Chapter 27: Indulge Me Without Restraint This Once

  Xia Xian listened quietly to Mo Xiao's words, her expression subtly changing.

  "Is all this what you think is right? You thought he loved you, and even now you still think he loves you, right?" Xia Xuan listened quietly to Mo Xiao's words, only smiling faintly.

  Mo Xiao Xiao also bitterly smiled and nodded her head. She had never seen anything before, everything was just speculation, and it had been like that for five years.

  The most beautiful time for a girl is quietly slipping away in her "youth".

  "You also think I'm ridiculous, don't you?" Mo Xiao looked at Xia Xuan, as if self-mocking.

  "No, it's not laughable or pitiful, Xiaoxiao. All these years, you've never tried to investigate the truth, but in fact, you already knew deep down that this person might not exist at all. You're just afraid, afraid of being unable to bear the consequences. But it's good that way, there are still two years left, or maybe less than two years now, after fulfilling your promise, you'll be free!" Xiaoxiao was indeed Xiaoxiao, her thinking was different from ordinary people on earth, but what she said wasn't wrong at all.

  At first, Zhu Xiangmeng stood on the territory of Beijing City and called Mo Xiao to ask for Yang Yanjie's address. Mo Xiao refused to give it to her no matter what, because she was afraid that the result would be unbearable for her.

  She loves him, no regrets; she waits for him, also no regrets!

  "Perhaps one day, you'll look back on this and laugh at your own foolishness, but that's only after you've grown up. Right now, you're still far from it! Sorry about hitting you earlier, does it still hurt?" Xia Xuan stroked Mo Xiao Xiao's face, apologizing.

  "You are the second person to hit me in my life, but it's for the same person that you're hitting me. It doesn't hurt anymore, I know you care about me!" Mo Xuanxuan grasped Xia Xian's hand, revealing a calm smile.

  "Was it today many years ago that you two met?" Xia Xuan smiled calmly, how could such a clever person not think of the reason why Mo Xiao Xiao got drunk today?

  "Xuan Xuan, can't you just give me a little *ahem*!" Mo Xiao Xiao was really at a loss with this sister, Xia Xuan was like that, hitting the nail on the head.

  "If you have it, you won't call me anymore!" Xia Xuan patted Mo Xiao's shoulder and sat down beside him, smiling calmly.

  "Wang Yu got married today, and as early as when Yang Yanjie and I just broke up, Wang Yu asked me if I would go back to him, he wouldn't mind. But I always believed that a good horse doesn't eat the grass it has already passed by, so...". Mo Xiao Xiao rubbed her hair, feeling like she wanted to cry but had no tears.

  "You and Wang Yu are really not suitable, just looking at your current education level, you know that your educational background is different, your living environment is different, and it's unlikely that you'll be together for long. So, he got married, which is also a good thing for you." Xia Xian didn't think so, she never believed in love at first sight.

  "Xuanxuan, thank you." Mo Xuanxuan finally revealed the smile she should have had, looking at Xia Xuan with a face full of gratitude.

  "What I don't quite understand is why you didn't choose to make your relationship public in the group from the beginning?" Xia Xuan still had some confusion about this tangled knot.

  "We had a breakup before, and I cried so hard that my dormitory sisters didn't agree with us getting back together. Later, he came back on his own initiative, and I didn't think too much about it, but I didn't want to have any disagreements with the sisters, so I chose to keep it a secret." Mo Xiao sighed.

  Maybe she was too timid at first! If she wasn't so weak-willed, maybe they wouldn't have missed their chance.

  "I think that now you, if he turns back, you will choose to be with him, and without any hesitation." Xia Xuan said with a sigh.

  "How can you be so sure?" Mo Xiao raised an eyebrow, she had never thought about this question before, perhaps she had never thought that Yang Yanjie would turn back.

  "First, you can love a non-existent person for five years, what else are you afraid to do? Second, a dead person can go five years without stopping or changing numbers, that's already a miracle!" Xia Xian said with a smile.

  "What logic is that!" Mo Xiao Xiao said with a disbelieving smile.

