Chapter Fourteen

  She walked towards Qian Tong in the bathroom with a heavy step, as if her feet were filled with lead.

  The moment she opened the door, Qian Tong was stunned. The scene in front of her caught her off guard. Behind the semi-transparent glass of the shower room, a woman stood upright under the showerhead, her long black hair dripping wet and clinging to her back like a waterfall, surrounded by a misty veil of water vapor, silently standing there, with the flowing water accentuating Si Lu Chen's perfect figure to perfection.

  Knock knock.

  Qian Tong subconsciously swallowed his saliva.

  Feeling Qian Tong approaching, Si Luo Chen didn't turn around, but said in a low voice: "Watching me bathe, aren't you cold?"

  Qian Tong felt a bit embarrassed, her face red as she took off her clothes, biting her lower lip, taking deep breaths and carefully getting in, her eyes fixed honestly on the wall.

  Two women of similar height stood under the shower, their shoulders touching. It was unclear whether it was due to the awkward atmosphere or the water from the shower not being warm enough, but the bath felt colder and colder, with her throat becoming drier.

  The whole process of bathing was silent. Si Luo Chen finished washing up first and walked out with a expressionless face, wearing his bathrobe and holding his toiletries.

  Feeling the door being closed tightly, Qian Tong lowered his eyes and stretched out his hand to turn the water to one side. The icy water poured down from the showerhead, furrowing his brow as he lifted his head, trying to wake himself up.

  At the moment she walked out of the door, Cui Luochen leaned against the wall, took a deep breath and exhaled. It was only then that her heartbeat began to beat uncontrollably, and her face gradually flushed with redness. After calming down for a while, she returned to the living room, saw two cups of ginger tea on the coffee table, and smiled slightly at the corner of her mouth.

  You silly fool, Qian Tong!

  After finishing her bath, Xiang Qiong found that Si Luo Chen had quietly lain down on the bed. The ginger tea on the coffee table was also finished, and after drinking another cup, she simply cleaned up and returned to the room.

  She turned off the lights and lay down with her back to Si Luo Chen, when suddenly the woman behind her turned around and wrapped her arms around her waist, pressing her entire body close, softly asking: "Where did you go today, huh?"

  "Fall... Chen?" Toward Qian Tong's voice was slightly trembling.

  The other party did not respond, as if waiting for an answer.

  "I went to the hospital today." It was a long time before he replied to Qian Tong.

  "Hospital?" The tone was somewhat surprised, thinking that Qian Tong had fallen ill.

  "He's my patient, he fainted in my office. He already had high blood pressure and a bad temper, then he received a phone call there, I don't know what the person on the other end said to him, but he got so angry that he fainted."

  Toward Qian Tong, recounting everything that happened today. Si Luo Chen also met Jack's disabled soldiers at the rehabilitation center. As a doctor, whether it's a psychologist or a surgeon, internist, or even a pediatrician, they will all face these things.

  I thought that as time went by, I would become numb, but instead, I find myself becoming more and more afraid that these things will one day happen to me.

  "What happened after that?"

  As he listened to Qian Tong's words, Si Chen's tone also softened a lot.

  "Failed to rescue, died." The tone was very regretful.

  “……”

  "Luò chén, life is very fragile, isn't it?"

  Used to think that the only consolation of being a psychologist was not having to directly face patients' life and death, but found out that psychologists have to face the most painful, real and cruel side of human heart every day.

  This is more torturous than life and death separations. If it weren't for her faith in the goodness of the world, Qian Tong would almost collapse from this profession.

  That's why some people say that psychiatrists are actually the ones with the most severe mental illnesses.

  Si Lu Chen didn't respond, he just held the woman in his arms even tighter, as if afraid that if he loosened his grip, he would lose something.

  "I thought you'd left again..." The voice was very soft.

  Qian Tong was taken aback, turned around and faced Si Luo Chen, asking: "What?"

  Si Luo Chen was taken aback by this sudden movement, pursed his lips, lowered his eyebrows and said faintly: "I thought you had left again, just like before. I'm afraid...afraid of not being able to find you again. Even more afraid that I won't have enough reason to look for you again."

  Suddenly enlightened, Xiang Qiong thought back to the helpless figure standing in the rain, the regained embrace, and the hidden suppressed expression. She never expected that Si Lu Chen, such a proud woman, would be afraid for her sake.

  Everything in the past is like a movie replaying in my mind, and it can't be waved away.

  Two people's noses are close together, their exhaled breaths gradually merge into one, and Qian Tong's breathing becomes a bit disordered as she accompanies her thoughts.

  "Luò Chén..." Before she could finish speaking, Sī Luò Chén leaned forward slightly, interrupting her, and said softly: "Qiān Tóng, I... want to kiss you."

  Qian Tong opened her big eyes wide.

  Before Tong could react, Chen had already stuck it on and closed his eyes.

  Si Luo Chen's lips were warm and soft, but Qian Tong's mind was a mess.

  What are you doing? Do you know?

