Chapter 89: Grant Me the Courage to Charge Forward (Part 2)

  As soon as Jiang Fengchen took a step forward, An Yiran's eyes flashed with panic and he hastily grabbed his sleeve, saying: "Fengchen, it's just a madman, you see how he's dashing across the road, clearly not in his right mind. How could he be someone you know?"

  Jiang Fengchen looked at An Yiran with a dazed expression, then turned to look at the road with a puzzled gaze, "But..."

  At this time, the figure that was almost hit by the car bowed and apologized several times before running across the road again and walking away. An Yiran let out a sigh of relief and said, "See, he's already gone, so don't dwell on it anymore, let's go."

  "Alright." Jiang Fengchen had no choice but to turn around and leave with An Yiran. However, he couldn't shake off the feeling that something was off, yet he couldn't quite put his finger on what it was.

  The thick curtains couldn't block out the scorching sunlight, Su Yisuo sat in the return car, feeling her right arm, her right face, moisture was slowly losing. The southern sun was indeed a bit fiery. She irritably raised her head, not knowing who had turned the air conditioner above her head to its maximum, but she was too lazy to reach out and adjust it. Her body temperature at this moment was half like fire and half like ice. But this half of heat couldn't dispel the chill in her heart.

  An 8-hour drive, with half left to go.

  It's probably the way back, Su Yi thought silently. A person's journey home. Except for Jiang Zuo and Lin Wan, no one knew where she had gone or who she had met.

  "Chen, I'm thinking of you." She sent a message to Jiang Fengchen when she got on the return bus.

  After a long time, she finally received Jiang Fengchen's reply: "Yi Su, I miss you too. You're in Jiang City, take good care of yourself, okay? Don't make me worry."

  I will take good care of myself. Su Yisu sneered and turned off her phone. Her long journey gave her a completely unexpected surprise. Along the way, she kept thinking that if she hadn't run over impulsively, would everything have been fine? But without this accident, how much longer would she have been deceived?

  So, should she be resentful or grateful?

  Jiang Fengchen. What's most frightening isn't that you can't bear the loneliness of a long-distance relationship and fall in love with someone else, but rather that one day I'll suddenly realize your heart never stayed with me to begin with, and by then I'll be unable to extricate myself.

  Before this, I thought that when facing betrayal, I would rush forward without hesitation and slap the other person twice, then turn around and leave calmly. But. It turns out that was just what I thought. Jiang Fengchen, I was originally a person who couldn't tolerate even a grain of sand in my eyes, did you know?

  At that moment, Su Yisuo suddenly felt deeply. She should have grown up. Naivety and childishness, crying and throwing tantrums were not characteristics that someone of her age should have.

  Fall in love with someone, and then learn to grow old together. Hehe.

  It was already evening when I returned to the dormitory.

  Su Yi casually tossed her luggage into the closet and climbed onto the bed, ready to sleep the day away.

  Almost half of the people in the dormitory have gone home. It's the Qingming Festival. They all went back to sweep their ancestors' tombs, but Su Yisuo's family didn't have the tradition of sweeping tombs on Qingming Festival. They only had a grand ancestor worship ceremony on Chongyang Festival. The dormitory was empty and quiet, with no one around. Perhaps those roommates who didn't go home were all studying hard in the classroom, fighting for every minute.

  Su Yi Su didn't turn on the light. Perhaps darkness was more suitable for sorrow and tears.

  She quickly adapted to the dim light in the dormitory, she sighed and pushed open the window. The bright streetlights outside poured in, shining on her face, reflecting her tear stains that had not yet dried.

  Jiang Fengchen, what are you doing?

  Su Yisu suddenly went crazy thinking of Jiang Fengchen, although she clearly remembered standing on that noisy street, looking at their intimate backs, and feeling a heart-wrenching pain.

  There are things that one loves and cannot abandon. It turns out that those so-called words of comfort, which can be picked up and put down at will, are all false. Who are they trying to comfort? The one who is most in need of comfort is one's own heart.

  A small flower bud quietly emerged from the snow on the windowsill.

  Su Yi Su's face was calm as she stared at the few flower buds, but suddenly she had an urge to pinch them off. Hehe, brave and straightforward, Snowdrop Flower, is this the power you gave me? But why, did you have to give me such a result?

  It seemed as if some dark force was driving her, and she finally reached out her hand, slowly extending it towards the delicate flower bud.

  "Lin Wan! Hurry up! Trying to exhaust me to death?"

  "I'm exhausted to death, Zhang..."

  Outside the window, the sound of Jiang Zhe and Lin Wan's voices suddenly rang out. Su Yisou was startled, and she quickly came back to her senses. She stared at her actions in confusion, then glanced at those few snow-white flower buds, and finally slowly lowered her head and hands.

  Camellia, grant me the courage to move forward. No matter if the road ahead is bitter or painful, I want my love.

  "Huh? Su's dorm window is open? We left when no one was around."

  "Someone must have come back."

  "But the light is off."

  Jiang Zuo and Lin Wan's voices were getting closer and closer, and they finally walked to the window. As soon as they saw Su Yisou's dejected face, they suddenly exclaimed: "Su Yisou! How did you end up here!"

