subconsciously. Such a child's rebellious heart

  Her logic is very strong, and her personality is relatively straightforward. When speaking to her, there's no need for subtlety. I directly asked her: "First, tell me how you plan to commit murder and what kind of weapon you'll use? Let me hear if you're an old hand at this."

  She was taken aback at first, then forced a bitter smile:

  "Teacher Si, don't look at me as just a girl, but I can do things that even boys dare not to do, do you believe it?"

  "I believe this."

  My words seemed to give her some sort of affirmation, and she said with a pleased smile:

  "Isn't it easy to kill someone? I've been watching the road she takes after work, there's a spot that's quite secluded, basically no one passes by at night. I haven't eaten for two days, just to save money to buy a knife, anyway she won't let me go to school, so I have time to prepare on the streets. Yesterday, I already bought the knife back, planning to sharpen it a bit more, and then when she's completely unprepared, one slash will kill her."

  I took a cold breath after hearing her words, and when I looked at those eyes again, there was no longer any warmth or innocence. I said:

  "You must have thought of the consequences of killing someone?"

  "She said calmly: 'A life for a life, I understand this principle. Anyway, living is meaningless, everyone in the world hates me, and I've thought about dying more than once, so I'm not afraid of anything.'"

  Yes, a person who is not even afraid of death, what can't she do? Her heart is filled with hostility towards her family, school and society. It's hatred that makes her produce extreme ideas without hesitation. To calm her down, we must first let her resolve the resentment and hatred in her heart.

  "Don't you have any attachment to this world at all?"

  "No! Not at all, because I have nothing."

  "Your parents are still alive, how can you say nothing is wrong?"

  "Hating you is better than not having you."

  "Doesn't your mom ever take care of you?"

  "All they give me is money, but what I need isn't money, it's love, the kind of love other mothers give their children!"

  "This feeling, Teacher Si, you don't understand..."

  She pursed her lips, turned her face to one side, and her eyes reddened slightly, but she quickly calmed down: "Forget it, anyway I don't need love anymore, go to hell, that's my fate."

  "Bai Xue, are you particularly dissatisfied with your parents' divorce?"

  "They are too selfish, only caring about their own feelings, and not taking any responsibility for the child. I hate them! When I die, when I'm shot dead, let them reflect on it and regret it when they come to collect my body!"

  "Do you think this outcome is the best revenge for them?"

  "Yes! Nothing else can wake them up."

  "Snow, adults have their own lives. There are some things that you can't understand at your current age. Have you ever thought about it? If your dad and mom's relationship broke down and they were still living together but constantly arguing, would you be happy living in such an environment?"

  "If you didn't like it, why get married in the first place? Once you're married and have kids, you need to take responsibility. Wanting a divorce is just too selfish."

  "For your sake, Dad and Mom suffer and have to force themselves to live together, isn't this selfish of you?"

  I am a child...

  "What's wrong with the child? Can't the child have the right to ask parents for sacrifice, why can't parents make their own choices for their own lives? Who gave you this privilege? Did parents give you life and become sinners instead?"

  "After all, I am the most unlucky person in this world."

  "What kind of bad luck have you encountered? Your parents are all alive, they're just separated, it's not that they don't love you! Do you know how many orphans there are, and how much they yearn to have a dad and mom?! An orphan once cried to me saying that even if he had a father and mother who scolded him and beat him all day long, he would still be the happiest person in the world. Parents don't necessarily have to unconditionally love their own children, it depends on what kind of child they are, there was a mother who personally killed her own son who couldn't be taught."

  "He must have been too hateful, otherwise his mother wouldn't have had the heart to kill her own son."

  "Well said! It's because he was hateful to the extreme that his own mother had to kill him with her own hands. Now think about it in reverse, a good girl who insists on learning bad things, not studying well, not being a good person, fighting, scolding people, almost doing everything except killing and arson, now escalating to wanting to kill again! If you were the parent, would you love such a child? Don't quibble, tell the truth."

  "No... won't..."

