Chapter 80: Cherish a Man's Tears (03)

  After listening to Chen Haonan talk about so many things, Ouyang Yiweng was shocked, and the strings in her heart were also touched. Because everyone has their own story, their own bitterness, and Ouyang Yiweng is no exception.

  Ouyang Yiweng's father is named Ouyang Tie, and her mother is Feng Cuilan. They were both born in the 1960s, although they didn't read many books, but they had a good business mind and a pioneering spirit. After getting married, they gave birth to their daughter "Yiwen" and moved south to Guangzhou together: The couple first worked for others, and later started their own processing plant, which became bigger and bigger over time.

  However, the sky has unpredictable winds and clouds, and people have unexpected disasters and blessings. A sudden big fire burned all the dreams and hopes of Ouyang Tie and his wife. Just as they were rushing to rescue the factory's property, the beam suddenly collapsed, and Feng Cui Lan dodged too late. A concrete slab hit her head squarely, and due to severe injuries, she closed her eyes forever on the way to the hospital...

  After completing his wife's funeral, Ouyang Tie, bearing the pain, walked back into the already ruined factory, because he still had a heavy debt in front of him. Fortunately, with the help of friends, Ouyang Tie's processing plant slowly started operating again, and after several years, he not only paid off all his debts but also accumulated a large amount of savings. Later, he went to Shanghai to cooperate with others in real estate investment, and his career was booming! However, because he was busy managing the business, Ouyang Tie neglected his daughter.

  From a young age, Ouyang Yiweng followed her grandparents. Although both her grandfather and grandmother loved this little granddaughter very much, because her father was away from home for a long time, Little Yiweng often received scolding and beatings from her uncles and aunts, and her cousins also frequently bullied her. So, from a young age, in Ouyang Yiweng's heart there were shadows, she attributed all the harm to her father, she resented him for not being able to keep her mother, she resented him for not being able to give her paternal care, she hated him even more for not giving her an intact family...

  Although Father had been sending a lot of living expenses to Ouyang Yiweng every month over the years, what's the use of having more money? Can it comfort and wipe away the deep wounds in one's heart? No!...Ouyang Yiweng hated her father so much that she often saw herself killing him in her dreams - blood flowing all over the ground.

  These stories, these heart-wrenching matters hidden deep within Ouyang Ywen's heart, Chen Haonan only came to know gradually. Of course, this was also something she told him bit by bit while holding back tears. Perhaps it was because they both had scars in their hearts that the two of them gradually drew closer...

  In the next story, Chen Haonan calls Ouyang Yuer "Yuer" because she allowed him to call her that - and she only allows him to call her that. And she only calls him "Haonan", because he feels that when she calls him that, the feeling between them is a bit better, and they are closer.

  In the following days, Chen Haonan had many thoughts and wrote two short poems on a whim. The two poems he scribbled randomly were both titled "Traveler's Song" and marked "(One)" and "(Two)". The content is as follows:

  The Guest's Journey (I):

  Happiness has become a cold wind

  Laughter also turned into ice points

  A person walks on an empty street

  I found myself becoming a passerby

  Where did you go and where did you come from?

  Maybe there's still a dream ahead...

  Traveler's Lament (II):

  I am just a passerby.

  Winter winds cannot disperse the fervor in my heart

  Even summer drought cannot melt the ice block in my heart

  I want to split my heart in two

  Half placed at the South Pole

  Half in central Sahara

  When the time comes

  I hope my life can be sublimated

  I want to be a sorrowful Stigma

  Wrap oneself in thorns

  Maybe I'll get transformed

  Helpless! Struggling desperately...

  Chen Haonan carefully copied the two "Traveler's Songs" and handed them over to Teacher Xiao Nie, fulfilling his promise to her. In addition, he also copied these two poems onto his "Heart Pavilion".

  "Heart Window" is a diary that Chen Haonan always carries with him, in a black leather folder. Because it records many of Chen Haonan's thoughts and innermost feelings, he named it "Heart Window", meaning "window to the heart" or "gateway to the soul".

