Chapter 33: Yang Yanjie's Helplessness

  The bar was a mixed bag, and it really wasn't suitable for someone like Mo Xuanxuan to hang out in. Mo Xuanxuan also deeply felt that she didn't belong here, no wonder he didn't allow her to come here, she couldn't adapt.

  I don't know how to describe the scene in the bar, Moxi just felt a suffocating pain in her chest, she couldn't bear this dizzy and dark feeling, it turned out that their worlds were so different, it turned out that she still had so much misunderstanding about him.

  Mo Xiao sat beside the bar and dry-heaved for a while, having not eaten much that day. The excitement of the bar was too much for him to handle.

  "Your world is so different from mine, do you still have the confidence to wait?" Xia Xuan handed Mo Xiao a bottle of mineral water and let her rinse her mouth.

  "Yes!" Mo Xiao's voice was weak, but this single word still shook Xia Xuan.

  Xia Xian's face floated a hint of a relaxed smile.

  Ink flows profusely, it turns out we all can't understand you!

  We didn't know your inner strength would be so powerful, Yang Yanjie, did you understand?

  But Xiaoxiao, you know? This is unfair to you and him. For the sake of fairness, for your future life, this is all I can do...

  "Moyao, if you can really wait, then wait for me for seventy years, seven years is nothing! Just over two thousand days!" Xia Xuan gritted his teeth and said this sentence that might change Moyao's life forever.

  In Xia Xuan's heart, perhaps standing from Yang Yanjie's standpoint, she thought that Mo Xiao waiting for seven years was nothing, just seven years, if you have the ability, wait for her a lifetime!

  You think someone has hurt you, and even the people around you think so, but can you still turn back and hurt Yang Yanjie like this?

  It's not fair! It's not fair to anyone!

  "You've been playing the victim for so many years, presenting yourself in a pitiful manner to everyone, but you should be clear that the real victim is not you, but the person you love most, Yang Yanjie!"

  Because of your selfishness, because of your nonsense, he left you, and now all you're doing is trying to make him leave you even further away, to the point where it's impossible for him to forgive you! Tell me, what right does someone who hurts him at every turn have to say they love him?!

  Mo Xiao, you don't understand, you don't understand the feeling of being misunderstood by someone who deeply loves you, you don't understand the feeling of thinking you know yourself best but ultimately not understanding yourself at all. You don't understand anything, yet you're always accusing others of abandonment and indifference. You should reflect on yourself, what have you done that's right or wrong!

  I don't know why Xia Xian had such a conversation, this conversation was so ambiguous, so thought-provoking, and so merciless.

  Yes, now even Mo Xiao thought that his own irrational behavior would push Yang Yanjie further and further away, to the point where they could never see each other again.

  "Have you ever thought about his part-time job, maybe that's his dream, but because of your one sentence 'don't want to', he gave up." Xia Xuan stood beside Mo Xiao, saying coldly, her voice trembling with a hint of horror.

  Moist and quiet, crouching on the ground, hearing this sentence, she was taken aback. Did she think of these things back then? Perhaps it's really not.

  "Have you ever thought about how Yang Yanjie felt when you yelled at his wife in front of him?" Xia Xian smiled wryly, "You haven't thought of anything, but always think you're right, don't you find that ridiculous?"

  That year, Yang Yanjie might have wanted to be lovers but couldn't, so being friends would have been fine, but Mo Xiaoqiu ruthlessly destroyed even that hope, was it really because he loved too much?

  "Have you ever thought that after you broke up, how many of the things you've done were really for his own good? The car accident, the emergency room visit, getting drunk... are these what he wanted to see? If you truly loved him, then you should take good care of yourself and not let him worry." Xia Xuan handed her a tissue. Even if he didn't look directly at Mo Xiuxiu's face, Xia Xuan knew that she was already crying uncontrollably. Maybe she would really come to understand this eventually.

  Xia Xian let out a deep breath, she had experienced it herself and also saw her sister go through it, so she understood that helplessness, understood that love. But Xiao Xiao didn't understand, no one had ever told her in all these years, it could be said that the person most qualified to speak up for Yang Yanjie was Xia Xian!

