Chapter 6: The Painful Past

  "I was born with a congenital disease, an arterial brain aneurysm. Since birth, the tumor has been growing on my main artery, so it can't be treated or operated on because of its high risk. So I can only seek good fortune for myself, as long as the tumor doesn't worsen and remains benign, then I can live like a normal person. But if one day it becomes malignant... that's it for me..."

  Mo Xiao's eyes widened as she stared at the unfamiliar medical term, even though she wasn't familiar with it, aneurysm, she wasn't illiterate, so she naturally knew what it meant.

  "But what's even more frightening is that my parents abandoned me from the moment I was born. I grew up with my grandparents and didn't know what my parents looked like. So, betrayal and abandonment are things I've understood since childhood."

  Mo Xiao had always thought that such things only happened in cheesy TV dramas, or in novels that were overly dramatic. She never thought it would happen in real life, and certainly not to her own boyfriend.

  For a few seconds, Mo Xiao really had a mysterious and fantastical feeling.

  It's impossible, absolutely impossible! Mo Xiao could only tell herself in her heart, but... the man on the other side of the computer...

  "I feel like I'm living a meaningless life because no one needs me, I'm just a burden."

  Mo Xiao's hands began to tremble non-stop, reality... was reality really so cruel? Thinking back to when Mo Xiao had told Yang Yanjie that the man she loved most had married her own mother, so all the men left in this world were unreliable.

  She also thought that Yang Yanjie would say that the woman who loved him the most had married her own father, so the women left in this world were not so selfless.

  But in fact, Yang Yanjie simply said: "You are very happy."

  There are really such heartless parents in this world. Brother, I'm sorry, please don't say it anymore, okay? I don't want you to hurt so much!

  "But as for financially, they were very indulgent towards me. At most, I spent 20,000 yuan a month and they still satisfied me."

  Later, I asked my grandfather why they didn't even come to see me. My grandfather said they weren't in the country at all. When I heard this, I laughed - they hated me so much that they ran abroad. I asked my grandfather if they wouldn't be afraid of no one sending them off when they died? As a result, my grandfather said that later on, they had another child abroad, also a boy. At that moment, I knew I was completely abandoned.

  Mo Xiao can feel how much pain Yang Yanjie's heart had when editing these words, perhaps even more painful.

  She hasn't experienced it, perhaps she wouldn't know what kind of inner struggle it is.

  "But I'm not too miserable, because my older cousin is very fond of me. She's ten years older than me and came to work here after graduating from university. After my grandfather passed away, I decided to come here for university because of her. So now I live with my cousin. My views on love are also influenced by her. She taught me many things, including that besides parents, there will be someone who loves me very much and accompanies me throughout my life. Therefore, because of what she said, I think it's still meaningful to be alive. That's why love is both the thing I care about most and the thing I fear most."

  The mist had cleared, and she finally understood why he was so anxious when he couldn't contact her that night because her phone was out of battery. She had always thought he was being childish, but in fact, it was because he cared, because he was concerned.

  "I have a headache condition and sometimes it gets very severe, so in order to find the one that belongs to me, I make myself do everything to the best of my ability, because I don't want to miss her. It's said a bit messy, but roughly like this, my 21 years are almost like this."

  Mo Xiao was silent all along, her heart tangled as she waited for Yang Yanjie to finish editing the story. Her tears had already blurred her vision, and she didn't know what to say.

  It's always said that such a plot is the most rotten TV drama, and I thought I was already quite immune to it, but when it really happened in reality, she still couldn't help but shed tears.

  She quietly wiped away her tears with a few tissues, fortunately the lights were off and no one saw her crying.

  Mo Xiao has always been a girl who doesn't shed tears easily. When she first entered university, she suddenly fell ill and was in so much pain that she bumped her head against the wall, yet not a single tear fell from her eyes. From then on, people's views of this only daughter underwent a huge change. In everyone's eyes, an only child, especially an only daughter, should be more spoiled than an empress.

  However, the great Mo Xiao Xiao broke this traditional concept.

  After calming down her emotions, Mo Xiao Xiao began to type rapidly, with a speed comparable to that of an aerospace plane. Her urgent mood was evident:

  "I don't know if I'm the one you think of as 'her' in your heart, but I'll try my best to be that 'her'. Maybe right now you think I'm just saying this for the sake of saying it, but these words were at least effective until we got married. As for after we got married, they're effective for a lifetime."

  No matter what illness you have, it's not your fault. Nobody wants to have a complicated condition, so I choose to ignore this. Don't think that I'm choosing to distance myself from you because of this - the word "discrimination" is not in my parents' genes and hasn't been passed down to me.

  Moist and misty, I never thought I'd have such a wonderful time. The therapy of the seasons is so delightful. The summer breeze whispers secrets to me, and the autumn leaves rustle with joy. The winter snowflakes gently fall on my face, and the spring flowers bloom in my heart. The world is full of beauty, and I am grateful for this life.

  Yang Yanjie smiled wryly, still just a little girl! Xiao Xiao, have you ever thought that being with me won't have a future?

  "Actually, you knew I was ill when you read that email of mine, didn't you? It's just that you never asked me about it."

  Mo Xiao thought he had hidden it well, but apparently, he still got found out by him.

  "Yes, I know you're sick, and I also know it's a bad disease."

  Mo Xiao didn't want to be stupid and hide the fact that he already knew, so he frankly admitted it. What's the big deal if I know? What's the big deal if I don't know?

  "I'm a person who is extremely lonely at heart, and sunshine is just a mask I have to wear."

  Her patience and nonsense are in direct proportion, so she is still a famous impatient person. Now that the nonsense is gone, the patience is naturally gone too.

  "I'm telling you, I don't care who you are, I just want you! Give me an answer right now, are you going to go with me or not? Just one word or two, nothing more!"

  Yang Yanjie really couldn't understand, this girl was so stubborn it was infuriating, too obstinate! But Mr. Yang, if Miss Mo wasn't so stubborn, do you think she would have waited for you for seven years?

  "Is it worth being with me?"

  "Whether it's worth it or not is my business, I want your answer!"

  Yang Yanjie didn't want to delay Mo Xiao Xiao, but people are inherently selfish.

  "I want to be with you."

  These seven words are easy to write, but is he really going to send them?

  Finally mustered up the courage and clicked the send button.

  Mo Xiao smiled and felt at ease, as if she had just listened to a segment of a story and didn't mind anything anymore.

  "You remember, we are always together, nothing can separate us!"

  Yang Yanjie didn't know what to say to this silly girl, she was too young and too naive, she was just a burden to herself, could she bear it?

  "Xiao Xiao, did you know? When you said 'love me' instead of 'like me', I was touched."

  "Love and liking are different, you can like many people, but love only one person, and I only love you."

  Mo Xiao Xiao answered fluently and kindly.

  Perhaps Mo Xiao said the most straightforward words from her heart. She loves him, seven years as one day, from life to death, forever unforgettable.

  "Xiao Xiao, I love you."

  Mo Xiao's greatest talent was getting an inch and taking a mile, a habit she had cultivated over the years. She then set down three rules for their agreement.

  "Shall we make an appointment for three o'clock?"

  You're smiling smugly, Yang, just wait for your punishment! I, Mo Xiao Xiao, won't let you off easily, or you'll never know the height of heaven and the thickness of earth!

  "Go on!"