Chapter 10: Refused by You, I'm Also Heartbroken (Part 2)

  He suddenly raised his hand as he sat in the western shadow two groups away from me.

  "Teacher, Lin Qing can actually do this problem, she's just timid and doesn't dare to say it. She might not be confident and is afraid of getting the wrong answer."

  Ah, Xi Ying, he's helping me out of this situation. I look over at him and he gives me an encouraging glance, as if to say: Don't worry, I've got your back.

  My nervous and flustered mood suddenly calmed down a lot.

  At that moment, I suddenly felt he was so great. Just like sometimes when we were still deskmates in English class, the teacher would check our recitation of the lesson and for some reason she always picked on me to recite, probably because my exam scores were relatively good. In fact, I had already prepared at home and could recite fluently, but once I was in class in front of so many classmates, I would occasionally forget due to nervousness, and my mind would go blank for a moment before I remembered again. But Xiying would always lower her head and quietly remind me in a way that the teacher couldn't see, so that the blank wouldn't happen again.

  How grateful I am for his encouragement and help, which can relieve my tense emotions to the point of disappearance. Really, thinking of him, my heart is full of emotion.

  The teacher said: "You know? You're not his brother." Her eyes were slightly smiling. In fact, the teacher is still quite humorous sometimes.

  The teacher's words finally made those classmates unable to control their laughter.

  Their laughter seemed to have no effect on He Xiying at all.

  He stood there calmly and continued speaking, completely disregarding the astonishment of his teacher and classmates.

  "This question can be solved like this." He quickly said his thinking.

  The teacher then asked him to go on stage and present his solution. Looking at his answer, because he used a simple method, the teacher showed a joyful expression.

  So she didn't pursue the matter with me anymore.

  Class is over, and the things that happened in class today are still circulating among classmates, especially the sentence the teacher said about me and Xī Yǐng. That sentence has been discussed for a long time.

  I couldn't care less about anything else, I want to resolve the matter that's been hanging over my head as soon as possible, just like a stone weighing on my heart every day.

  I came to the head teacher's office.

  "Teacher, I want to change seats." I said simply and tentatively.

  The class teacher was correcting homework, he stopped his pen and smiled at me.

  "Change seats?" His tone was gentle and didn't make me feel tense at all.

  I don't want to sit with Li Yi.

  "The reason is that seats cannot be changed casually."

  I quickly racked my brain for a reason that would satisfy the teacher without exposing or harming Li Yi.

  It's really tough, those irrelevant excuses were all rejected by the teacher, is that it? No way, I must get the teacher to agree today.

  Later I had to say: "At the end of class, he always comes to talk to me. I want to read books and do exercises, I don't want to be disturbed."

  The teacher smiled: "This doesn't seem like a good reason, never mind, since you insist on switching, I'll switch with the whole class on Monday!" We have to switch seats every week, so classmates can sit in different positions in the classroom.

  The teacher finally agreed, and I got what I wanted. At that time, I was extremely happy.

  No longer sitting with Li Yi, it's much quieter now.

  But who knows, Jingjing found me again and said to me: "Han Wei and the others said that you first liked Li Yi, now you like He Xiyin, everyone is discussing it."

  "What's with the order? It doesn't make any sense at all," I said angrily.

  It just so happened that on this day after school, he who had not spoken to me since I didn't agree with his suggestion and thus shattered his hope of being together with me, was walking in front of me. He turned around unintentionally and saw me, then said: "I'll send you home!"

  I was still immersed in Jing's words and couldn't let go. At this time, I definitely couldn't agree to his request, so I said: "Not today, I have something on!"

  He walked away, and after a few steps, he turned his head back to look at me, revealing a smile that was tinged with sadness. I clearly saw the worry in his eyes. He must have summoned up all his courage for this invitation after I had rejected him before, only to be pushed back again. How could he not feel dejected? By now, he had vanished into the wind, leaving behind an impression of his solitary figure that was tinged with a certain sadness.

  However, He Xiying, from start to finish I didn't want to refuse you, it's just that there were too many things I couldn't bear, making me unable to face them.

  Actually, I wish that from tomorrow on, you can still meet me on the road like before and walk with me together. After school, you can send me home again. I wish I could go back to the past, even if it was so short-lived, but it has always been shining in a corner of my heart like starlight, while now it's as dim as your eyes at this moment.

  Sorry, I rejected you, and I feel sad too. My sorrow is also something that you can't see.