Chapter Twenty-Three: Longing
I think about the process of sending him away today, it can be brilliant, it can be dazzling, but it will never be erased. And it's just a day, a day like many past days, the difference is that He Xiying left today, and we can't see each other again, leaving only a heart full of pain.
He Xiying, I silently recite this name in my heart. Those past memories, the beautiful and sorrowful ones, still shine in my mind. Everything remains as it was yesterday, but how can I settle all of these in my heart?
Thinking back to the time when I transferred to that school in the season of cherry blossoms, meeting him, and all the bits and pieces that followed, all the beauty and sorrow slowly unfolded in my heart.
At this moment, a breeze is blowing from the window, and the fine rain is drifting over the floor-to-ceiling curtains. I want to whisper to you, my dear friend.
Once we understood each other's hearts, the time that followed was beautiful and became an indelible mark on our minds. At that time, you said, you wanted to hold my hand and never let go, holding my hand would be holding onto this life's warmth. But in reality, due to an unavoidable missed opportunity, we were separated by mountains and rivers, separated by what kind of unbridgeable pain? Perhaps not, perhaps on the road ahead, we bid each other farewell. Turning around, leaving. Leaving behind was a faint warmth, left behind were the shadows in our hearts, beautiful yet desolate. From then on, separated by the horizon, separated by the sea. So goodbye, to everything. When snowflakes fall, they will melt into tears of sorrow.
But do you know? The time that slips away from our fingertips is so short, yet the thoughts that remain in our hearts are so long. When a shooting star streaks across the lonely sky, when a flower blooms with its last hint of fragrance, will you remember a girl who once came by? She thought of your dawn and dusk, she thought of your morning and evening. The thoughts embroidered on the petals, have you seen them? The words woven into our hearts, have you heard them?
No matter how the world changes, I've always been here thinking of you. The fragrance of flowers in the morning floats into my window, and the gentle rain falls on my roof at night. I collect all my thoughts and put them in a bottle of wishes, my thoughts are so long, from dawn till dusk, they linger on my heart day after day.
Yes, I thought of him in that unfamiliar country's day and night, thinking of his mood basking in the California sunshine.
A few days later, he was already in a foreign land. He said hastily: "Why couldn't I take you with me?" This light remark revealed all his thoughts. I smiled: "I am snow, warmth will melt me until I disappear." Now I can only be like this!
He didn't see the tears in my eyes. I just wish to stay forever in his heart. Across what seemed like a warm screen, I saw his fluttering shadow gradually fade away, farther and farther. Drifting, dispersing, intoxicating thoughts filled my heart.
Many days have passed, time is fleeting, from the lush summer, to the autumn with fallen flowers all over the ground, until now, this season is cold, and it's already a snowy winter.
It seems like an old friend has come. In this cold season, I feel his breath in my sky, lingering in my dreams.
The wind lifts the quiet window curtains, and snow falls on the eaves of longing. Our first love, she was like a fleeting snowflake. I'm having dreams about memories. In my dream, the wind blows down the lush flowers, as if they were tears of sorrow. Holding an umbrella and walking in memories, the surroundings are like a gallery, etched with her vibrant and beautiful presence. The wind rises, clothes fluttering, stirring up countless thoughts of love, I see a flower that seems to be from another world, promising me beauty in this life. I will always wake up at some point.
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