18. What kind of person is she, after all? (1)

  For several days after parting with Ouyang Xiaoxiao, I would often think of her.

  I wonder what kind of girl she is, I wonder what kind of twisted and strange story is behind her back.

  Sometimes, I also have a little fantasy about her, fantasizing that she and I are lying naked in bed together, embracing each other, and we're thoroughly enjoying the pleasure of being together as a man and woman, with the bed creaking loudly.

  Sometimes, when I'm in bed with Gu Xue Lin, I imagine her as Ouyang Xiao Xiao. With my eyes closed, my hands slide over every inch of her skin, teasing out her desires before suddenly flipping over and pressing down on top of her. Then, I hear her giggling and slapping my back, playfully scolding me for being naughty.

  Gu Xue Lin didn't know, but when I was with her in bed, I exerted myself so much because I imagined her as Ouyang Xiao Xiao. Imagining her chest as white and clean as fallen snow, imagining her legs as slender as pine needles, yet warm and smooth like jade, and also her ten fingers as thin as scallions.

  During the day, I play games and often get distracted, thinking of Ouyang Xiaoxiao, remembering when I saw her at Nanmenkou holding a light pink umbrella, smiling and greeting me.

  At night, I often lie awake, tossing and turning, thinking of Ouyang Xiaoxiao, remembering the captivating smile she gave when she left, and those flirtatious words "I hope next time we meet, it's in bed".

  Sometimes, her crying face with tears like pear blossoms also flashes in my mind.

  Perhaps there is a sentence that is very correct: men towards women are always first lust and then love.

  This makes me wonder whether I'm infatuated with Ouyang Xiaoxiao's body or if I truly care about her and want to know the story behind her.

  In his heart, waves were surging, but life went on as usual.

  I think maybe I'm waiting for an opportunity myself.

  Waiting for a chance to make a phone call and meet with Ouyang Xiaoxiao.

  The right to decide on opportunities is not with me, but with Gu Xue Lin. As long as she's not by my side, I can meet with Ouyang Xiao Xiao.

  And if it's September, I can take advantage of Gu Xue Lin's class time to go find Ouyang Xiao Xiao.

  However, unfortunately, it is during summer vacation.

  Fortunately, there is still half a month left before summer vacation ends, rather than it having just started for half a month.

  There are about ten days left before leaving school now.

  I start every day counting down on my fingers, waiting for the time when I can find a chance to look for Ouyang Xiaoxiao.

  Sometimes I suddenly feel a wave of panic and think, what if Ouyang Xiaoxiao forgets about me.

  So I thought of sending her a text message.

  However, several times, after I had drafted the message, I didn't send it out.

  This is very disappointing.

  In order not to let Gu Xue Lin see through the crack, I still follow the previous living rules.

  Get up after 10 am every day, then eat a few mouthfuls of food hastily, and sit in front of the computer to play private server games.

  When I'm online, Má Dài is always there.

  Lan Qie finished leading that tour group going to Macau. She rested for two days, then led another tour group traveling to Malaysia.

  In the afternoon, I and Gǔ Xuě Lín will go to "Jídì Wǎngbā" (Polar Internet Cafe), one person per computer, then play games.

  I don't want to go to the internet cafe's toilet anymore, I'd rather hold it in and deal with it when I get home. I also don't want to push open the door of the internet cafe's toilet. Can't explain why, just want to avoid it.