Chapter 1: The Death of Mi Zhi Flying Library

  "Ah Zhi, don't be sad, there are so many good women in the world, why must you keep thinking about just her?"

  I picked up a glass of wine and started drinking. At this moment, I only wanted to numb my nerves and didn't want to hear anything anyone outside said.

  Memories of how I got to know Cai Yuhuan until she got married flashed through my mind.

  Looking at Cai Yuhuan's beautiful face reminds me of Cai Yuhuan in high school.

  In high school, she and I were classmates, and even sat in the same seat.

  She was already very beautiful at that time. She was a school flower and the focus of the school, not only pretty but also very smart.

  She is the embodiment of wisdom and beauty.

  I think it was then that she deeply captivated me. At that time, every day in class, she studied diligently, while I paid attention to her beside her.

  In high school, we were divided into classes. The good students went to the good class, and the bad students went to the troublemaker class. I was assigned to the troublemaker class without a second thought.

  Because at that time most of the attention was focused on this goddess beside me, and I had no heart to learn.

  After class, I came to school very early every morning, the first thing was to run to her classroom door, silently watching her until the bell rang, and then slowly reluctantly left.

  Living like this for a long time, until high school graduation I still didn't confess.

  Because I don't have the courage and confidence, a loser who drifts through life every day going to confess to a goddess who yearns for a beautiful future is unthinkable.

  After graduating from high school, she went to Kyoto University, a university that all Chinese students want to enter. At that time, I also signed up for Kyoto University without self-knowledge.

  The result was predictable and I ended up failing the exam. Fortunately, I managed to get into a third-rate university in Beijing anyway.

  That year I went to Beijing to report for duty, on the way I passed by Kyoto University and saw her, she was still so beautiful and alluring.

  I ran over excitedly, foolishly gave her a greeting, she also smiled in response to me, we chatted for a while, and finally I served as her free laborer for an afternoon, moving all her luggage into the dormitory of Kyoto University.

  Every time I go to school or get off work, I will deliberately take a detour through Kyoto University and pretend to pass by Kyoto University to greet her.

  She graduated from Kyoto University. I thought she would have a boyfriend, but for some reason, she didn't have one, and I also found out that she had never had a boyfriend during her university days.

  It also surprised me that such an excellent and beautiful girl had never had a boyfriend in college.

  After graduating from university, I went to find a job. I learned that she entered the most powerful group in China, Penguin Group, after graduating from university. The group is the most ideal employment group for Chinese people.

  I learned that she entered the Penguin Group, and I also wanted to try if I could enter. I went for an interview, and unexpectedly, I was also admitted to the Penguin Group.

  She was applying for a manager position at Penguin Group, while I was applying for a security guard position at Penguin Group.

  She was also excellent in Penguin Group, rising from an ordinary manager to the secretary of the chairman.

  And I also worked very hard from a small security guard to become the captain of the security team.

  That year she was 28 years old and I was 30, I decided to confess once, regardless of success or failure, because I felt that not confessing would always be a knot in my heart.

  I found a high-end flower shop and ordered a bouquet of roses, which cost me two months' salary. I was overjoyed to take the flowers home with me.

  I went back home and put the flowers on the table, then found a clean suit, dressed neatly, and decided to go to the company to confess to her.

  I saw a letter on the table and was taken aback, muttering to myself: "How could I have forgotten? Someone actually wrote me a letter!"

  I was even more surprised when I saw the sender's name, Cai Yuhan. I grasped the letter tightly, thinking excitedly that she had written to me, wondering... all sorts of thoughts ran wildly through my mind.

  I opened the letter, took a look and was stunned. I clenched my fists in excitement, I was stimulated, this stimulation came like thunder on a clear day. Cai Yuhan is getting married, Yuhan is getting married, the object of marriage is Vice Chairman Li Kainan, that Li Kainan who is above one person and below ten thousand people in that group.

  Sitting on the sofa for a long time, my emotions gradually calmed down. I put the roses I bought in a vase and muttered to myself: "Since she's getting married, I should also stop here."

  I attended the wedding, and had a plain conversation with a security team member who is also a good friend, Xiao Lan. While drinking, Xiao Lan said to me: "Mǐ Zhì (your name), be realistic, Cài Yǔhán is not someone we can reach, she has been excellent since childhood, and now she's still excellent, it's normal for her to marry the vice chairman. And you? You've always been a slacker since childhood, and now you're still a low-level person with a monthly salary of over 1500 who isn't even considered white-collar. Cài Yǔhán wouldn't marry someone like you no matter what."

  I didn't respond to Xiaolan's words, I just smiled and drank wine, drinking until I was almost drunk. I felt dizzy, after Xiaolan finished paying the bill and prepared to send me home, I refused her and sat alone on a chair in the restaurant for a while, then staggered out onto the main road.

  A car suddenly rushed over and almost hit me.

  I opened my eyes, and I was awake. My heart and head were aching terribly. At this moment, an ambulance appeared, and several people wearing white coats came down and carried me into the ambulance.

  A man in a white coat said, "This kid is done for. He was hit by a car and his heart and brain are gone. His life hangs in the balance. Hurry up and use the defibrillator to shock his heart."

  I looked at the doctor, smiled and held his hand. The doctor was stunned. I smiled at him and said: "Doctor, thank you! If you really can't save me, then just give up, anyway, I don't want to live anymore, it's better to die!"

  The doctor said seriously to me: "This is absolutely impossible. As long as you don't give up, I will do my best to help you pull through."

  At this time I feel that the world's evaluation of doctors is simply inconsistent with the doctor in front of me, I feel that this doctor's medical ethics are very high, and I smiled as he held the electric pressure meter to take my blood pressure.

  I tightly grasped the doctor's hands and said to him: "If I don't make it, can you do me a favor, Doctor?"

  The doctor was taken aback and said: "Kid, you'll definitely make it through. If you really die, then just say so, what do you need me to help you with?"

  I was overjoyed when I heard the doctor's reply, so I closed my eyes and then opened them again to say: "Help me pass on a message to our company's chairman's secretary Cai Yuhuan, tell her that I love her, I like her, I love her, I love him, I love her!" When I finished saying the four 'I love her' and one 'I like her', the electric shock treatment was ineffective. I closed my eyes with a smile and left this world...