  Meteorite

  The quiet air around them seemed to have turned into a tangible atmosphere, surrounding the two of them, and becoming unusually ambiguous. Si Luo Chen's kiss was cautious and gentle, lightly and shallowly touching Qian Tong's thin lips with a hint of chilliness, as if he feared that one wrong move would shatter this dream.

  Cai Luo Chen never thought she would take the initiative to kiss someone, and even more so, Qian Tong didn't push her away at first, although she was secretly delighted, but also knew her limits.

  It was just a few seconds of kissing, but in her eyes it seemed like an eternity.

  Didn't deepen the kiss, felt that it was enough. Just as he thought of leaving, his waist was caught by Qian Tong and pulled back.

  “……”

  Then came the real kiss.

  The world suddenly became chaotic, the scorching and moist lips wrapped around each other, seamless, the fragrance of the breath that Qi Tong exhaled was sweet and beautiful, such a response almost made Si Luo Chen have a dizzying and melting illusion.

  After a long while, the two people's foreheads touched, slowly panting, quietly feeling each other.

  "Thousand... Thousand Tong..." Si Luo Chen's heartbeat was still accelerating, and his breathing was extremely unstable.

  It's too unexpected, even too surprising, that Qian Tong would... Si Luo Chen simply can't imagine it.

  Qian Tong suddenly blinked and licked her lips, looking a bit shy as she said: "Luochen, your lips are so soft, like cotton candy with a milk flavor."

  "... " Xià Zhēn Chéngrèn, she deeply admitted that she was shocked by this sentence, her heartbeat disappeared, and the awkwardness and helplessness also disappeared completely.

  The corners of his mouth curled up, and he just hummed softly without responding.

  Qian Tong smiled and wrapped his arms around Si Luo Chen, saying seriously: "Luo Chen, I want to tell you, actually... I originally wanted... to leave."

  The officer fell and died instantly.

  "But when I think of leaving, I find that I already can't bear to part with you. I'll miss you, and my mind will be filled with thoughts of you. Even now, I'm regretting why I didn't return to find you earlier... You're the one I least want to leave behind..." Her voice grew softer as she spoke.

  Qian Tong's words completely stunned Si Luo Chen.

  I used to imagine countless outcomes in this relationship, the best of which was just being by her side as an intimate friend for life. Those beautiful dreams of growing old together seemed like something that could never happen, and sometimes I even thought that if Qian Tong found out she couldn't accept it, or even hated me, I would still silently stay by her side without feeling wronged.

  I didn't expect it, I really didn't expect it. Si Luo Chen doesn't know how to describe her emotions at this moment anymore, originally she wasn't being forced, wasn't having foolish thoughts, she actually had a crush on me.

  "......Qian Tong." Just wanting to call out her name.

  "Luò Chén, I promise you, if possible, I will never leave you again." This is the promise made by Qián Tóng to Sī Luò Chén.

  "What's with 'if possible'? Are you already thinking of breaking up before we're even together?" Si Luo Chen asked, his tone questioning.

  Xiang Qiong didn't respond immediately, instead she leaned in close to Si Luo Chen's ear and whispered: "Could it be that Luo Chen really wants to be with me forever?"

  "Haven't you ever thought about it?" After finishing, Si Luo Chen's cheeks flushed uncontrollably. Such blunt words could be spoken without hesitation, don't get mixed up in the future.

  All he saw was Xiang Tong's mouth curving into a beautiful arc: "Mm, whatever you say."

  Si Luo Chen's face grew even hotter.

  Qian Tong wrapped his arms around Si Luo Chen and said calmly: "Luo Chen, aren't you afraid?"

  "Is it because we are women?" Si Lu Chen asked in confusion, a question she had wanted to understand for a very long time. If she was afraid, she wouldn't have come to the United States.

  "Don't you think it's unbelievable? We're clearly not gay... and we haven't even thought about trying to find a man, wouldn't that path be easier to take?" said Qian Tong.

  "Have you ever thought of these things for me?" Si Luo Chen asked.

  She gently shook her head at Qian Tong: "I've never understood what emotions are since I was young, my classmates have always fantasized about their future other half, but I just want to escape this question. Because I'm afraid, I don't want to be like my parents who quarrel day and night, I just want to live alone. Until..."

  Looking back on my life from high school to college, although I didn't like those flies and bees following Si Luo Chen around every day, I never thought about why that was until the time I got drunk and heard Si Luo Chen's words, only then did I truly face up to my different feelings towards Si Luo Chen.

  "Until what?"

  "Until I came to the United States, I found... I've been thinking about you all along. Wanting to know if you're doing well, yet afraid that you'll be angry with me and forget about me, it's all very contradictory. This time when you appeared, although it surprised me a lot, what I felt more was worry, I'm afraid this kind of emotion will hurt you." This is the honest truth.

  "Fool. Emotions are unreasonable. If I had to choose again, I would still choose to come find you." Si Luo Chen replied without hesitation.

  "Am I... worthy?"

  Si Luo Chen bowed his head and whispered three very affirmative words into Qian Tong's ear: "Worth it."

  In my heart, you are worth more than anyone else.