  "Some people say that there are things we know are wrong, but we still insist on doing them because we can't accept it; some people, we clearly know we love, but we have to give up because there's no future; sometimes, we clearly know there's no way out, but we're still moving forward because we're used to it. Habit is a terrible thing, you get used to it for five years, and then it becomes seven years. I hope that after seven years, the habit will disappear like smoke in the wind!" Xia Xuan's face gradually darkened, and he picked up a bottle of beer with one hand, not even blinking, and drank half the bottle in one gulp.

  "Xianxian, aren't you someone who can't drink?" Mo Xiao looked at Xia Xian's drinking method and felt a bit worried in her heart. Is Xia Xian trying to get himself killed?!

  "Xiao, I'm telling you, the greatest difficulty for people is to know themselves, and it's also the easiest thing. Sometimes, we can't see ourselves clearly because we put ourselves in the wrong position and gave ourselves a false impression. So, it's not about being afraid of hardships, but rather being afraid of walking in the wrong direction from the very beginning. I don't dare say whether you've been wrong from the start or not, but after seven years, everything is starting anew." Xia Xian finished drinking the remaining half bottle.

  Mo Xiao was very surprised at Xia Xuan's drinking capacity, Mo Xiao could drink a lot even if she tried her best, but it wouldn't be to this extent. In her memory, Xia Xuan never drank alcohol.

  "I dare not think what I will be like two years later, just some scars, no matter how many years, it still hurts when touched." Mo Xiao Xiao smiled bitterly and drank wine, alcohol can numb the nerves for a while, but wanting to forget forever is so hard!

  "Have you ever thought that maybe, you've already settled for this, he has a girlfriend, and what you're waiting for is just an agreement." Xia Xian said with a faint smile.

  "What's the use, anyway? I've only ever loved one person. I've already fallen in love, what can be done about it?" Mo Xuanxuan smiled bitterly, how could she not know? Every time she thought of this, tears would drown her once again.

  "What are you planning to do next?" Xia Xuan raised an eyebrow and asked.

  "I've written in my diary before, he's the only person I'll love in this lifetime. So even if we get married in the future, it will be a suitable match rather than a loving one." Mo Xiao Xiao finished the beer in the bottle and smiled calmly.

  "Ai Ling said, life is so thin. A thin life doesn't need to be imagined, take one step at a time, when there's no way out, think of another solution!" Xia Xuan took another bottle with her hands, she was also letting go tonight.

  "Ai Ling said, wine in the belly, things in the heart, it seems like there's a layer of separation in between. No matter how much you drink, it can't drown your sorrows." Mo Xiao Xiao clinked her wine jug against Xia Xian's and motioned for him to cheers, then silently finished an entire jar.

  "It's late, I'll send you back." Xia Xuan also drank the rest in one breath, looked at his watch, stood up and smiled slightly.

  "No need, I'm not drunk yet, I can get back myself, you be careful." Mo Xiao had almost sobered up from the wine now, and with the cold wind blowing, he should have been awake.

  "That's good, just give me a call if you need anything, but don't get drunk again, or I won't be polite!" Xia Xuan said with a smile.

  "Take good care of yourself!" Mo Xiao hugged Xia Xuan, turned around and hailed a taxi, took the car back to school, Xia Xuan saw Mo Xiao get on the car.

  Xiao Xiao, you should know that Ai Ling grandma also said that in this world, there is no emotion that isn't full of flaws.

  Looking back at the plastic bag, Mo Xiao bought a lot of wine, almost ten or so bottles! Xia Xian sat down and drank one can after another, just like drinking mineral water.

  How many times, and how many more times, memories have drawn life into a circle, while we've been spinning in place countless times, unable to break free. Always hoping to return to the starting point of our acquaintance, if only I could choose once again, thinking that I could love even more purely.

  But in this world, there are so many assumptions that seem plausible, yet the chances of them actually happening are infinitesimally small.

  The cool wind blew, messing up Xia Xian's bangs. Looking at the stars in the sky, Xia Xian's mouth curved into a very beautiful arc, it was unclear whether it was a smile or a bitter smile.

  The sky is so big that it can hold all the grievances and unhappiness, but what about heartaches?

  More than ten cans of beer were drunk by Xia Xuan without any restraint, and judging from her appearance, except for a slightly red face, there was nothing unusual about her.