  "Have you ever thought about the pressure he's under when you're together? You've always known how much you've invested, but do you know him? Maybe you don't understand because you're not by his side, or maybe no one understands because he chooses to hide it." By putting himself in others' shoes, Xia Xuan could empathize with Yang Yanjie's resolute departure from Mo Xiao. In the end, Mo Xiao was reaping what she had sown, nothing more than that.

  It's actually not that pitiful, you're happy because Yang Yanjie has always been tolerant of you, loving you, and accommodating you. If you can really think it through, please let him go, and also let yourself go.

  However, I won't advise you to give up, because Yang Yanjie is worth your persistence. Even if it's hard to achieve a positive outcome in the end, this life of yours isn't completely without value - there's still Yang Yanjie who's worth remembering.

  "Some people, if they have been in your life and left without leaving any marks, it proves that their existence is dispensable. Just like Wang Yu. But Yang Yanjie is different, because Yang Yanjie has made you who you are today, to you, he is indispensable and important." Xia Xuan was persuading Mo Xiao, but in fact, she was also persuading herself.

  I know you're good, but that doesn't mean you can recklessly hurt Yang Yanjie. He has his helplessness, he has his irrepressible circumstances, and he also has his determination.

  Xiao Xiao, you love him, so you can't let go; you love him, so it's hard for you to forget; you love him, so you're torturing him... although he may not be as fragile as I imagined.

  "In this love, neither of you was wrong, it's just that you lost to time and distance. Now the distance between you has narrowed down with your efforts, so don't let the distance in your hearts grow further apart." Xia Xuan looked into the distance, where the neon lights were dazzling, blinding his eyes.

  Your sister, your friends, everyone who understands you will think that in this love affair, you lost miserably, but not necessarily.

  Seven years, but it's just one-seventh of your life. Xiaoxiao, if possible, seventy years, didn't you always want to have a love that never breaks up? Give yourself seventy years, and also give him seventy years.

  Perhaps Yang Yanjie never loved you, perhaps the one you love is just the person in your imagination. But no matter what, since we've been in love, since you love him, then keep loving him!

  In the vast ocean of people, I met someone I love, and this person happens to love me too. It's so hard to come by, but maybe he doesn't love me anymore. However, I hope you won't forget.

  Do you know why I brought you to the bar? Because I wanted to see if your heart is weak, and fortunately, you didn't disappoint me.

  I don't know what Mo Xiao was thinking, she never got up, nor did she turn her head back. Perhaps it was Xia Xian's words that made her suddenly enlightened, perhaps it was Xia Xian's words that made her ashamed, or perhaps it was because Mo Xiao had decided to wait for him for 70 years.

  "Xuan Xuan, I understand." Mo Xiao Xiao said lightly.

  Did she understand? What did she understand?

  Xia Xian couldn't help but know, just a faint smile, no matter what she understood, for herself, for Yang Yanjie, it would all be a good development.

  Maybe someday, Mo Xiao will see Yang Yanjie and smile calmly, saying "Seeing you happy makes me very happy."

  Or perhaps, even if Mo Xiao said it casually, Xia Xian would still take care of everything for her, because that's what Xia Xian does, that's friendship.

  "Some things, since they can't be made up for, might as well develop in a good direction. I know that on the road of waiting, you'll have all sorts of obstacles, but I hope you persevere, it's just my wish." Xia Xuan patted Mo Xiao Xiao's shoulder and said lightly.

  "Good!" Mo Xiao was taken aback for a moment, then turned around and said very firmly.

  Ink flows profusely, is this what you call atonement?

  Xia Xian stood silently by, the city's dazzling neon lights dazed people's eyes, but what truly captivated one's heart and soul was love, so-called love.

  Xia Xuan understood Mo Xiao's character, even if she spoke harshly and absolutely, Mo Xiao would not hold a grudge. This was because the people Mo Xiao had decided to trust would not be swayed by a few words, which is why Xia Xuan could open her heart to Mo Xiao without reserve.

  Xiao Xiao, I hope you can understand, what I'm doing is just hoping to fulfill your dreams.