  "There are more and more children whose parents are divorced, does it mean that they will all end up like you, being hated by others and eventually becoming a murderer? How many children have lost both parents, living in poverty, but excelling in their studies and character? Because they can correctly face their misfortune, taking hardships as opportunities to temper their will. Such children are not only sensible but also strong, studying diligently, and often become great talents. But look at yourself, you've taken a completely opposite path, ending up wanting to kill people, degenerating into a death row prisoner..."

  I intentionally emphasized the three words "death row prisoner", she subconsciously trembled, and nervously fiddled with the gloves in her hand. I had a strong momentum to pursue the attack, and continued to say:

  "You hate the teacher for being unfair to you, but have you thought about how much trouble you've caused the teacher? The teacher is a mortal, not a saint. They also have emotions and bad moods, facing dozens of students every day, having to manage..."

  "How can you always be so calm and composed?! Especially for a student like you who always causes trouble for the teacher, how can the teacher not feel annoyed?! It's certain that I'm the best person in your heart right now, isn't it?"

  "Of course, you're absolutely right, I admire you the most."

  "I can tell you the truth, whether I'm your teacher or your parent, I wouldn't like you because you're too selfish. You only think of your own feelings and have never put yourself in others' shoes to understand them."

  "Me? The most selfish? No one has come to such a conclusion about me yet..."

  She was clearly dissatisfied with my words, but dissatisfaction is also a kind of awakening, which is much better than being numb and indifferent. Stimulating her was also one of my purposes, for children with such a mindset, gentle persuasion is useless, there must be both firmness and gentleness, stimulation, but no harm.

  "There are two kinds of favors in one's life that must be remembered, namely our parents and teachers. Our parents gave us life and nurtured us; our teachers imparted knowledge to us and fostered our growth, giving us the favor of endowing us with a soul. If someone regards their parents and teachers as enemies for whatever reason, then their character and humanity are failures. If you dare not acknowledge these facts, it proves that you are beyond salvation."

  She nodded almost imperceptibly, her voice barely audible:

  "I admit... I just realized today, I'm actually quite selfish..."

  "Do you know why you're so hostile to society? It's because your actions make you feel guilty, and you're escaping. Why are you willing to be with those 'bad kids'? Because you're insecure, and only by being with the 'bad kids' can you regain your confidence."

  She raised her head which had been lowered for a while with some excitement:

  "Teacher Si, you're too amazing, you've even guessed what's in my heart."

  "Of course, otherwise how could you come to me at a time when you are about to carry out the great and mighty deed of killing?"

  She smiled wryly with a hint of embarrassment, and that fierce look on her face also faded away, but then it turned gloomy again:

  "I don't want it to be like this either, who doesn't want to be a good person, they forced me into this."

  "Has anyone ever held a knife to your throat and forced you to learn something bad?"

  "Of course not."

  "Why do teachers and parents force you to study well but you can't? A person cannot choose their family, but they can choose their own behavior! If a person cannot even take responsibility for their own actions, how can they possibly be responsible to society in the future? Someone who cannot assume responsibility to society is someone who has lost the value and meaning of life, at most just a walking corpse. Such people are like flies and mosquitoes, pests to humanity, do you understand?"

  She lowered her head and said in despair:

  "Anyway, I've lost all hope, no one believes me. Since I'm doomed to be a sinner, what's the point of living? After killing her and dying myself, everything will be over..."

  "Don't you have any other way out?"

  "Yes, I've reached the end of my rope and have no way out."

  Her stubbornness makes me feel heavy. If I follow her train of thought, she will become more and more obstinate. Suddenly I ask her: "I ask you, is the teacher you want to kill married?"

  She said with a strange tone: "You've got a family and kids are all grown up. What's the point of asking this?"

  I didn't respond to her question and continued saying:

  "You've worked, had loved ones and children, tried everything you should have. You even sacrificed students for your job, that's heroic, no regrets in death. But what about you? Just a teenager, life has just begun, nothing's been experienced yet, but now you're a murderer, a reject of society. Think carefully, is it worth it? I won't force you, China has plenty of people, deaths happen every second, one or two more don't matter, especially those who harm others, one less means more peace. Do you want to end your life as a sinner or start anew? The choice is yours. If you don't want to live, no one can save you."