Chapter 48: A Heartbreaking Past

  "Xuan Xuan, have some honey water!" Jiang Jie Zhe handed Xia Xuan a cup of hot honey water.

  "Don't worry, I absolutely won't embarrass you tonight!" Xia Xuan took the water with a flourish and drank a small mouthful with relish.

  "My wife has never lost me, okay?! I'm just worried about your vocal cords, although this song isn't too high-pitched either. But don't forget, you've just recovered from a cold and your throat is still inflamed!" Jiang Jie Zhe held Xia Xuan's icy hand to warm it up.

  "Don't worry about it, none of this is a big deal! At worst, I'll just let you handle the chorus parts!" Xia Xian said with a smile, thoroughly enjoying the empress-level treatment.

  "I want to set your voice as my ringtone, so I can listen to it for the rest of my life! If one day you become mute, I'll still be able to reminisce about it." Jiang Jie Zhe was indeed unable to utter a single word, and Xia Xuan lowered his head and bit his hand fiercely.

  What's the point of keeping the voice? Our lives have gone left and right, without intersection, so let's not continue to entangle each other.

  The phone rang, Jiang Tiexin looked at Xia Xian with a drunken gaze, Xia Xian looked at Jiang Tiexin with tears in her eyes, as if this call brought them back to reality.

  Wu Jiajia called.

  Perhaps when everything can no longer be explained, it can only be explained by fate.

  "Xia Xian, do you think Xiao Zhe really likes you? Don't be ridiculous! He's just young and playing around. Otherwise, why would he spend your birthday with me?! We grew up together since childhood, his mother has always treated me like a daughter-in-law!" Wu Jiajia said to Xia Xian with an air of superiority back then.

  "What you said about fair competition, if that's how you're going to stir up trouble between us two, then all I can say is that you don't understand Jiang at all." Xia Xuan still had a faint smile on his face.

  Just laughed like that, on Xia Xian's birthday, because of stomach disease in the hospital for intravenous drip, at night Xia Xian secretly pulled out the needle, originally wanted to go happy with Jiang Jie Zhe together, but after Xia Xian waited bitterly for two hours, Jiang Jie Zhe called her and said that the student union had something and couldn't get away, but actually went to see Wu Jiajia.

  Xia Xian didn't cry or make a fuss after finding out, and Jiang Jie didn't even give an explanation. Even his roommates thought it was unbelievable how broad-minded Xia Xian was!

  It's not that Xia Xian has a broad mind, she really doesn't want to question Jiang Jue's heart because of these insignificant small things, but who knows...

  "You're really one who doesn't shed tears until you see the coffin! We've known each other for a time that's countless times longer than yours, and I don't understand him? Then no one will understand him! Xia Xian, think about it yourself, you two have been together for four years, how many birthdays has he spent with you? Not even once, right? You also don't think about why this is the case! It's because of me! The day we met was your birthday!" Wu Jiajia said triumphantly.

  Xia Xian's sharp tongue and quick wit were gone now, she was right, for four years, Jiang Jie had never accompanied her on a birthday, always leaving with an excuse, every time making it up afterwards.

  "How many of your couple things have lasted more than two months? Look at this USB drive, it's been five years. Between the two of us, who do you think is more important to him? You should know! If you think about it for a moment, you'll realize that four-digit couple rings can be lost, but a two-digit USB drive has been kept until now. Xia Xian, in his heart, you are so worthless..." Wu Jiajia saw Xia Xian speechless and the smugness in her heart rose to another level!

  Xia Xian slapped Wu Jiajia's face without saying a word.

  "Xia Xuan! What do you want to do!" Jiang Jie Zhe pushed Xia Xuan away fiercely, gently stroking Wu Jiajia's cheek, his eyes full of heartache.

  "If I say you're misunderstanding everything, will you believe me or her?" Xia Xian held back tears and asked coldly, staring at Jiang Zhe.

  "Jiajia has always been easy-going and never quarreled with anyone, Xia Xian, you've repeatedly caused trouble for Jiajia, that's too much! Get out!" Jiang Tuoze was furious, wishing Xia Xian would disappear before their eyes.

  Xia Xian smiled, a heart-wrenching smile, a sorrowful smile, a helpless smile, accompanied by the pouring rain, looked even more desolate and mournful.

  Now, their encounter still has this indelible misunderstanding that can never be erased.

  Xia Xian slowly backed out, backing out of Jiang Ti's eyes, and backing out of his world.

  Her world, she is no longer suitable for existence!

  Xia Xian turned around with a flourish and ran away crying.

  Jiang Jie, I gave my all to you, but in your eyes it became a carefully designed scam. Your single word "滚" (get out) has turned our once beautiful love into a hopeless farewell. Your sentence "I like Jiajia" has pushed me into an abyss of despair. What reason do I have left to convince myself to let go of the past?

  You don't know how desperate I am, you don't know how pathetic I am, you don't know how tormented I am! You don't know anything, yet you let me bear everything! How cruel of you!

  That summer, Xia Xian was drenched in the rain for several hours, even she herself didn't know how long. That night, her phone was ruined, and so was her body, which was also on the verge of collapse. She lay in the hospital, unconscious for two days and two nights.

  Stomach disease, high fever that wouldn't subside, vocal cord rupture, came flooding in, tormenting her to the point of losing half her life.

  After staying in the hospital for a week, Jiang Jie didn't even show up, Xia Xian disregarded the doctor's obstruction and secretly ran out of the hospital, nominally discharged.

  Because the joint party of the History Department and the Medical School is about to kick off, Jiang Jie was the predetermined candidate for the next president of the Student Union of the Medical School, while Xia Xian was the predetermined candidate for the president of the Student Union of the History Department. At that time, the two colleges decided to have a joint party because of the boyfriend-girlfriend relationship between the two would-be presidents, but now things have changed.

  Originally, Jiang Yichen and Xia Xian's program was a duet of "The Whole World Declares I Love You", but later it was changed to Xia Xian's solo "Breakup Needs Practice" and Jiang Yichen's "Hands Let Go".

  "It seems that breaking up is something that needs practice, and with time, we'll become braver. You slowly move on, I gradually let go, isn't this the freedom we wanted?"

  ……

  Xia Xian sang that painful and unbearable, now the time is long enough, five years have passed, how much longer do you need to become brave? How much longer will it take for your wounds to heal? How much longer will it take for you to win?

  Perhaps it still needs time...

  Nowadays Xia Xuan is exhausted from running, kneeling on the ground, tears are the most useless thing at this time, but they still flow out uncontrollably.

  Jiang Jie Zhe, I don't want to remember you anymore. I don't want to have anything to do with you again. Wasn't hurting me once enough? How much longer do you want to hurt me?

  You said you didn't want me to hurt Wu Jiajia, you said you liked her all along, you said I'm not worthy of being with you, you said...

  Do you want me to recall all these again? Don't you know how deeply it hurts me? Don't you know that I have been waking up from nightmares for years? Yes, you don't know.

  Jiang Jie stood there in a daze, watching Xia Xian's figure become increasingly blurry. He suddenly felt dizzy and fell to the ground, his phone still ringing loudly, but he was already unconscious.