Chapter 42: Quarrel

  Sun Wen didn't make a sound for half the day, then suddenly laughed and said, "Liang Pei, you're also getting mischievous. Today is April 1st, do you think I don't know it's April Fool's Day?"

  I suddenly remembered that today is indeed April 1st, a day when spring is in full bloom, but it has been given a foolish meaning, leaving people with an unusual feeling unintentionally.

  "Sun Wen, I'm serious." What needs to be faced will always need to be faced, just like how Christmas is a birthday celebration for some, but also a day when someone dies.

  "What did I do wrong?" Sun Wen's expression also turned serious, "Liang Pei, look up at me."

  I lifted my eyelids and finally saw Sun Wen's still calm face, he looked at me as if studying his experiment, as if I were those hard-to-conquer chemical reaction formulas.

  "It's not your fault, it's mine."

  "You're great. I'm honored to have married you."

  "No, no, don't say I'm good, I'm not." I finally became impatient, the more Sun Wen said this, the more my heart was tormented, he is the biggest victim of our marriage. It's all my fault. With his conditions and hard work, if he hadn't found me, he would have definitely found a gentle, virtuous and dependent wife, who would take care of the family for him every day and give birth to children for him.

  "Li Pei, what's wrong? Is it because I just got married and don't have time to accompany you? You know, even when we weren't married, I was like this."

  "No, really not, Sun Wen, we are not suitable, I don't love you, I've tried."

  "I know you never loved me, but I love you. I know you've always loved Jielan, but he's gone forever. Since you can't love anyone else, among those who love you, I'm definitely the one who surpasses everyone else. Even Jielan, I can surpass him. Originally, I didn't know if I should marry you or not, but seeing how miserable you are, I couldn't help but want to take care of you. Even if Jielan was my best brother, he can't still occupy your life after his death, that's unfair to you." Sun Wen hadn't mentioned Jielan in years, I didn't expect him to say such things to keep me from leaving.

  I didn't expect him to have understood my thoughts all along.

  He and Ji Lian were talking together, he said a few words and I wanted to cry, but now facing Sun Wen, I was just numb and tired all over, wanting to end this relationship as soon as possible.

  "Sun Wen, I don't love you, and it's not fair to you either. I'm also living in great pain and guilt. Let's let go of each other, set each other free, and you'll find a girl who loves you."

  "This doesn't sound like something you'd say, have you fallen in love with someone else?" Sun Wen asked suddenly, on guard.

  I was shocked, but I didn't dare say anything else. After hesitating for half a day, I finally said, "Sun Wen, I beat our child, we really can't continue like this."

  Sun Wen finally couldn't pretend to be calm anymore, he stared at me in disbelief, "What did you say?"

  I didn't respond, just looked at him.

  He suddenly stood up, reached out and grasped my shoulders with both hands, shaking me violently. "What did you say? Bai Liangpei!"

  My tears were finally shaken down by him.

  "I beat our child because I don't love you, so I also can't love our child. Don't you understand? We can't go on like this!"