Chapter 23: Han Yang's Letter

  Brother, I'm fine. In the dark of night, you can't see tears, so you won't know that I'm crying.

  Cold Moon

  Found it, Han Yue took out the painting and placed it on the table, arranging the other paintings to be put away. Just as she was doing this, a letter fell from the stack of unturned painting paper. The name on the envelope caught her eye, and the painting in Han Yue's hand slipped to the ground.

  A letter that was never sent, dated two days before my brother's accident.

  Xuě ér:

  I hope you're happy when you receive this letter.

  These days we've both been busy with our professional exams, it's been hard to see you. I passed by your class wanting to visit you but unfortunately you weren't there. Yesterday I finally saw you, you were standing by the pool, I walked forward, but you didn't notice me. Afterwards, I watched everything from within the crowd, my heart shattered into pieces, only his presence was in your eyes, it seemed like your world only had him.

  That person is so lucky to have received all your love. Just looking at his eyes makes the whole world dull and I couldn't compare with him, but I envy him to the extreme, if only I were him, that would be great.

  The first time I saw you, I hadn't yet been admitted to Xingkai. That summer, I had the chance to visit Xingkai and by the lotus pond, you were standing on the bridge wearing a white dress, holding a bouquet of lilies as you walked past me. In that moment, I understood what it meant to fall in love at first sight. You entered my heart, and I vowed to get into Xingkai. I was overjoyed when I successfully enrolled in Xingkai the following year. The next year, I really met you. As a senior welcoming new students, I gradually got closer to you and became friends with you. I remember us painting together, strolling through the streets together, and going to the beach together. I remember that when I first spoke to you, you smiled. I said my name was Hansheng, the sun of winter.

  I drew a picture of wind chimes for you, and you said you wanted one that looked just like the painting. I made it and was going to give it to you as a memento of our love, but now you don't need it anymore. I've redesigned it and am sending it to you again, hoping you'll be happy and blissful. Honestly, when you agreed to be my girlfriend back then, I felt like no one in the world was happier than me, and I thought that person would also be very happy.

  Recently I've been fond of a song from a long time ago, it sounds really good. The melody is simple and beautiful, but what I like the most are the lyrics, they're sad, lonely and make people feel helpless.

  Can't find 'flower' of broken winged dry leaf butterfly

  Never see withered flowers

  A small bridge under the eaves of a house in Jiangnan on a night with a romantic atmosphere

  Unable to read the desolate wilderness beyond the Great Wall

  Plum blossoms bloom in the quiet and lonely season

  Spring returns and soon disappears

  Alone I appreciate the smoke 'flowers' filling the sky

  Swaying and then drifting away with the wind

  Has Tunchang Bridge ever had snow?

  I gazed out at the lake surface

  A cold moon in the water is like snow

  Fingertips lightly touch dissolve

  Has Tunchang Bridge ever had snow?

  Miss your face again

  If we never meet again

  The white dike willow curtain hangs tears several times

  I think I like this song because of its story. Parting, vicissitudes, cold meaning, nostalgia, the bridge is not broken, but people's hearts are broken, and fate has come to an end, yet nostalgia remains unfinished. Perhaps I shouldn't say these words, my heart still feels unresigned, so please forgive my selfishness.

  What a coincidence, there are your name and my sister's name in it. Hmm, the sister I mentioned to you before, she has been in England all along, and she will be back tomorrow. When you receive this letter, I have already followed my sister back to England. Sorry for not being able to stay with you, sorry for not seeing your happiness. Although it's hard to part with you, I still have to say goodbye.

  I suddenly realized that it had never snowed on the Broken Bridge.

  Winter sun

  The letter fell to the ground, trembling. The cold moon buried its head and laughed silently. This was written by my brother before something happened to him, but he didn't have time to send it out before he died. Ha! At first, I tried to convince myself that this might just be a misunderstanding, but how can I explain this letter in front of me?! Ye Xue turned out to be the future sister-in-law I had been begging my brother to introduce me to, and Su Yitian was the enemy who made my brother lose his loved one. But since my brother voluntarily quit, why would something still happen to him?

  Do you remember what happened that day?

  I don't know, I don't remember!

  Think quickly!

  (Cold moon, don't force me.)

  Right away!

  Don't force me!

  Han Yue struggled to press down on the "sun" acupoint, and after a sudden burst of rapid breathing, she actually fell backwards onto the "bed".

  Brother, I'll be able to see you soon. After Han Yue came out of the airport, she got into the car that had been ready for a long time and rushed home. Brother likes elegant and quiet narcissus, today is his birthday, she specially prepared a basket of precious and rare narcissus to give brother a surprise.

  The car had not yet entered the garden, and Han Yue was holding 'flower' blue to walk back home by herself. If the car went in, her brother would find out. She wanted to surprise her brother.

  "Ken, leave the rest to you." After instructing the bodyguard who followed him back, Han Yue rushed across the highway towards the garden district.

