Chapter 43: Heart Wounded by Past Memories

  Once such an idea is born in the mind, it cannot be shaken off, and the more one thinks about it, the more possible it seems. The essence of Hui Tian Gong lies in refining all kinds of disparate things to give birth to the divine, combined with the analytical power of Xi Tian Jue to analyze all spiritual energy in the world, making its yin-yang complementary properties effective, and its efficacy is increased by more than a hundredfold?

  "But if they were originally from the same source, why force them apart?" Feng thought bitterly to himself, not noticing that someone had appeared beside him.

  "How are you sitting here all alone?" A gentle inquiry awakened Su Feng from his reverie.

  Turning back with the wind, it was Yunshui Jian.

  "It was actually Cloud Master, I just felt a bit stuffy in the room and came out to get some fresh air." He put down his doubts after being interrupted by him, looking at the starry sky, he said lightly.

  Yun Shui gazed at the vast night scene and sighed, "At your age, it's tough to be wandering around the Jianghu. There's pressure from all sides, but you can't escape it. Looking up to others who are already masters at a young age, while you still need to take slow and steady steps to improve... this feeling is really hard to put into words. By the way, what do you plan to do next?"

  Yunshui's words were still as warm and gentle as before, but listening to them brought a hint of the unique melancholy of youth. "It turns out he also had it tough." Suifeng said: "Not fully thought through yet, might go to Songshan to look for Liang Gege."

  The cloud and water gradually faded into a faint smile, the smile remained, but it was mixed with a few points of bitterness. "The name of 'God's Hand' spread throughout the entire Jianghu, I thought it was some eccentric senior, didn't expect it to be just a new generation of young people who had just come out of Jianghu and were still in training. Indeed, a new generation replaces the old, now this is already your world."

  He raised his head to gaze at the starry sky, and in just one month since he first set out on his journey, he had come to know so many young heroes, many of whom were already not inferior to some old veterans of the jianghu. What they lacked was only some experience.

  With a hint of doubt in his heart, Yun Shui had just passed the weak crown not long ago and was already half a step into the pre-heavenly realm. Looking around the world, how many true pre-heavenly masters were there? "Brother Yun, why say such things? You are only half a step away from the pre-heavenly realm now, I'm sure you'll be able to take this step and fulfill your wish in just a few years. Even if it's not possible for the time being, you're still a young master of a region. How many young people have set foot in the pre-heavenly realm nowadays? Probably none."

  It seemed that he had thought of the sad past, and Yun Shui let out a long sigh, saying: "At first when I entered the sect under Master's guidance, I was also full of ambition wanting to achieve great fame like Master. But when my internal energy had some small accomplishments and I prepared to open up my meridians, I discovered that there was actually a fatal weakness in my body."

  "Death Hole?" The wind howled in shock, and just hearing the name made it clear that it was an ominous thing.

  Yun Shui nodded, saying: "The death orifice refers to the acupoint being completely devoid of vitality and filled with a heavy, dead energy. Although it's only one point, it's located on the Governor Vessel at the Lingtai, causing my entire Governor Vessel to be blocked. As a result, all the meridians in my body are restricted by this single death orifice, making it impossible for me to communicate with the natural world and Heaven. This life is destined to have no connection with the innate. Moreover, over the past few years, the death orifice has been devouring a large amount of my internal energy every day, forcing me to meditate and regulate my breath to make up for the deficiency in my internal energy. And it's getting worse year by year... I'm afraid that if this continues, I won't have much time left..."

  As the wind listened to him finish, a gloomy atmosphere arose, and in his heart he deeply sympathized with him. Such an extraordinary talent suffered from heavenly jealousy, yet harbored such a rare and ancient disease.

  Although he had already vaguely guessed the answer in his heart, Su Feng still asked: "Is there really no way to treat this disease?"

