The Joy of Girlhood (4)

  Saturday, May 1st, 2010 sunny

  Today's sun is big, the air is good, and people who have been busy for a long time finally have time to walk out of their cells. The streets are bustling with cars and horses, flowing endlessly.

  If I hadn't died, according to my plan, at this moment, I should be strolling in the ancient city with Wei Xingyun, instead of standing in front of my grave, sweeping it for me.

  It's clear that my parents had been here before, the air was filled with the scent of incense, and the surroundings of the grave had obviously been tidied up. A large bunch of fresh flowers were placed in front of the grave, and there was a small pile of burnt paper money.

  Now, in front of the tomb, he has placed my favorite snacks: chocolate, potato chips, green plum... I thought he wouldn't remember these things, but it turns out he remembers them all.

  He stretched out his hand, touched the photo of me on the tombstone, found a place to sit down slowly, leaned against my tombstone, and slowly rubbed the cigarette box in his pocket.

  Are you thinking of me?

  I'm thinking of you too.

  I don't know how long it took, but I heard footsteps coming from behind me. I turned around with Wei Xingyun at the same time.

  I let out an "ah" of surprise, although only I heard it.

  Wei Xingyun put the cigarette box back into his pocket and slowly stood up.

  It's Zhuo Er.

  Zhor wearing a black shirt, holding a large bunch of sunflowers.

  How strange, on Labour Day, everyone didn't take a rest or go out to have fun, but instead all came together to sweep the tombs.

  Zhuo walked over, bent down, and placed the flowers in front of my grave. Then, he slowly stroked my tombstone.

  Throughout the entire process, he didn't look at Wei Xingyun even once, as if this person didn't exist. And Wei Xingyun just coldly stared at him, not saying a word.

  "After a long time, Zhuo Er said: 'Actually, this is my first time coming to see her.'"

  "There have been many times before when I passed by here and thought about coming up to see her. But I didn't dare to come. If I don't come, there's still a reason to deceive myself, to trick myself into thinking that Mengmeng is still alive in this world, it's just that we haven't met yet."

  "This morning, I passed by a flower shop and saw them carrying big bunches of sunflowers in. Suddenly, I wanted to come see her."

  "Wei Xingyun," Zhuo Er turned his head, with tears shining in his eyes. "I really regret it, regret that I let Mengmeng be with you. Why isn't it you lying here instead?"

  This is the first time I have seen Zhuo'er cry from childhood to adulthood, from birth to death, all these years.

  Wei Xingyun finally showed emotion.

  "It's me who owes her," said Wei Xingyun in a hoarse voice, "I didn't take good care of her, I will return it to her."

  "What do you think you can do?" Zhuo sneered, "With just one person, what can you investigate?"

  "If I can't find the truth today, I'll look for it tomorrow. If I still can't find it tomorrow, I'll keep looking. Even if it takes my whole life, I won't let her die without knowing what really happened."

  "Even if you find me, what can you do?" Zhuo Er looked at him with disdain. "What you should do is hurry back home, find a job, support yourself and your mother, and live your own life."

  Wei Xingyun suddenly smiled and said, "If I really did this, would you let me off?"

  Zhuo'er looked at him and fell silent for a while, "No."

  "So, you're willing to investigate, we'll each look into it separately, and we can guarantee that whoever finds out first will notify the other immediately." Wei Xingyun stared straight into Zhuo Er's eyes without backing down.

  The two of them stared at each other for a long time, before Zhuo Er spoke up: "Recently I'm going abroad, and there will be people continuing to investigate. I also hope that by the time I return, you'll have made some discoveries, best if you can help me find some major clues. However, even if we uncover the truth, I won't tell you."

  "You said," Wei Xingyun asked, "if Mengmeng were here and saw her Gege Zuoer being so despicable, wouldn't she be very disappointed?"

  After all these years, Zhuo should have long been able to control his emotions, but at that moment, I clearly saw his hand clenched into a fist.

  I watched the two people nervously, afraid they would start fighting at any moment.

  Fortunately, in a place like this, neither of them wanted to fight. The two stood facing each other for a moment, then Zuo Er relaxed his fist and turned to leave.