  Su Yisuo gazed at them, forcing a stiff smile and said: "I'm back, I'll be here from now on."

  Jiang Zuo and Lin Wan stared at each other blankly for a moment, then suddenly rushed into Su Yisou's dormitory, lifted Su Yisou onto the bed, and sat her down. Lin Wan turned on the light with a wave of his hand.

  The sudden light made Su Yisuo's eyes slightly sore, and she couldn't help but squint her eyes, gently turning her head to avoid the direct illumination of the lamp.

  "Tell me, did Jiang Fengchen do something to you?" he asked sternly, his eyes fixed intently on hers as he gripped her arms tightly.

  Lin Wan stood beside her, also staring tightly at Su Yisuo's face, waiting for her answer.

  Su Yisu was stunned again, her gaze slowly sweeping over the two of them, stiffly smiling: "No... nothing."

  "So how did you end up running back? Let me calculate the time, you just ran to Yincheng and got on the return bus, right? Don't tell me that after arriving in Yincheng, you regretted it and didn't want to find him anymore. I don't want to hear this!" Lin Xiao pierced through her lie with one sentence.

  Su Yisu hung her head and refused to speak.

  "What else is there to guess! That kid must have had an affair! I said that kid was unreliable! It's only been a few months, and Yan Zhuan has already turned against us, damn it!" Jiang Shu Lin suddenly stood up and started scolding loudly.

  Su Yisu gently shook her head. She didn't say yes or no, but tears could no longer be controlled. They fell straight down, pattering against the ground. She bit her lip, trying hard not to make a sound. It's said that tears are a sign of immaturity. Is that true? Then, if she couldn't control her tears, at least she should control the sound of her crying, so as not to appear so pitiful.

  Lin Wan quietly squatted down, his left hand on Su Yisu's shoulder, and sighed, saying: "Su. And us, we will always be with you."

  Upon hearing this, Jiang Zuo also calmed down and quietly gazed at Su Yisou. A hint of pain flashed in his eyes as he said, "Su, don't be sad, that kind of person isn't worth your tears."

  "Let me be quiet for a while." Su Yisu finally spoke up, "I want to be alone for a while."

  Upon hearing this, Jiang Zhanling opened her mouth as if to say something, but Lin Wan pulled on her sleeve and signaled with her eyes not to say more. Jiang Zhanling finally swallowed the words she was about to speak and said: "Alright. You get a good rest tonight, tomorrow when you wake up, the sun will still be new."

  Su Yisuo nodded silently.

  Lin Wan and Jiang Zuo Ling reluctantly walked out of Su Yi Su's dormitory, taking three steps at a time. Lin Wan gently closed the door for her and silently sighed, "What is this thing called love in the world, it makes people promise to live and die together."

  "Alas!" Jiang Zhe also let out a sigh, "Let's go, and let her make some adjustments."

  Su Yisuo turned off the light again. She lay on the couch, her heart filled with a thousand flavors and emotions.

  If all the happiness and joy come from not seeing the ugly darkness behind the sunshine, do you want such happiness? Jiang Fengchen, I want to tell you that I don't. But... if one day all of this is no longer a secret, will I lose you then?

  In this world, no one will accompany anyone to grow old together, whether it's kinship, friendship, or love. However, she still can't help but cherish this feeling. Warmth, happiness.

  She loves, she loves all those who have ever given her warmth or are giving it to her now.

  She quietly turned over and took out her phone to turn it on. Probably, no one would be looking for her anyway.

  But the SMS alert tone came flooding in.

  Then she saw the message sent by Shen Beiqiu and his missed call reminder.

  He asked, "How did it turn off?"

  What is he doing?

  Did you receive the painting I sent you?

  ……

  Shen Beiqiu's troubles came one after another, but at this moment she didn't want to return the call or respond to the message.

  Shen Bei Qiu, forgive me, I was being reckless again. But I know you won't blame her, right? In the end, that man of hers turned out not to be her boyfriend. Hehe, how ironic.

  It wasn't long before Shen Beiqiu called again; she hesitated for a moment before answering.

  She quietly didn't speak, and he didn't ask her why she shut down, why she didn't return his calls or messages, as if nothing had happened. He just said: "Yisu, when the first snow falls in Yunxiang, I'll send you a snowy scene, okay? In the snow, I'll write your name, and... Jiang Fengchen's name."

  She stared blankly, smiled wryly, and replied nonchalantly: "Why should I write his name on it? The first snow that belongs to me must be my own, I don't want to share it with anyone else!"

  "Alright, alright, you little ghost." Shen Beiqiu laughed on the other end.

  "Heh heh." She also smiled in agreement for a couple of seconds.

  Shenbei Qiu, I have a secret that I don't want to say. Before, I didn't know, but now she understands. Love is just like holding out honey with the left hand and hiding a knife in the right hand. Each of us holds the phone to our ears and says "I love you", but in our hearts, we each have ulterior motives. The test is just who can deceive whom better.

  Jiang Fengchen, if I endure a little more, will you accompany me until old age?

  Whose secret it is, let it rot in whose heart. Wipe the face, turn around, show a smile, who wants to care if there's a hidden knife behind this smile.