  Yun Shui slowly shook his head, "Master searched the entire world for medical techniques for my sake, but couldn't find any mention of this condition. Master also had a few close friends who were renowned doctors at that time, but they too were helpless. In the end, when all else failed, Master even prepared to pass on the Hui Tian Gong to me, wanting to use the power of the Hui Tian created by gathering the essence of immortality to restore my Ling Tai acupoint."

  "You didn't know?" Even though he already knew, Sui Feng was still somewhat surprised.

  Yun Shui slowly shook his head and said, "No, the Return to Heaven Technique has been passed down through generations, with each generation's successor being a master of the Innate Realm. If it were to be passed on to me, wouldn't that be a waste of such a divine technique?"

  Suī fēng xīn li hěn bù shì zī wèi, dào: "Nǐ wèi hé bù shì shì ne, shuō bù dìng kě yǐ jiě jué nǐ tǐ nèi de wèn tí."

  Translation:

  Su Feng felt uncomfortable in his heart and said, "Why don't you try it? Maybe it can solve the problem inside your body."

  Yun Shui let out a sigh and said, "Master has already tested me with the power of reversing heaven, but even Master's abilities couldn't solve it, so how could I? Moreover, if I'm not mistaken, Master has already passed on the Reversing Heaven Technique to you, right?"

  Dazed for a moment, he exclaimed: "How did you...how did you know?"

  Yunshui smiled faintly and said, "I understand Master the most. He has always been a man of his word, never making promises lightly. Once he makes a promise, he will keep it even if it means sacrificing himself. If he made such a promise to your father and passed it on to me, wouldn't that be breaking his promise? As his disciple, I couldn't bear the guilt of not being able to help Master, let alone drag him down and make him break his own promise?"

  The long silence that lingers with the wind, I don't know what to say, wanting to comfort him, but not knowing where to start. It seems that in front of him, all the comforting words from the world are too superficial, only the starry sky and the evening breeze in the mountains can gradually soothe his inner melancholy.

  "What are you going to do next?" Feng asked after a long time of deliberation.

  "I'll continue to wander the world, searching for a way to cure this fatal weakness within me. I don't know if I can find it or not." Yun Shui gradually replied.

  Seeing Yun Shui Jian's distress over his congenital defect, Feng Meng suddenly thought of the story Wang Changming told him about Qingxuan Laodao's magical powers. If there really were such extraordinary people in the world, wouldn't it be possible for them to have a way to cure Yun Shui Jian's hidden illness? He immediately comforted him, saying: "There definitely will be someone who can cure your illness. The world is so vast and there are countless talented individuals, surely one of them will be able to heal you. Don't lose heart."

  Yun Shui nodded slightly, taking Sui Feng's words as ordinary comforting words and didn't think much of it. Sui Feng saw that he wasn't asking many questions, so she immediately thought to tell him about the family matters from before.

  Just as he was about to speak, suddenly, "Shui Jian Gege, I didn't know you were here."

  The two of them were taken aback at the same time, and they turned their heads to look over, only to see Hua Yi walking slowly towards them from a mountain path on the side. Yun Shui's face, which had been filled with a faint sadness just moments before, was now completely cleared up, and he regained his usual warm and approachable demeanor.

  "He had been suppressing his pain all along, not letting others notice. I didn't expect him to say so much to me tonight." Xun Feng's heart was pondering, while her face pretended that nothing had happened.

  "Shui Jue Gege, what are you doing here? And you, humph." Hua Ai asked with her nose upturned, for some reason she seemed not very friendly to Sui Feng. Which made Sui Feng secretly wonder when he had offended her.

  "Just venting my emotions, what brings you here? Shouldn't you be looking after your junior brother?" Yun Shui Yan teased with a smile.

  "Oh dear! I was talking to you about something serious, Wind... no, Brother Yi just joined Father's sect and has an injury on his leg, he must be very uncomfortable. Why don't we go take a look at him together?" Hua Ai said, then glared at Sui Feng and muttered: "Your name also has the character 'wind', how annoying!"

  He smiled wryly and shook his head, unable to utter a word for a long time.