  Wei Hangyun immediately left in another direction as well.

  One to the left, one to the right.

  I didn't follow any of them, but instead sat down and stared blankly at that bright and beautiful sunflower.

  Will I be disappointed? No. On the contrary, he treats me like this and I am very touched.

  I just have some difficulty facing another side of Zhuo Er.

  Overbearing, tyrannical, and severe. Completely different from the person in my memory.

  I still remember, the first flower in my life was bought by Zhuo Er for me.

  That summer, I, who had been admitted to the key class of Sixth Middle School, felt quite proud at home. The adults all looked at me with new eyes, and my grandfather often looked at me with pride, "Ha, it's time for our old Xia family to produce a female champion."

  With such an opportunity to show off, I certainly wouldn't miss it. So of course I had to coerce Xia Bing into taking me to the TV station to see what's up.

  There were Grandfather and Big Uncle serving as her left and right guardians, so Xia Bing could only agree.

  The next day, I got up early, put on my most beautiful dress, disregarding the hot weather, and let down my hair which was usually tied in a ponytail, letting it fall over my shoulders. After all, I'm going to the TV station, who knows if some director might notice me or if some show would invite me as an audience member, of course, I want to present myself in the best image possible.

  When Xia Bing came to pick me up, he made a "tsk" sound twice, but didn't say anything. With a strange smile on his face, he took me away.

  I finally stood in front of the TV station's magnificent building, holding a small umbrella and carefully examining it.

  After finishing admiring, I looked at Xia Bing and said, "Alright, let's go in."

  "Wait again."

  "Wait?" I looked at him suspiciously.

  The next moment, a black car drove up in front of us, and the window rolled down to reveal Zuo Er's face.

  Before I could react, Xia Bing had already opened the car door and stuffed me inside.

  "What's Xia Bing doing?"

  "Aren't you going to watch TV? Now that it's all finished, why don't you leave?"

  "I haven't even gotten in yet!" I anxiously wanted to get out, but Xia Bing blocked the door and wouldn't let me get off.

  "Kidding me? I'm going to work with a little sister, do you think I'm a nanny?" Then he turned his head and gave Zhuoer a sly glance, "Brother, thanks a lot, help me send the sticky person home."

  Watching Xia Bing quickly cross the road, I couldn't catch up no matter how hard I tried. I shouted in exasperation: "Xia Bing, you're too sneaky!"

  Xia Bing didn't even turn his head back, just waved his hand.

  I still seethed with anger, turned around and said, "Zhuo Er brother, you actually helped the tyrant!"

  "I don't know anything," Zhuo'er shifted the blame, "it was your brother who asked me to come over."

  "Uggghhh..." I fell onto the back seat, "You guys are all too much."

  Just taking a look at the building is enough to "appreciate" the TV station, but I've seen it tens of thousands of times since I was young!

  "Don't be angry," Zhuo turned back and smiled at me, "I'll take you to a fun place."

  I raised my head and smoothed out my messy hair, "Don't think you can bribe me, even if you do, I'll still report Xia Bing's wrongdoings."

  Zhuo blinked at me, "Tell on, this has nothing to do with me."

  I think Xia Bing, who just walked into the office, must have let out a sneeze.

  Zhuoer took me to a very large flower shop.

  Very cool, very beautiful, and also very fragrant.

  It's my first time seeing so many beautiful and varied flowers, my eyes lit up, and my gloomy mood was swept away. Walking around, looking at this and that, it's extremely delightful to the eye.

  Zhuo'er had someone send him a bouquet of bright red roses. Although many people think that red roses are too common, I still can't help but admit that such a delicate and charming color is really moving.

  "Is it for your girlfriend?" I asked him.

  "I suppose so." His smile was somewhat careless.

  "Wow," I exclaimed, "when did you get a girlfriend? I had no idea."

  He patted my head, "Just started, don't know if it will last."

  "How can you think like this just as things are getting started? Shouldn't you be praying for a long and happy life together?"

  He smiled wryly, "Uh...this is also too terrifying."

  It seems that men's thoughts are really different from women's.

  If I could be with Wei Xingyun, I would definitely work extremely hard and hold his hand tightly, never letting go again.

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