You're such a good girl

  It's not that serious, but I hope you come with a true heart when we meet!

  "Of course!" I said without hesitation.

  "Wait until I finish my college entrance exam and then I'll come see you, okay?" he asked suddenly.

  "Alright......" This time I hesitated for a moment.

  "Hehe, I want to tell you that I think of you every day and wish it was always the weekend."

  "Free as the wind, don't say anything else, okay?"

  "Not good."

  "But it's also not good to continue talking about this."

  "What's wrong?"

  I don't know!

  "Give me your phone number, okay? I have to call you today."

  "No." I immediately thought of Guan Sha and couldn't let him get the better of me, so I said: "I'm not very used to chatting with net friends."

  "You don't like me, do you?" He said with a bit of displeasure. "If you don't like me, just say it straight out! It would save me from worrying every day!"

  I didn't expect him to use the terrifying phrase "牵肠挂肚". For a moment, I couldn't think of how to deal with him, so I just said: "Hehe, free as the wind, why are you getting bored? See you later, see you later."

  To be honest, I'm a bit disheartened, as if something beautiful was carelessly destroyed. I hastily said goodbye to him and went offline, not knowing what to say.

  For this reason I have been in a bad mood for many days. Compared to me, Guan Sha is much luckier, he really plans to meet his online friend Annie.

  The day before the meeting, Guan Sha seemed a bit nervous and even asked Tian Ai's aunt to buy him a new pair of basketball shoes. When he was trying on the shoes, I couldn't help but giggle, and he glared at me with his eyes, warning me in a low voice not to say anything, or else the agreement would be cancelled. But Tian Ai's aunt is such a clever person, she pulled me aside and asked if Guan Sha had been acting strange lately? I blinked my eyes and said I didn't know.

  "What's good about you people?" Tian Ai's aunt said, "A mother who doesn't know what her child is thinking in their heart is truly a failed mother, don't you think?"

  "Then don't say anything else." I said to Aunt Tian, "Guan Sha is already 16 years old, he's an adult, he should be responsible for his own actions!"

  "Really one after another!"; Tian Ai's aunt smiled and said, "You must know something, not always quarreling with him every day, now you're even protecting him, what's going on?";

  "I never report on others!"; I laughed loudly and said, "However, I'll keep an eye on him for you. If he really does anything wrong, I will definitely report back to you!"

  "Little devil!"; She patted me. I smelled the faint fragrance on her body, which was the scent of my mother that I had imagined for many years. I couldn't help but lean into her arms, and she gently patted me saying: "Ranran, you're really a good girl, so clean and transparent."

  Clean and transparent? I'm grateful that she used such words to describe me, I'm grateful that she saw the good in me. In the days when I lost my mother and father who relied on each other, I've been trying hard to be a good girl. In her eyes, I found affirmation, happiness and pride overflowing warmly in my heart, like a house filled with spring sunshine.

  Just thinking of freedom like the wind makes me a little unhappy. In my heart, he has always been an outstanding boy, perhaps because of the distant distance, I think he is more excellent than any boy I have ever met in life: confident, humorous, open-minded, and mature. But since he expressed that little bit of meaning, I feel unenthusiastic and regretful. It's not that my heart doesn't have beautiful fantasies about love, nor is this fantasy unrelated to freedom like the wind, but I like the kind of rationality that keeps one's mouth shut, that kind of vague observation from a distance. Growing up slowly with a clear and serene mind, how wonderful would that be!