I love you (one more time)

  "Yan Yan, you're a bit too late to realize that! But... so cute, so adorable!" Jiang Feng said, lightly tapping Yan's head.

  Xu Yan lowered her head and smiled foolishly. Wait! What's wrong with me?! It was clearly her who went to settle the score with Jiang Feng, okay?!

  "Damn it, Jiang Feng, you're talking nonsense!"

  "I'm learning from you! And... Yan, I've found that your skills have been declining recently, what's going on?" Jiang Feng, are you really blinded by your own biases?

  "Recently..." Xu Yan secretly took a glance at Jiang Feng, seeing that he was serious and solemn, not joking around... "Not in the mood."

  Is it possible that she has feelings for him? Even if she is a tomboy, she can't say it out loud, and now she's still struggling with whether or not she really likes him. She doesn't want to admit that she likes him, but her own feelings are telling her so truthfully that this is the fact!

  "What's wrong? Didn't you just find out today that your mom won't be home on National Day? Is it for something else?"

  "Something else. Lately, my mind has been a mess, sometimes I don't even know what I'm thinking about, and my brain is completely blank. Maybe it's because of some things I've seen recently, I always feel like the characters in them. Sometimes I wonder, what's the difference between so-called history and reality? I don't dare to say this to others, they'll just say I have extreme thoughts, but I really think that history is only true when it comes to people's names; everything else is fake.

  With Jiang Feng, Xu Yan can always easily say out loud the words hidden in her heart. Just like last time, she felt the sorrow of being ignored, and she also asked Jiang Feng if she was wrong."

  Jiang Feng knew that Xu Yan might have thought of something sad again, and he didn't know how to comfort her either. So he walked over, gently embracing Xu Yan in his arms, "Xu Yan..." After a long time, Jiang Feng said: "Sometimes no matter how well we do things, there will still be people who are not satisfied. But even if you have a bad temper, there will still be people willing to tolerate it. So we need to remember one thing, when we are being unreasonable and causing trouble, the people who accompany us and treat us well, we must cherish their unwavering dedication. At the same time, when we do something wrong, we indeed need others' guidance to improve, but we don't need their criticism. People live for themselves."

  "I still remember the other day, I heard a lot of unfavorable rumors about you. At that time, I was really angry, but your magnanimity made me admire you very much. Indeed, our lives don't have to be affected by so many people's gossip and criticism. Because... those who understand you will understand even if you don't say anything, but those who don't understand you won't understand no matter how hard you try to explain. Isn't this what you taught me?"

  Xu Yan looked up at Jiang Feng, "Ah, yes, she had said that before, didn't expect Jiang Feng to still remember."

  "Maybe I've been watching too many idealized things lately? So it's affecting my mood a bit. Hmm, looks like I still have to believe in the truth of 'if heaven has feelings then heaven will grow old, if people have feelings they'll die young'! Xun Yan laughed carelessly, but only she knew that she actually hoped the man in front of her would realize... that she liked him."

  Xu Yan was startled by her own thoughts, did she like him? Her rationality kept telling herself that she shouldn't fall in love with someone else, but in fact, she knew clearly in her heart that she had already fallen for the person in front of her, she just didn't want to admit it.

  "Why? What idealized things have you been looking at recently?"

  "It's just some... trivial romance. But it's not that kind of... uh, how to put it, it's a bit S&M type of romance."

  "My god, Xuyan, can't you watch something normal for once?"

  "Dare!" Xu Yan was very serious and solemnly guaranteed: "Then next time I watch it, I'll see how S and M's base friends are romantic."

  Jiang Feng rubbed his forehead, "Heavens, how can there really be such a sharp-tongued Xu Yu?" "Xu Yu, what are we to each other?"

  "Huh?" Xuyan asked stupidly, what were they supposed to be? Xuyan had never thought about it before.

  Before, Jiang Feng always said that he treated Xu Yan as a buddy, and Xu Yan had never had any feelings for Jiang Feng. But now it's different, Xu Yan's feelings for Jiang Feng have clearly changed, although Jiang Feng hasn't noticed yet, maybe he really thinks Xu Yan is emotionally numb.

  But even if she was emotionally numb, that was in the past. After falling for Dong Jie, she finally understood what it meant to like someone. Maybe she didn't understand physical intimacy, but she knew her own heart's changes. Perhaps Jiang Feng's judgment was influenced by his first impression!

  "Jiang Feng, what did you say we are?" Xu Yan threw the question back at him without changing a word.

  Jiang Feng thought for a moment and looked at the little loli still nestled in his arms: "Yanyan, don't you think it's just like we're a couple?"

  Xu Yan's body stiffened, she didn't understand what Jiang Feng meant by saying that. Jiang Feng, can you be more straightforward? Xu Yan tried her best to suppress the threads of expectation in her heart.

  Jiang Feng felt Xi Yan's stiffness and saw her pretending to be calm, and said awkwardly: "Uh, Yan Yan, actually I didn't mean anything else. I know you still have Dong Jie in your heart right now. I was just joking around. I've always treated you... Jiang Feng paused for a moment: "as a buddy, although you're a girl, but I can be your green tea, and you are my red tea."

  Xu Yan listened and hung her head low, her face filled with disappointment...

  Jiang Feng, do you know? I like you. Although I don't dare to say that I've completely forgotten about A Jie, but... I'm willing to be with you and walk out of the emotions with A Jie. I also believe that one day my heart will only have you. But... are you really just treating me as a buddy? If so, why didn't you keep some distance from me? Don't you know that I can also fall in love with someone else?

  "What's wrong?" Is Xu Yan unhappy? She doesn't want me to treat her as a buddy, a confidant, or a friend?

  "Jiang Feng, I'll head back myself! I think I'll go to the supermarket to buy some personal stuff later! You don't have to follow me." Xu Yan raised his head again, still with that usual carefree smile on his face and a mischievous tone.

  "Shall I go with you?"

  "Oh, are you going to accompany Lun Jia to buy underwear? Or accompany Lun Jia to buy a bra? But Lun Jia is still a young lady, if you go with her, what about her chastity? Moreover, Lun Jia's three sizes don't want you to know!" Xu Yan pretended to be shy.

  Jiang Feng was amused by Xu Yan's smile, and Xu Yan is: sometimes she sells cute, sometimes silly, but sometimes she transforms into a sharp female Han paper. But such her, very happy, and also brings the same, no, more happiness to the people around her.

  Xu Yan, you're truly a treasure.

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