A woman with a watery willow flower

  Finally finished a day's lesson, Xu Yan stood up and prepared to leave, Jiang Feng walked over, "Yan Yan, eat first before going back!"

  Xu Yan shook his head: "I'm not eating anymore." Just as Jiang Feng was puzzled, Xu Yan said in a low voice: "Some habits need to be changed. I'm afraid that if I keep eating like this, one day I won't be able to eat and will starve to death! I don't want to die for the sake of food!" After finishing speaking, Xu Yan chuckled.

  In other people's eyes, that was a joke, and they might even think that Xu Yan was fantasizing again. In fact, it wasn't like that. She just made an analogy. What she meant by "can't eat" referred to Jiang Feng... Her habit was having Jiang Feng accompany her.

  "It can't be said!"

  But Jiang Feng also knew that whatever he said now would seem very powerless, and Xu Yan wouldn't believe him anyway. Yet it was something that had to be said. Whether she believed it or not was her own will, but whether to say it or not was Jiang Feng's right.

  "Jiang Feng, I'm so tired!"

  Jiang Feng was stunned...

  Are you feeling tired from talking? Sorry...

  "Jiang Feng, Xu Yan is tired, why don't you carry her on your back?" their classmates joked.

  Jiang Feng bitterly smiled, what she said was tiring, but this wasn't that kind of tired! "Her face is small and she's relatively shy!" Jiang Feng casually found an excuse to brush it off, but Jiang Feng, who would believe you when you say Xu Yan has a small face and is shy?

  Xu Yan stood up and left, Jiang Feng immediately followed him. Zhang Yan was behind them, feeling like a small follower, but also felt that he seemed to be redundant... no, not seemed, just redundant! So Zhang Yan made a decisive decision: "Jiang Feng, I have something to do, I'll leave first!"

  After finishing speaking, he bypassed Jiang Feng and Xu Yan, hastily leaving. Jiang Feng's mouth corners rose, Zhang Yan really has self-awareness.

  "He didn't have to leave. There's nothing more for us to say to each other. We're just friends, aren't we? No need to talk behind others' backs."

  "Wait! Zhang Yan didn't mean it that way, and I'm not saying anything behind anyone's back. Everything I've said to you is true, every single word comes from my heart, it's just not the right time yet."

  "I used to worry about not being able to find an excuse, but now I realize that excuses are everywhere and can be easily made up. For example, if I say I'm tired, I can go back to sleep. But am I really tired? If I say I'm not hungry, I don't have to eat. But am I really not hungry? Others may not know, but only I know that sometimes excuses are just self-deception."

  "Every word, I'm not making excuses!" Jiang Feng was frustrated that he couldn't explain, Xu Yan's life scope was too clean, she couldn't think of the darkness in the business world and society, she was too simple, simply thinking that as long as they liked each other, they could be together, no matter what they should face it together. But if it were her, would she bear to see the person she loved struggling?

  Jiang Feng couldn't bear the thought, and although their current situation would also make Xu Yan sad, it was better than being recognized by both families as the reason for the mistake in their engagement. If they were recognized that way, Xu Yan's future life would likely be suppressed everywhere, what could she do? What if she got hurt when he wasn't paying attention, how would he handle it then?

  "Jiang Feng, I don't know why you're treating me like this, but I really want to know the answer. Is there, in a corner of your heart, someone who is ten times, a hundred times more important than me?"

  "No!" Jiang Feng quickly denied, in his heart, there was only Xu Yan now.

  "Should I believe it and continue waiting foolishly or shouldn't I? Jiang Feng, what do you think?"

  Xu Yan's words left Jiang Feng speechless. If he were Xu Yan, he wouldn't know if he could still trust himself either. "Sorry."

  "No need, you didn't do anything wrong, and you didn't owe me anything. It's all my own fault." Xuyan turned around and walked towards the train station direction. "If I... maybe this is the punishment for my unfaithfulness! In the past, I liked A'Die so much, and I swore that I wouldn't change my heart, but just a few days after we broke up, I changed my mind. Am I really a woman with a fickle heart?"

  "No! Who dares to say that? I'll kill him!" Jiang Feng angrily shouted.

  "It was me who said it."

  Jiang Feng immediately lost his temper, but Xi Yan, can you not say that about yourself? "It's not your fault! It's my own reason, I... still have some things to deal with, I'm afraid it will drag you down."

  Jiang Feng can only say so much. He cannot reveal specific details.

  "I was never afraid of being implicated by you, but if you want it that way, I'll control my emotions. I can do it, just treat you as a friend and only be friends with you!" Xu Yan lowered her head, tears swirling in her eyes. Even when she broke up with Dong Jie, she hadn't been like this before. Xu Yan scolded herself for being so incompetent.

  She raised her head to gaze at the azure sky, having heard that when people want to cry, they just need to look up at the sky and their tears will flow back in! But Xu Yan's tears wouldn't stop, streaming down from the corners of her eyes. She bit her lower lip tightly, cursing the person who said this, a liar, a cheat!

  Jiang Feng stood behind her, feeling heartache for her, wanting to walk over and comfort her, but what should he say?

  From now on, don't say anything bad about yourself. You were never a flirtatious woman, you are the best. Sometimes I even feel that I'm not good enough for you. It's my fault for not being good enough, which is why I ended up hurting someone as great as you.

  Jiang Feng remembered someone saying: You're so good, why did you meet such a bad person like me.

  The two of them stood there, one in front of the other, for who knows how long. Xu Yan lowered her head and wiped away the tears from the corner of her eyes, revealing a peaceful smile like usual. She turned around to look at Jiang Feng, "Jiang Feng, let's go, it's getting late and we might get lost!"

  Jiang Feng's eyes were dim and grey, how many things had been suppressed in Xu Yan's heart?

  Jiang Feng looked at Xu Yan's smiling face and suddenly had an impulse to hug her into his arms, confessing everything to her, regardless of the consequences...

  Suddenly Jiang Feng's phone rang, and after seeing the number, he glanced at Xu Yan, who smiled lightly and turned to leave first. "Hello, Mom, what's up?"

  "What time are you coming back tomorrow?" The woman on the phone spoke without a hint of warmth, as cold as ice. But if you saw her attitude at this moment, you wouldn't think so. Jiang Feng's mother was a person who spoke in a cold and hard tone, but actually she was a very gentle person, it's just that no matter what time, her words always gave people a chilly feeling.

  "Mom, I'll be back tomorrow afternoon, and I'll arrive at the latest." Jiang Feng intentionally raised his voice a bit, hoping that Xu Yan would hear this sentence, so she would know he wasn't going to see another woman, but rather his mom. Unfortunately, Xu Yan had already walked to the bus stop by then and didn't hear the sentence.

  "How dare you speak so loudly! Your mother is not deaf yet!" Jiang's mom scolded with a smile, but it sounded like she was furious over the phone...

  Jiang Feng couldn't help but think of his mother's expression and smiled unconsciously. This feeling is so delightful!

  "Mom, I'm coming back not just to celebrate your birthday, but also because there's something I want to discuss with you."

  "Let's talk about it when I get back!" After finishing speaking, Jiang's mother didn't wait for Jiang Feng to respond and hung up the phone. Jiang Feng was speechless, did she have to hang up so hastily? Saying a few more words wouldn't make a difference, although he too was eager to hang up.

  What is Xuyan's disaster? Can Jiang Feng stop it again? I also want to know...