  "Xīn Líng Xuān" is Chen Haonan's most secretive thing, only a few people know about it, and no one has ever seen it. Not even Yu Fen and Yu Na have seen it, nor Li Donglin and Li Jia. Even his own sister Chen Jiayi hasn't seen it. It's always carried by Chen Haonan, recording everything he sees, hears, feels, and every little detail... However, Chen Haonan did something that he himself never expected.

  It was a dusk after dinner. The air was good, the scenery was beautiful, and the sun was setting in the west. Chen Haonan was leaning on the railing of the corridor, watching with great interest the group of shirtless guys frantically competing for the basketball on the playground... After a while, Ouyang Yiweng also came over, she asked Chen Haonan softly: "Do you like playing basketball too?"

  "It's okay, but the technique is really bad——" Chen Haonan smiled and his eyes were still fixed on those crazy guys on the playground.

  Ouyang Yiweng also smiled along with her... "What about your 'Xīn Líng Xuān'?" After a while, she suddenly asked, her voice very soft, but seemingly using a lot of effort to say it.

  "What? What did you say?" Chen Haonan was somewhat surprised and quickly turned his head to ask, wanting to confirm Ou Yang Yiweng's words.

  "I say, Haonan, where is your 'Xīn Líng Xuān'?" Seeing no one beside them, Ouyang Yi leaned into Chen Haonan's ear and said slowly but clearly.

  "Ah?" Chen Haonan immediately became spirited, he smiled foolishly and said: "Yi'er, how did you know about 'Xīn Líng Xuān'?"

  "I'm not telling you!" Ouyang Yiweng deliberately raised her head.

  "Come on, just say it!" Zhang looked around and saw no one, Chen Haonan shook Ouyang Yiweng's arm like a child, begging to ask.

  "Stop shaking...my arm is almost broken, can't you see I'm telling the truth?" Ouyang Yiweng pleaded with a smile.

  "Alright, you tell me!"

  "You yourself forgot, that day it was clearly you who told me..." Ouyang Yiweng pouted her small mouth and muttered softly.

  "What did I say? Which day was it? Did I say that..." Chen Haonan himself was also a bit confused.

  "Right, it's what you said yourself... Hurry up and show me!"

  "Want to take a look?" Chen Haonan smiled foolishly for a moment. "Xīn Líng Xuàn" had never been lent out before, but at this moment, he didn't have the intention of refusing. He felt that there was nothing left to hide between him and Ouyang Yiwén...

  So Chen Haonan inexplicably lent "Xīn Líng Xuān" to Ouyang Yiwén.

  Two days later, Ouyang Yiweng returned "Xīn Líng Xuān". Chen Haonan slowly opened it to take a look. He flipped through the pages from the front, one by one. Suddenly, he was stunned, because he found that behind 《Guò Kè Xíng (One)》 and 《Guò Kè Xíng (Two)》, there was actually an additional 《Guò Kè Xíng (Three)》:

  Many disappointments

  Many disappointments

  They made my wounded heart feel lonely

  The weak often turn disappointment into hatred and despair into desperation...

  However, the strong in life

  But took those as infinite power for progress...

  The strong, I am not worthy of

  The weak, I won't be one of them

  At this moment, I welcomed too much sorrow and regret in my heart.

  Heart fell into the sea of suffering once again

  I dare not ask, I dare not think, I dare not...

  At this time, I am also speechless, with only sorrow as my companion.

  The road stretches out underfoot——

  What will we do in the following days?

  I'd rather be a fleeting passerby...

  Ouyang Yiweng's sad words jumped into his eyes, Chen Haonan felt particularly uncomfortable in his heart, but he didn't know what to say - near the evening self-study time, he followed up with "The Past Guest (Three)" and wrote "The Past Guest (Four)":

  Occasional rapid heartbeat

  Occasional passion and grandeur

  In haste, I left one of life's way stations

  Ran to another relay station

  A kind of mood

  It's so hard to put into words

  In front is muddy swamp land

  There is no way back...

  Open the skylight of the heart

  I just found out that the sky is still beautiful

  However,

  When and where will we have a warm old nest for travelers like us?

  Maybe it's just ahead

  I need to work hard

  You too——

  Also includes him and her...

  Three days later, Ouyang Yiweng took away "Xīn Líng Xuān" again...