Chapter 40: After All, It's Inevitable To Face 4500 Recommended Add More

  "Have you ever thought that maybe Su Jinan is still alive, and after finding him, I will definitely return to my original owner. At that time, I will become a wandering soul again, you can't see me, touch me, or feel me, what should I do..."

  "But at that time I knew, you were by my side, watching me, loving me, guarding me..."

  Ji Lian's face broke into a brilliant smile, "It seems I really don't understand you."

  Seeing him smile, I finally put my heart at ease, "What did you say?"

  "Do you know why I didn't tell you who I was before? Why did I treat you like that?"

  "Why?" As soon as I mention this, I start to hurt all over, my whole body hurts, my heart hurts, and my head hurts.

  "Because I don't want you to recognize me, fall in love with me, and even less do I want you to leave Sun Wen and come back to me. Although I want you, I don't like seeing you with others, but I know that's when you're at your most innocent and happiest. If you were to follow me, you'd have to suffer, and constantly face the pain of losing again."

  "Ji Lian, I can handle everything. Don't underestimate me."

  Ji Lian looked at me and suddenly smiled, "Before I underestimated you, now I won't. Actually, you are stronger than me. If we were to switch places, I definitely wouldn't have been able to hold on as long as you."

  "What will you do?"

  "I will look for you like a madman, and in the end I really become a madman."

  At this moment, I am both happy and sad. Happy because Ji Lian is willing to wait for me, sad because I didn't wait for him. But I know that such regret will never happen again, never again.

  "Your phone rang, and you're still the same as before, always unable to hear your own ringtone." Ji Lan said, pointing at my bag.

  I remember one time, I had my phone on vibrate, and when Ji Lian called me, I didn't hear it. In the middle of the night, he came directly to our dorm building to find me. He climbed over the wall, came to my dorm room door, and knocked. This caused a commotion in the entire dorm room.

  He must still remember.

  "I'll get it." I said with a smile.

  "Hello?"

  "Liang Pei, I've arrived at the airport. Where are you? I'll treat you to dinner tonight." Sun Wen's voice came from the other end of the phone, as if it were from another world, completely disconnected from mine. I had already detached myself from his life.

  But still have to face it anyway.

  He glanced at Chao Ji and immediately understood, nodding his head and saying softly, "Go."

  "When will you arrive?"

  "It'll be fine in about an hour or so," Sun Wen's voice was a bit tired, but it sounded pleasant, probably because he hadn't been home for a long time.

  "Okay." I hesitated for a moment, "That..."

  "What? What's up? Something wrong?"

  "Never mind... let's talk about it when you get back."

  "Be careful on the road. You drive the car." Sun Wen said the most common words at home, but I didn't know how to face it.

  "How are you going to tell him?" Ji Luan looked at me.

  "You still have great things to do, I can't let you go out with him, even though you two are good friends. So I just told him that we're not compatible and can't move forward together." That's the only reason I could come up with after racking my brain.

  "Sun Wen is a very serious person, looks easy-going, but actually very stubborn. If you don't give him a reason to give up, he won't let go." Ji Lanyan said, I felt a little disappointed, it seems that she understands Sun Wen better than me.