Chapter 107: The Wind and Rain Came Again in My Dream (09)

  These days, Chen Haonan has been somewhat restless, but what exactly is going on, he himself can't make clear, only feeling that something is pulling at his heart.

  When Chen Haonan calmed down a bit, he couldn't help but think of what Xiao Qiuying said before she left, the words still echoing in his ears, so true and real.

  As for emotions, Chen Haonan knew how numb and dull he was. It wasn't that he didn't want to like or love someone properly, but rather he simply didn't dare to face it. The passing of his father left a shadow in his mind that often couldn't be shaken off, and then there was Lin Yufei - that beautiful and kind girl. Last night's stormy night, he dreamed of her again.

  Chen Haonan was deeply aware that his feelings for Lin Yufei had never truly started, but she had silently done many things for him with a willing heart, which made him especially grateful. However, due to Lin Yufei's early departure, the special gratitude he felt towards her turned into guilt, leaving a deep imprint on his heart that could not be erased.

  At first, Chen Haonan was shocked and moved by Lin Yufei's sudden love, and his heart was also a little touched, but he couldn't say whether that special feeling was love or not...

  "Never mind, Yu Fei has already gone to heaven, why bother her again?" Chen Haonan patted his own forehead once more, as if warning himself.

  But now, Chen Haonan is facing Ouyang Yiweng...

  A year ago, his father passed away due to illness, and Chen Haonan's world suddenly became dark and chaotic. However, at that moment of extreme grief and confusion, the liberal arts and science division happened to coincide, and after several rounds of weighing and psychological struggle, he finally chose liberal arts and walked into the classroom of Class 214. But this decision seemed to have predetermined some things.

  Chen Haonan and Ouyang Yiweng met by chance, then became acquainted with each other, and eventually became close friends. During this time, many things happened, they often chatted together, discussed, shared secrets from the depths of their hearts, and had a deep tacit understanding between them. However, Chen Haonan's feelings towards her were very ambiguous, he couldn't tell whether it was friendship or love, he even couldn't figure out what he needed most, all he knew was that his feeling towards her was special, and that special feeling made him happy when she was happy, and worried when she was sad.

  It wasn't until Xiao Qiuyue said those words that Chen Haonan truly realized he had already fallen for Ouyang Yiweng. This is probably what the ancient saying means, "Those who are in the midst of it are confused, while those who observe from the outside are clear."

  People's feelings are strange, sometimes in the midst of confusion and ambiguity, they can still be at ease, but once they are pointed out, people will become abnormally excited and tense. Before, when Chen Haonan was with Ouyang Yiweng, he was very casual and didn't have any worries, but after being enlightened by Xiao Qiuming's words, whenever he saw her or spoke to her, he would feel his breathing becoming tight, his heart beating rapidly, as if he had done something shameful.

  "How did I end up like this?" The dormitory lights went out on time, and Chen Haonan lay quietly in bed, thinking about this very tricky question again.

  This afternoon at dusk, Chen Haonan leaned against a corner of the corridor in a daze. Ouyang Yiweng ran over with a smile and handed "Xīn Líng Xuān" in front of him.

  Perhaps some people's memories have become blurred...

  "Xīn Líng Xuān" is Chen Haonan's diary, it is his most private thing, on which he records every detail of his inner journey. This most private thing is often hidden by him at the bottom of his desk drawer, and few people have seen it. However, Ouyang Yiwén strangely became a co-owner of it with Chen Haonan, and even left her elegant words on it, among which are mostly the small poems of the "Passenger Travel" series.

  "Xīn Líng Xuān" was handed over to Chen Haonan by Ouyang Yiwén a week ago, she handed it back to him, just wanting to find an opportunity to talk to him - because she found that he seemed to be avoiding her these days... "Haonan, have you had any worries lately?" Looking at Chen Haonan's face, Ouyang Yiwén asked with concern.

  However, standing in front of Ouyang Yiweng, Chen Haonan suddenly felt his chest burning up, and his heart uncontrollably "thumping" and "thumping" violently. "Nothing, I'm fine, I'm fine..." Chen Haonan said hastily, he didn't dare to look at Ouyang Yiweng's face.

  "Are you really okay?" Ouyang Yiweng leaned in again, "Then why did I think your expression was a bit off these past few days - are you sick or something?"

  "It's nothing, I'm really fine!" Chen Haonan quickly turned his face away. He was a bit afraid of Ouyang Yiweng's gaze and didn't say a few words before excusing himself to hurry off.

  Chen Haonan had made a round in the corridor before slipping back into the classroom. However, as soon as he sat down, he eagerly opened "Heart of Eternity".

  Since the tacit understanding of writing "The Traveler's Journey" was reached, no matter when, Chen Haonan and Ouyang Yiweng have never stopped the habit of writing "The Traveler's Journey", and there are probably already thirty or forty poems. After searching for a while, Chen Haonan finally found Ouyang Yiweng's latest update. This is already "The Traveler's Journey (Thirty-Four)":

  I walked through the campus

  The beauty of the seasons is like the blooming and falling of lotus flowers.

  The sun doesn't rise, the warm atmosphere isn't thick...

  Your heart is like a small, quiet wall.

  Just like friends accidentally bumped into each other

  The sound is muffled and doesn't resonate, perhaps you can't feel it

  Your heart is a small window tightly closed...

  I quietly stepped silently is a beautiful mistake

  I am not a returning person

  I am just a passerby...

  As soon as Chen Haonan saw Ouyang Yiweng's beautiful handwriting, his heart trembled again. Word by word, he softly recited her poem, as if feeling she was standing in front of him, slowly pouring out her emotions. Finally, Chen Haonan couldn't help but sneak a peek at her...

  Throughout the evening self-study session, Chen Haonan couldn't calm down, but as soon as the bell rang, his heart became flustered. Fortunately, there were still 30 minutes of lights on in the classroom after class, and he hastily finished the homework left by the teacher during the day before rushing back to the dormitory.

  At this moment, the snores in the dormitory were like thunder, but Chen Haonan was tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. He was thinking about how to write the next "Traveler's Song". However, Ouyang Yiweng's eyes kept flashing back in his mind, as well as her beautiful face...

  Gradually, Chen Haonan felt that his eyelids were heavy, very heavy - in his dream, he vaguely saw her face again.

  Last night, wind and rain suddenly appeared in a dream... Perhaps life was originally like this!