Chapter 2 Beauty

  You're not here, there are some things I don't know who to say to.

  It's been a long time on the internet, I calmly watched the turbulent crowds hidden in the dark, since your appearance, my world has quietly changed. The origin of this moment, whether it is good or bad, is unknown.

  I don't know when my attention to you started, but I've been watching the world with a cold attitude, yet I was easily captured by your one call. Can you tell me, and stop making me so entangled? My bewildered heart can no longer find its correct trajectory.

  Time is short, the horizon is far away, in the future there will be mountains and rivers, dawns and dusks, I'll quietly finish my own journey, but unexpectedly at the end of the bustling world, I coincidentally met you who are out of the ordinary.

  You said: "Unfazed by honor or humiliation, I watch as flowers bloom and wither in the courtyard; without attachment to coming or going, I gaze at clouds gathering and dispersing in the sky."

  "One life, one world, one pair of people, half drunk, half awake, half floating life."

  You said: "I don't love the fleeting glamour of the world, I don't write about the troubles of the mundane world, I don't sigh at the desolation of the world's ways, I don't provoke sorrowful thoughts and resentments."

  You said...

  In a world full of flowers, desires are flowing everywhere. I don't know if it's the blessing of heaven or the arrangement of fate that let me meet you, like a spring rain, bringing clarity and purity to my world.

  Who can understand my intention and make me have no regrets in this life? Who can help me achieve unparalleled success, roaming freely for ten thousand miles? Who can move my heart, making every inch of land seem like a vast emptiness? Who can bury my sorrow, laughing at the vanity of heaven and earth, with my heart gone mad. She, covering my lips, washing away my past life's wandering; she, embracing me, eliminating my past life's frivolity.

  I like Tsangyang Gyatso, you will not disappoint me, nor will I disappoint you.

  I like this kind of conversation, from poetry and music to chess and painting, from Shakespeare to Jin Yong and Gu Long. I said there's a sense of Er Kang and Qing Er, you smiled and said Er Kang and Qing Er are destined to be apart. I was speechless, what about us?

  See mountains see water, but rely on heart's wish. Beautiful like you, only wish one like autumn sun shining brightly.

  "You said: 'In this world, each of us is an ordinary person, struggling for the dreams in our hearts. We all carry too many desires and vanities that don't belong to us, it's so tiring. There must be a journey to take ourselves away from the hustle and bustle, so we can have the leisure to appreciate every spring, summer, autumn, and winter.'"

  Yes, life is beautiful, but because of the red lights and green wine, because of the intoxication with wealth and materialism, it appears a bit flashy. Traveling, isn't about encountering the most beautiful scenery, or meeting the most beautiful people, but rather in some chance encounter, meeting the most beautiful version of oneself...

  And I want to say, on this trip of mine, I met the most beautiful you.

  Sitting in the examination room today, surrounded by the sweltering heat of summer, looking at the big "beauty" character on the paper, only you are left in my mind, the most beautiful you!

  Sometimes, even if I clearly know that many things are wrong and have no ending, I still charge forward without hesitation, just like a moth flying into the fire. Perhaps it's just for that most dazzling moment. Life doesn't have so many should-nots, I just know what I want, can't think of too much, how about you?

  Don't think too much, silly girl, life is very beautiful.

  You said silly girl should be happy and carefree, that's when brother will feel at ease.

  You said that silly girl should give her brother a chance to show herself, and it's not a big deal to occasionally yield.

  ……

  You said so much, but do you know? My every thought is tied to your joys and sorrows. I dare not let you know, dare not let you notice that this younger sister of yours has "unseemly thoughts" about you, dare not ask too much of you...

  I dare not know your answer, for it may be something I dare not undertake. You are my king, so will I be that Arabian woman?

  The most beautiful time meets the most beautiful you, this is heaven's gift!

  The above text is actually the composition written by our great Mo Yan's elder sister, risking being held back in school, with not many words but every word and phrase carefully considered before writing.

  She knew he couldn't see this article, but she still did it, is that what they call liking someone? She didn't know, and no one told her.