  Her brother had said she looked very pretty in this dress, and she was wearing it for him to see this time.

  "Brother." Han Yue had just crossed the highway when she saw her brother running out of the garden, but before she could call out a second time, she saw a scene that she would never want to see in her lifetime.

  "Brother——" Han Yue stopped in her tracks, a blue narcissus fell to the ground, its stem broken and its flower battered.

  The screeching of tires was immediately followed by a dull thud.

  "Brother!" She ran over, fell down, and then got up again to continue running.

  "Brother, brother......" Han Yue hugged Han Yang on the ground, "Brother, nothing will happen to you, I'll take you to the hospital."

  "Ken, get an ambulance here right away, hurry!"

  "Brother, you'll be fine, the ambulance is coming." Blood was flowing from between her fingers, and there was blood everywhere on the ground. "Brother, you're bleeding so much." So much blood, so much blood, she had never seen that much blood before. The ground and clothes were already stained bright red, and small shells scattered all over the ground were also stained with blood. She desperately pulled at her skirt to try and stop her brother's bleeding. Brother, so much blood. She tore off a piece of clothing to cover her brother's head.

  "Little moon." Han Yang's face was exceptionally pale, he squeezed out a faint smile, "Don't tear it, you really look beautiful in it."

  "But it's already broken, so you need to get better and design another one for me, okay?"

  "Okay, don't cry... I don't like it when Xiaoyue cries..."

  "I won't cry, I won't cry." But she was really scared. Why hadn't the car arrived yet? Her brother had lost so much blood and her clothes were stained with his blood too. "Brother, don't scare me, you'll be fine, right?"

  "Little Moon, I'm... sorry." Brother looked at the broken wind chime on the ground, his eyes staring blankly ahead, despair and sadness etched on his face. No, don't say you're sorry! You mustn't be like this! Han Yue's heart felt as if it had been cut by a knife, she had never seen her brother with such a desperate expression before.

  The ambulance finally arrived, and Ken and his parents rushed his brother to the hospital. Han Yue followed behind, suddenly remembering that before her brother had run out, she had seen a girl running out of the garden area from afar - was her brother chasing after her? Han Yue suddenly turned around and ran forward with all her might, earlier her brother's eyes had been so desperate, he must have wanted to see her, right? This road rarely had cars or people, that person must still be up ahead.

  She ran very far, and her bare feet hurt after taking off her high heels... Finally, she saw that white figure in the distance, just a back view, she shouted desperately: "Wait!" But the person didn't even turn around and hailed a passing car to leave.

  She fell to the ground, got up and ran back to the original place. On the ground, there was only darkened blood and the wind chime in the bloody puddle. She picked up the scattered shells from the blood, and the strong smell of blood made her vomit violently.

  Ken rushed back to pick her up and helped her into the car, rushing back to the hospital. But it was too late. When she stumbled in, her brother had already been covered with a white cloth.

  "We're sorry, we've done our best, please accept our condolences."

  "What do you mean by 'doing your best'?! Hurry up and save my brother!" Han Yue grasped the doctor's arm, "Please, please hurry up and save my brother." She leaned over her brother's body, who seemed to be asleep. "Brother, don't scare me, get up quickly... Brother, if you sleep again I'll get angry, I'm going back, I really am going back... Brother, stop playing around, get up, hurry up and get up, you can sleep later."

  "Big sister." Ken tried to persuade her.

  "It's okay, brother just fell asleep, he was too tired." She stood up and walked towards her parents sitting beside. Her mother had already cried to the point of being speechless.

  "Dad, Mom, don't worry, brother just fell asleep. You call him to wake up and say that Little Moon is angry and wants to go back." Xiaoyue had just taken a step forward when she suddenly fell straight down.

  "Little Moon!"

  "Big sister!"

  No! Han Yue's eyes snapped open with a startled cry. That scene! The day brother fell, that back figure! That resolute back figure was Ye Xue, it was Ye Xue! It was her, she was the one who killed brother!

  I remember now, it's Ye Xue!

  I see.

  It's her, I'm going to take revenge!

  I know, shut up.

  Coughing... Han Yue sat on the floor, her shoulders shaking violently. Why was it her, why did it have to be her? Why did I get to know her. What do I do, brother, what do I do? Do I blame her for your death? No... It can't be, it's an accident, right?

  "Hey, are you hesitating?"

  No, I don't!

  That's her!

  Alright, I understand.

  A scene that can never be forgotten. Brother, you can't just leave like this, you can't! Who said it, who has to bear the consequences must bear them, and those who should be punished will be punished. No one can escape, all debts will eventually be collected from someone, wanting happiness is not that easy!

  Brother, I won't cry. You said you don't like it when I cry, so I won't cry.

  Han Yue desperately wiped away her tears, suppressing the sobbing sound. Han Yue covered her mouth, put the album back in its original place, looked at the letter in her hand, and tears fell on the paper. She was stunned for a moment before hastily turning off the light. Brother, I'm sorry, I couldn't do it, I'm not that strong.