  Yun Shui Jian was also a handful, this junior sister of his had a restless nature and couldn't stay still for a moment, Hua Jiugong didn't manage her well either, it's really unknown when she would calm down.

  "We just saw him today, why go again? You can go by yourself if you want to." Yun Shui said helplessly.

  Hua Yi looked at Yun Shui with a pitiful expression and said in a soft voice, "Isn't it late now? Of course I want to go, but can you, as the senior brother, not go?"

  Clouds and water gradually had no choice but to agree. Looking at the happy siblings with the wind, he also found it somewhat interesting, but suddenly wanted to go back and try out the internal breath in his body after the two great divine powers merged. He pushed himself to say that he was a bit tired and wanted to rest, hastily bidding farewell to the two siblings, and returned to his own room with the wind.

  It was called a wing room, but it was actually the resting place of Penglai's disciples. This time, it was specially vacated for Su Feng. Inside, four hardwood beds and a tea table were neatly arranged, much simpler than the one they had stayed in at the Murong residence. After all, this place was on a mountain, and Su Feng wasn't particular about it either, so he casually chose a bed and sat down cross-legged.

  Try the two major methods and use a little bit of energy to circulate through the Heavenly Cycle, it's good that the Breaking Heaven and Returning Heaven methods complement each other and don't have any issues with precedence, one moves, the other follows, just like yin and yang and taiji forming a perfect unity.

  It wasn't until now that I had the chance to truly appreciate the subtlety of this. The Taiji diagram in my lower abdomen is now thousands, no tens of thousands of times more mysterious than the Yin-Yang diagram from before. Every time I circulate my Qi through my heart, the Taiji diagram slowly rotates, synchronizing with my breath and moving the entire meridian system in harmony. When practicing, not only do I have an almost endless surge of internal energy, but I can also expand my meridians and wash my marrow with the mysterious sword techniques.

  So effective, the wind is secretly tongue-tied. He thought to himself: "If Father knew that his guess was correct, the combination of Tian Jue and Hui Tian Jue would be so wonderful, he must be very pleased." But suddenly, his heart was shocked, and he exclaimed: "Could it be that Father had already calculated future events, so he deliberately made this bet with Hua Qianbei?"

  It's not impossible to think about it, Su Tian was famous for his divination and numerology, and before he died, he had arranged everything that would happen after his death. He put the "Tian Jue" in the gap of the tombstone, and specially instructed Wang Changming to let Su Feng go to the grave to burn incense, which is probably also calculated. The more I think about it, the more possible it seems. However, there were many years in between, and at that time, Su Tian was only a young man, could he really have predicted what would happen more than 20 years later? Su Tian has long been buried, and the truth of the matter at that time is probably no longer known to anyone.

  Sighs with the wind, but not easily swayed by fortune-telling. Some things are just heaven's secrets, and knowing too much doesn't do any good. And he has been through so many things, his mindset has gradually matured, although he knows that the predestined fate is incredibly mysterious and can be calculated to a certain extent, but also understands that sometimes heaven's will cannot be resisted, just like the gradual flow of clouds and water, even if one calculates that they will have a strange illness in the future, what can be done? They would still choose the same path. Many things, even if you know the outcome, you would still charge forward without hesitation. Isn't it better to just go with the flow, experience the gains and losses, and the hardships, isn't that better?

  He thought about it all night, and when he had some free time, he would sit and meditate for a while. The whole evening passed by in a hurry. When he opened his eyes again, the outside was already bright, and a cold ray of sunlight from the mountains pierced through the window and into his eyes.

  Walked slowly to the window with the wind, looked out, a piece of fog was steaming and connected to the clouds at the horizon, the sun seemed to be bathing in the surrounding mist.

  "It's dawn, I should go too." Her eyes seemed to drift away with the wind as she murmured softly to herself. If you like this book, don't forget to collect it! Of course, recommendations are welcome. Here, I'd like to thank everyone for their support!