  "Ah! Mo Xiao, you're crazy! This is practically a love letter! You actually dared to write it on the test paper!" San Jie Liu Sha had been reviewing for a long time and took a break to do some stretching exercises when she saw Si Mei's article that could very likely cause her to fail the exam, instantly becoming furious.

  "I've already written it! What's the use of regretting now?" Mo Xiao Xiao said nonchalantly, she was like this, doing whatever she pleased without considering any consequences.

  "Honestly, who are you?" Liu Sha didn't let up on Mo Xiao.

  Which fairy can make Mo Xiao Xiao ignore the gentle and soft-hearted Physics Brother and be infatuated with him? The sisters in the dormitory are very suspicious about this.

  "Is it Yang Yanjie?" The usually taciturn Second Sister Cui Leifang's words shocked everyone.

  He didn't say anything else, and it was undeniable that it was really him.

  Yang Yanjie, how to say it! Is Mo Xiao's book friend, the two have never met in person, just chatting online, initially discussing books, and later getting familiar with each other, they chat about everything.

  He is one year older than Mo Xiao, studying medicine at a well-known university in the north. It's said that he studies very well. He has sent photos to Mo Xiao, and using modern terms to describe him, he is a typical tall, rich and handsome guy.

  Mo Xiao still thought that this child had a bit of a small, delicate temperament, which was her own personal opinion and she wouldn't tell Yang Yanjie.

  Later, Yang Yanjie also joked that during the basketball game, he was once mistaken for a gay man and proposed an idea of getting together, Mo Xiao Xiao laughed so hard she fell forward and backward.

  Yang Yanjie asked Mo Xiao if she had a boyfriend, and Mo Xiao's answer was quite unusual. She said that men are not reliable. Yang Yanjie was confused at the time and couldn't understand what Mo Xiao was thinking, and thought she might have been hurt from a past relationship. But in fact, Mo Xiao's love history has always been a big zero!

  It's just that this icy Mo Xuanxuan was unexpectedly captured by a book friend he had never met before, and I don't know if Physics Brother knew about it, would he have the urge to hit the wall.

  In fact, they confirmed their relationship on the eve of the university language exam, and the real plot is like this.

  Beijing time 23:56

  Yang: Ah, Xiao Mei, it's so late and you still haven't gone to sleep? Don't you have an exam tomorrow?

  Brother didn't sleep either? Brother is not obedient!

  Yang: I was thinking of you today since you had an exam, how did it go?

  It's okay, no big deal.

  Her answers were smooth as silk, flawless, and no one could pick out any flaws. But Mo Xiao's inner turmoil was like being deep-fried in a pot of oil. And then there was Yang Yanjie, with his big brotherly concern for his little sister, but it was unclear whether he really couldn't sense Mo Xiao's emotions or just pretended not to know.

  Yang: We agreed not to do Spider for these few days of exams, didn't we? Why are you still on it?!

  Ink: I just finished my exam today and relaxed a bit.

  Yang: Stop talking nonsense, you're here all day, don't think I don't know! Is there something on your mind?! Seeing the WeChat moments you posted, if there's anything to say, he/she is not around, you can still tell me, right?!

  A burst of annoyance, he had an urge to kick him to death. What's with this guy? This person is you, stupid Yang Yanjie! Endure, endure! Impulsiveness is the devil!

  Yang Yanjie seems to be unusually patient and doesn't send any messages, quietly waiting for Mo Xiao's response. Mo Xiao thinks that the saying "science students have low emotional intelligence" is a universal truth!

  Someone said we're suitable, but I don't know if he's joking or being serious, I want to ask but dare not, feeling very conflicted.

  After the closing remarks, Mo Xiao also sent a crying face with tears streaming down.

  Yang Yanjie was taken aback for a moment, he felt his heart ache a little, the younger sister he had been quietly protecting now also had someone she liked, and it seemed like there wouldn't be as much time to accompany him in the future.

  But it would be better if there was someone by her side to take care of her, her world is too simple, she's really a bit silly, doesn't understand human relationships or how to interact with people, still so naive, every time I hear that she's been bullied, my heart aches, maybe having someone by her side would make things much better.

  Yang Yanjie clenched his fists and then relaxed them, carefully typing out each word, every character feeling like a blow to his own heart, so painful.