Chapter 60: Seeing Off

  Cen Yanqiu seemed to have waited for an eternity, as if time had slowed down. Mori was silent, her head hung low, and Cen Yanqiu didn't dare look away. He felt like the whole world had come to a standstill, and that all eyes were on him, making him afraid to lift his head, afraid to face the taste of rejection.

  "I see..." It wasn't until much later that Cen Yanqiu muttered to himself, feeling a deep sense of discomfort in his heart. He couldn't get an answer from Mo Fei, perhaps he should have understood the meaning behind her silence.

  But Mofi suddenly lifted her head, her cheeks slightly flushed, she nodded slightly and whispered: "I'll try my best, but I don't know if I can be your 100% girlfriend..."

  When he heard this sentence, Cen Yanqiu suddenly stiffened, he was confused and didn't understand the meaning of the sentence. The thinking of boys is always more straightforward, especially when facing emotions. So he didn't dare to determine the meaning of Mo Fei's sentence, he was afraid that he would misinterpret it.

  Mori looked at Qin Yanqiu's stunned expression, and suddenly became flustered as well, "I... I don't know if I can be a good girlfriend either, but I'll try my best to be your girlfriend."

  “Mori…… thank you!” At this time, Cen Yanqiu actually smiled very foolishly, like a child, so happy that he couldn't close his mouth. He only felt that young love, no matter if they could be together in the future or not, would always be the most beautiful memory, after all, they had walked through a period of youth together.

  Many years later, Cen Yanqiu still remembered this day, the day Mo Fei agreed to be his girlfriend.

  On this day, Class A of Grade One was dismissed. Next semester, the scene would no longer be like this. Cen Yanqiu and Mo Fei slowly walked out of the school gate. On this day, Yang Chengyu did not chase after Cen Yanqiu out of the school gate, or maybe he did, but Cen Yanqiu didn't notice because his mind was preoccupied with thinking about how he and Mo Fei should move forward from now on.

  Ji Ningning slowly walked down the stairs of the teaching building, and just now she had been standing in the corridor outside the classroom, staring blankly at the back of Chen Yanqiu and Mo Fei as they left together. Chen Yanqiu was still the same as before, forever oblivious to her presence. In their three years of junior high school, every semester's end, Chen Yanqiu would always leave early without even saying goodbye. And she would have a long vacation without seeing him, so every time the semester ended and holidays began, she would quietly watch his receding back in some place.

  She had just seen Xun Yanqiu and Mo Fei leave, and she suddenly felt that the distance between her and Xun Yanqiu was very far away, so far that it was impossible to touch his world. After much difficulty, she had joined his club, and after much difficulty, there was a sudden feeling of closeness, but on this day, everything returned to its original point. When Xun Yanqiu walked out of the classroom door, he didn't even look at her, they were like strangers, without any intersection.

  Ji Ningning only felt that her feet were particularly heavy, and it was especially difficult to move her steps, but she also felt that her body was particularly light, with a feeling that she might fall over at any time.

  Just as she walked to the first floor, Ji Ningning's eyes swept over the corner of the stairs and saw Yang Chengyu leaning against the wall with his hands in his pockets, seemingly having waited for her for a long time.

  Ji Ning didn't say a word and didn't go to look at Yang Chengyu, she just continued walking forward. Although she knew that Yang Chengyu had stayed behind because he was worried about her, she felt especially embarrassed at this moment and didn't want anyone to see her in this state.

  Yang Chengyu apparently saw Ji Ningning's sadness, he hurriedly followed Ji Ningning, his footsteps light and quick, walking beside Ji Ningning, saying: "If it's hard to bear, crying is also good..."

  Ji Ning didn't say a word, still walking forward, her body seemed somewhat listless. She especially wanted to ask herself why she was so heartbroken, wasn't it just that a very despicable person had gotten a girlfriend? Hadn't she decided more than three years ago that she disliked that kind of boy the most? Why couldn't she control herself from wanting to understand him, get close to him, like him...

  Ji Ningning remembered that every time she saw the TV, when the protagonist was heartbroken, it would rain heavily in the sky. But now her world wasn't raining, so she wasn't the protagonist of an idol drama, she was just a poor clown in reality. She didn't even dare to express her feelings to the person she liked, Ji Ningning wanted to despise herself, but at the same time felt heartache for herself, why did she like someone who didn't like her back?

  The weather is so clear that it's almost surreal, the sky is a brilliant blue with just a few white clouds floating lazily by. The sun has even come out today, warmly shining down on the earth, as if to celebrate the holiday. Students are finally free. But the better the weather, the more uncomfortable Ji Ning feels, placing her sorrow in such a beautiful day makes it feel all the more desolate. How she wishes that at this moment, a heavy rain would suddenly pour down, washing away all her sadness and also washing away that person who doesn't belong to her.

  Yang Chengyu, who had been following Ji Ningning all along, couldn't help but say: "Ningning, I'm the best buddy of that guy, I don't know about others, but I'm sure I still understand him pretty well. This month, I've noticed he's not quite right, he doesn't like to joke around as much anymore and sometimes looks really worried. Although many times I wanted to find out what was wrong with him, he always seemed nonchalant, so I couldn't figure it out. Two days ago, he suddenly said he confessed to Mo Fei, and I knew his worries were getting heavier, otherwise he wouldn't do something so irresponsible."

  "Yu Shao, I don't want to mention him again from now on, and you shouldn't bring him up in front of me either!" Ji Ningning didn't look at Yang Chengyu beside her, she just kept walking forward, only wanting to be alone at this moment, not hoping for someone to follow by her side.

  Yang Chengyu slightly lowered his head, paused for a moment, and then said: "I understand the ball, he must have something on his mind, that's why he wants someone to accompany him, and he thinks Mo Fei is that... that person who writes diaries, so..."

  Upon hearing this, Ji Ningning suddenly stopped in her tracks, turned her head and looked at Yang Chengyu, who was half a head taller than her, and asked: "What does this mean?"

  "I think sometimes you understand him better than I do, how could you not know? But in the matter of Mo Fei, you were a bit slow." Yang Chengyu shrugged and smiled faintly.

  Ji Ningning lowered her head again, stopped in her tracks, and stared at the shadow on the ground, dazed for a long time before slowly lifting her head to look ahead with a faint smile: "Actually, I'm also to blame, I've always been bad at expressing my emotions... He'll fall in love with someone else, this is something I can anticipate. But I still can't bring myself to say it, and I don't have the right to say it either, I'm afraid it will affect his studies, I think it's fine to just hide in the corner and watch him, that way his grades won't slip, only I'll be a little heartbroken..."