Chapter 77 of Volume 1: Love is a one-way instinct

  "Meng Wei said, the body and soul always have one on the road, and he had to follow his own soul running on the road. [Free] Even if we can't catch up with our own soul, we can't go against our own soul, that kind of pain is like life and death separation." An Junli and Na Yan were like a pair of kindred spirits, they always spoke in the crowded crowd, listening to words that others couldn't understand, and hearing heart-wrenching words.

  "But we always have things that are beyond our control, and even if there's something on another path that tugs at our heart, it's still better than having nothing to tug at the other end of our heart!" Yan pushed the messy bangs behind her ears, her face always hidden under a thick layer of makeup, so others saw her beauty as if through mist.

  But that color is really beautiful, it can be seen from her eyes, it's a coffee color with ripples of water. That kind of eye light with weak light, no sharpness to penetrate everything, no invasion to occupy. It's just soft, like the night lamp. In the daytime, others don't feel her existence, because she hides well in the bright daylight, at night she comes late, always a bit tired, but still makes people feel at ease and not blame.

  "He will be there, always." An Junli said firmly.

  Because he knew that Xiǎo Jì loved him for life, just like himself. They were both stubborn people who wouldn't turn back even if they ran into a wall.

  Love is a one-way instinct, often feeling that it's just that person, and then passionately falling in love. But when hurt, they won't let go, only foolishly hanging the love on their heart, as the wind blows with lingering pain, accompanied by moans, like the midnight wind chime.

  An Junli hopes that Xi Que can be better off, at least not like him, separating two people in love with thousands of mountains and rivers, and then remembering them with great difficulty.

  "So I want him to be good there, not die there." Na Yan's words stuck in her throat. At this moment, she thought of the white cotton skirt stained with blood two years ago, and remembered herself standing in the sunlight before that, clear as a pool of water about to evaporate into the air, but all that was in the past.

  All the beautiful memories of youth, if stained with blood, will slowly turn black and rot in a locked small box. It forever emits a bloody smell, reminding you of what you've done. Being young is good, you can do whatever you want, but when you really make a mistake, no one will explain to you that you're just a kid.

  That night, Li Zhi's phone call made her have many nightmares. These days, Yan has not gone out, and her plain face makes her feel terrible. It's not that she's ugly, but rather that she still looks as beautiful as two years ago, only now she hates her innocent and simple appearance.

  "That Yan, don't think that just because you've shaken me off, everything will be fine. I'm still convinced that you're the best for me now. I know that silly kid is always bothering you, but don't worry, I can make him disappear quickly. You don't have to worry." Li Zhi's voice came through the phone line, and no matter how far it traveled, it couldn't filter out the nauseating tone.

  "Bastard, what do you want? You told me to get lost and not ruin your perfect life. Now I'm gone, why won't you let me go?"

  "Haha, you're alone, I can let you off, but two people wanting to stay together overnight? That's something my sharp eyes won't tolerate."

  "What do you mean?" Yan didn't bother listening to Li Zhi's nonsense.

  "What's the point if you leave me and live a better life, even showing off with someone else? How can I bear it?" Yan couldn't see Li Zhi's expression over the phone, but she knew he must be extremely embarrassed.

  "You, a rascal is always a rascal, and will never change your domineering ways for the rest of your life. You won't escape heavenly punishment."

  "Na Yan, you're not a three-year-old kid anymore. If there's really such thing as heavenly punishment, you should have gone to prison to atone for your sins long ago! If Xi Ze knew that you had the heart of a snake and killed someone to silence them, would he still like you? Haha, I'm waiting with bated breath, but I don't know if you have the guts. Are you thinking of leaving him now and staying by my side? Or do you want him to give up on you before you come back and beg me to take you in?"

  Anyone who sees Li Zhi would think that the four words "small person gets lucky" were designed for him. Yan's greatest misfortune in this life is probably because she knew Li Zhi, otherwise she was already very close to happiness. However, if there was no Li Zhi two years ago, she might have really spent her youth in prison and lost her beauty.

  Everyone can't choose their own life, the big environment changes people and forces them. Two years ago, thinking about it now, still feels like a black storm, only to blame myself for being too young at that time.

  Memories are like sheets of carbon paper, time goes by and never comes back, but each sheet of carbon paper records all the past. Those sharp notes are like knife scars, grinding away at the face of youth until it's bruised and battered.

  Fang and they are happy, they have not experienced a crime yet. Every day of theirs can have new expectations, everything is unknown, about friendship, love, dreams.

  This morning, everyone in the dormitory got up early to go to school. Su Xia and Fang Li pulled Meng Xi out of her quilt. Because they had just passed the weekend, Meng Xi and Fang Li slept until the sun was high every day at home. Now getting up early for class is like being thrown from heaven to hell.

  Su Xia said, "I woke you two up from your quilts today, it's more tiring than giving birth to a child, I'd better go take a look if I've aged prematurely."

  Su Xia put away the books she needed and found that Meng Xi and Fang Li were still in a state of "a dead pig not afraid of boiling water", so she immediately got up and left.

  "Finally... arrived... lah..." Su Xia rolled up the book into a megaphone and shouted at Fang Li and Meng Xi, this time Meng Xi finally opened her eyes thoroughly.

  "How can you guys be so lazy, putting on clothes as slow as a snail? I'm giving you one last minute. If you're not done dressing, I'll make you wear the snail's colorful shell and... parade around with it." Su Xia looked at Meng Xi and Fang Li with an expectant expression until she actually picked up her watch, then Meng Xi and Fang Li scrambled to put on their clothes.

  They arrived at school, the second bell had already rung, Su Xia was still standing in the classroom, Fang Li barely counted as standing, and Meng Xi looked like she was lying down.

  Their table was filled with steaming hot breakfast, one dish, two dishes, three dishes, each different and their favorite food. Especially Su Xia's dish, it was the bamboo garden breakfast she had been dreaming of since her vacation. (Download this book by entering or searching "book name + Ha Shi Ba") You can search for "Youthful Song Ha Shi Ba" on Baidu to find the latest updates!