Chapter 20: Awakening

  I think I completely ignored the bloodstains on my body, as if possessed, and only walked straight ahead until Xiao Lü pulled me to a quiet place. Only then did I take stock of my clothes. "Are you out of your mind?!" Upon hearing this reminder, I quickly went home to change my clothes and followed Xiao Lü to the dance studio. A white shadow was pulling at Xiao Yuan, looking at Yue Die with a resentful face: "You're really ruthless! Even if you are a part of me, what you did is truly despicable!"

  I pulled on Li Xiangyu's sleeve: "What's going on?" Ye Zikai walked over and said: "It's obvious, isn't it? Everything is out in the open!" Yue Die looked at Xiao Yuan, her face deathly pale. Although Xiao Yuan was looking at her with such an expectant gaze, she still didn't dare to walk up to Yue Die's side, only tightly grasping Bai Ying's hand.

  Yue Die turned her head to look at Xiao Yuan, and said with a bitter smile: "Why don't you scold me? Why don't you kill me?" "What's wrong with her?" I asked, referring to Yue Die's emotional ups and downs. Xiao Lu pulled me aside and whispered: "Hao Jue has a new girlfriend now, and Yue Die's plastic surgery was also exposed. So they broke up, and Yue Die's dream of becoming a star is shattered." "But doesn't she still have Chang Xue? Xiao Yuan is Chang Xue's child with her!" I looked at Xiao Yuan again, then at Yue Die, and said. Xiao Lu sighed: "Chang Xue can be considered as having a one-sided love for Yue Die! But he knows that Xiao Yuan was indirectly killed by Yue Die, so he only has hatred for Yue Die now. It's said that Chang Xue is an excellent person, and he didn't leave this city because of Yue Die. However, things have come to this point, and Chang Xue chose to leave and go abroad."

  After hearing this, I looked at Yue Die with sympathetic eyes. Yue Die walked step by step towards Xiao Yuan, but Xiao Yuan hid behind Bai Ying and refused to look at Yue Die again. Yue Die stopped in her tracks and turned to Li Shan Yu: "What is my redemption?" Li Shan Yu calmly found a stool to sit on and said: "Half of your soul has already left, and now you're just barely clinging to life. You'll die sooner or later."

  "Die?!" A hint of joy appeared on Yue Die's face, "If I die, can I be with Xiao Yuan again? If I die, can I become my former self?" With this hopeful gaze, Yue Die asked, but Li Shan Yu shook her head: "It's impossible, you will disappear yourself, the one who truly exists is her." After finishing, she pointed to the white shadow, "The true liberation is to kill the current you, do you understand? Only by returning to your former self can you be liberated."

  Yue Die's joy gradually faded from her face: "So, my consciousness won't be preserved at all?" "The current you is objectively non-existent, do you understand?! Whether it's your consciousness or memories!" Xiao Lü replied. Li Xiangyu smiled bitterly and said: "Yue Die, maybe I shouldn't have saved you in the first place, and now look what's become of you." Yue Die seemed to hear nothing, sitting down at the piano, her slender fingers playing on the keys, playing that familiar tune "The Day I Lost My Love". "What I've lost is not just love and family, but even myself. How pitiful!" Yue Die laughed with a hint of seduction, her beautiful face now covered in tears. I turned my head to look at Xiao Yuan and Bai Ying, they didn't say anything.

  Bai Ying pulled Xiao Yuan out and disappeared into the corridor. "Where are they going?" I muttered to myself, "To where they should go, because Yue Die is about to die." Li Shan Yu said this calmly at the same time, the piano sound became chaotic, I looked at Yue Die's face with scars all over, she seemed to be struggling, her long fingers were also becoming eerie, starting to seep out blood. Before I could react, the piano sound suddenly stopped, Yue Die's face fell on the piano, more and more blood flowed out from the piano, her eyes stared blankly at the sky, seemingly unwilling but powerless. My stomach started churning, this scene made me unable to calm down. When I was pulled into Ye Zi Ke's arms, I heard his soft voice: "Don't look." But I couldn't help trembling, the doctor who fell in front of me said those words, those nurses I killed. My hands were also stained with blood, feeling intense pain from my wrists, I frowned and pushed Ye Zi Ke away.

  "Hurry up and leave! Otherwise, we'll be implicated!" Li Shan Yu said hastily, pushing us out and closing the door of the dance studio. At that moment, I still couldn't help but turn back to take a glance at Yue Die. That gentle and beautiful woman, who danced with elegant posture, played melancholic tunes, yet in the end, failed to stand on the stage she desired, instead dying in her own dance studio - was this also a kind of good ending?

  My thoughts were interrupted by Xiao Lu's words: "Ning Lie, your hand?" I tried to hide my wrist, but Li Shan Yu's hands were too fast, she grabbed my wrist and her face turned ugly: "It can't be helped, no matter if it's Na Gu Yun Er, me, or you, none of us are any good." Ye Zi Ke seemed to know something as well, carefully examining the pattern on my wrist for a long time before spitting out a sentence: "Is it a curse?" I didn't know how to respond, Li Shan Yu changed the subject: "Let's all go to my master's place together! Let's just consider this matter settled!" After saying that, she pulled me by the hand and walked to the front. "Li Shan Yu, slow down!" I was surprised by her hurried footsteps, "Ning Lie, trust me and don't speak!" Ye Zi Ke ran in front of Li Shan Yu, blocking our way: "Will Na Gu Yun Er really have a solution?" Li Shan Yu lowered her head: "She will!" I clearly heard the insincere tone inside, what were they hiding from me?!

  "Yè Zǐ Kē, tell me!" I stared at his eyes intently, but he looked away: "I'm not sure either, just guessing." Xiao Lǜ sensed the awkward atmosphere and hastily mediated: "Everyone is stuck here, why don't we go to Nà Gǔ Yún'ér's place? Whatever it is, let's talk it out together!" Li Shān Yǔ sighed and said: "Yè Zǐ Kē, don't think that Master has deceived you. You should learn to trust Master first. Such reckless guessing will only bring unease to Níng Jiàng." Yè Zǐ Kē looked at me and didn't say anything else, but came over to hold my hand and said: "Let's go to Nà Gǔ Yún'ér's place." My heart was in turmoil, but he made me feel at ease. I nodded in agreement, and Xiao Lǜ also felt relieved, patting Li Shān Yǔ to indicate that everything was okay. The four of us arrived at Nà Gǔ Yún'ér's residence like this.