I love myself 5 times

  Tang Ji stared at Shen Nan with an eye that seemed to see through everything, and suddenly felt placed in an invisible awkwardness, making her feel ashamed.

  What's wrong with you...... Why do you always treat me like a stranger? Why does our conversation become so awkward? And the rest of these words, Shen Nan naturally didn't ask out loud.

  What's wrong with me? Tang Jiji had asked herself countless times. Nothing, just that all the people who loved her left her, no longer having a warm and happy home, no longer being a young lady who could spend money freely, nothing but losing everything.

  Tang Ji had told herself countless times, but it was just that. Yet, there were tens of millions of people in the world who were more miserable, more sorrowful, and more unfortunate than her, and she was just one of them. Still, so many people lifted their heads and started anew; why couldn't she?

  Tang Jiji didn't know if she could walk out of the shadow of her past, but she knew that every time she thought about it, she would still be sad and bite her lip to prevent herself from crying. Tears would still well up in her eyes, and then fall uncontrollably. Just like now, even though she was in front of Shen Nanxiao, her nose was sour and tears kept falling uncontrollably.

  Shen Nan stretched out his hand to help her wipe away tears, but was pushed away by her. Tang Jiji herself gently wiped away her tears. Her eyes were red and swollen, reflecting the pain in his eyes, but Tang Jiji truly despised this weak self of hers.

  It's not because she's a coward that she sheds tears, but because at the moment she cries, she hates herself for being able to gain Shen Nanxiao's deep sympathy and pity.

  Shen Nan thought that Tang Ji would absolutely not buy this answer, but Tang Ji lowered his eyelashes and said: "Aren't you wondering what's wrong with me? I'll tell you, I feel like there's no one in this world who loves me... That's it, it's just that simple, and I'm very sad." Since she had already started to sympathize with him, she might as well sympathize all the way through, lest he use those same eyes to interrogate her another day.

  "Tang Ji... " Shen Nan Ye called out her name in a low voice, but the words that followed were left unspoken.

  He stretched out his hand to wipe away Tang Jiji's tears, which were about to fall again, but his hand was frozen in mid-air as Tang Jiji pushed it away. Tang Jiji forced a very awkward smile: "Shen Nanxiao, why aren't you laughing? In the past, didn't you like to stand by and mock me when I cried? Are you playing the warm card now?"

  "Shut up." Shen Nan interrupted her, slightly displeased, and grabbed her hand to move forward. No, not moving, but running, he pulled Tang Jiji's hand on the big bridge, leaving no room for her to resist, and only stopped when they reached another street.

  "Wait a minute, you stay here and don't move," Shen Nanjiao warned her. Tang Jiji was stunned, watching him enter a 24-hour convenience store, only to return with a box of chocolates in just a few minutes.

  "Here." Shen Nan threw a box of five-piece Ferrero Rocher chocolates at Tang Jiji.

  "What's going on?"

  Shen Nan said in a low, gentle voice: "You don't think that no one in the world loves you anymore? Then love yourself well." He spoke seriously, with an expression she rarely saw.

  Tang Jiji hadn't eaten anything and was choked with saliva, unexpectedly Young Master Shen could comfort people like this.

  Shen Nan continued with an unchanged expression: "The other meaning of Ferrero Rocher is 'I love you'. This special box of chocolates has five pieces, but since you think no one loves you, you can eat one piece and tell yourself, 'I love myself'."

  Shen Nan said it very seriously, as if he didn't feel any pretentiousness or inappropriateness. Tang Jiji thought it was funny, but still didn't refuse. She opened the box and for a moment felt a thrill of excitement as she unwrapped the gold paper, carefully savoring the Ferrero Rocher that she had long since gotten tired of eating. A certain unconscious emotion was slowly growing in her heart.

  Slowly finishing the first piece of chocolate, Tang Jiji slowly said from her throat that sentence that seemed to be stuck: "I... I love me."

  I've said "I love you" too many times, yet it's as if I've never said it at all: I love myself.

  The first thing I love is myself. Tang Jiji thought that from today on, she would start to love herself well and take good care of herself, continuing the love her father had for her.

  The second I love me, Tang Ji thought, walking out of that past where no one was waiting, yearning for rebirth, finding a way to live on.

  ……

  As Tang Ji took the last bite of her fifth piece of chocolate, she looked up and met Shen Nan's profound eyes, saying softly: "I love myself. I will make myself live well."

  "Alright," Shen Nan said with a gentle smile, and habitually smoothed out her wind-blown hair, smiling: "Ji Ji, you'll be fine."

  I hate Shen Nan's tone that brooks no doubt, and also the action of touching her hair.

  Tang Jiji smiled slyly and said: "Shen Nanxian, earlier when you did the 'I love me' move, it seemed like something only a heartbroken person would do. Are all your breakups like this?"

  "Mm." An obvious placating and soothing tone.

  Tang Jiji laughed so hard that her flowers shook violently, it turned out that Shen Nanxiao also had a day when he was at a loss.