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  Yuan Bin, will you always be with me from now on? I've never told you how much I love you because I'm afraid that happiness comes too quickly and disappears just as fast.

  Yuan Bin, you were my first love. Do you know what first love means to a person? I will remember it for the rest of my life. What about you? Are you just going to forget me like this? What if I can't forget? What if I can never forget in this lifetime? How am I supposed to live without you by my side? Is there still any meaning?

  Yuan Bin, will you become a kind angel? Don't stay in this dark box, okay? I remember your bright smile, it's always been imprinted on my heart, can you smile at me again?

  Yuan Bin, won't the ticket to heaven be too expensive? If there's still a vacancy, can I come with you? I swear this time I'll accompany you for a lifetime, and never make you wait again, forever and ever.

  。

  Yuan Bin, I'll follow you wherever you go, don't ever leave me behind. Without you, I'm nothing, no soul, how can I live? A walking corpse?

  "The patient has been greatly stimulated and needs rest, so it's better to leave only one person in the ward."

  "You all go out, I'll be fine guarding this place by myself."

  "Alright, if anything happens, call us and ask for Brother Xiu. Take good care of Sister Ou Lian."

  "Alright, you all go back now."

  Everything is quiet and peaceful, I can no longer see any annoying things, only Yuan Bin's face is good.

  "You can't cry anymore, if you keep crying, you'll go blind. Whose eyes can withstand such tears? What's wrong that makes you so heartbroken?"

  I didn't take that old doctor seriously, would I go blind? Wouldn't that mean I'd never see Yuanbin again? I couldn't go blind, I still have to wait for Yuanbin to come back. But where are these tears supposed to flow to?

  "Ou Zhen, did you hear me? Don't cry again."

  "I think the patient's spirit is very weak, should we find a psychologist to take a look?"

  "It's no use, thank you doctor, I'll send her back to her ward first."

  "Alright, alright, comfort her, there's no hill in this world that can't be climbed."

  "I'll go with you, so you can see a doctor first."

  My soul has been sucked out? My whole body is floating, this feeling of release is so good, just wait for death slowly like this, what's the point of living anyway? If my soul is gone, why bother living? At most, it's just hurting myself.

  "Ou Zhen, want to eat something? Anyway, you have to eat something."

  I just shook my head, lacking the strength to respond to his words.

  "Ou Zhen, you're a strong girl, believe in yourself."

  "I am not..."

  "Don't be like this, I know you're suffering, but my heart isn't feeling good either. My feelings for him are even stronger than your love for him, but we both need to learn to be strong, don't we?"

  "Not..."

  "Go ahead and cry if you want to. Even if I go blind from crying, I'll donate my corneas to you. Go ahead and cry with peace of mind."

  。”

  "No more... tears..."

  "If you cry again, you'll cry blood, Ou Zhen, promise me to be strong."

  "There's no promise..."

  "You still have me, I will take care of you, take care of you for a lifetime, believe me."

  "I don't need your pity, I don't need it."

  "I'm serious, I'll prove it to you later, how about we eat something first?"

  "What's going on? I want to know."

  "That night was Xiao Ya gathering all the brothers to party, I was originally going too, but that contract suddenly had a problem, I've been revising it and declined. If I went, nothing would have happened, it's all my fault!"

  "What's going on?"

  "They drank a lot of wine, Yuan Bin, Yuan Bin got into an accident on the way back while driving, crashed into the railing, and the car was also burned to ashes. If I had gone, I could have driven him back, it's all my fault, I'm the one who killed Yuan Bin, I really regret it so much, why, why did it turn out like this, I'd rather be the one who died instead of him. Ou Lian, you can punish me now, no matter what, as long as you can vent your anger, I've already called all those people over, do with them as you please."

  "Why? Is this really fate?"

  "Ou Zhen, you will be strong, everything will pass."

  "I don't want to see those people, don't let me see them."

  "Alright, then I'll cut off their hands and have them buried with Yuan Bin."

  "Are they really your good brothers? Why are you so cruel?"

  "I just want you to know how important Yuan Bin is to me, and how important it is for you to let go of your grudge against me. I can give up everything else, even my own life, but Yuan Bin's death is a responsibility we all share, and I will not shirk that responsibility, so please be at ease."

  。”

  "Don't be like that, Yuan Bin wouldn't think that way either."

  "No, this is the only chance I feel can make up for it. Although I couldn't go with Yuanbin together, there must be something to follow him."

  "If you do this, Yuan Bin will also be worried."

  "But all I want is for you to be at peace, as long as you can forgive me, even if it means I have to die, I don't care."

  "I, I have never blamed you all, isn't this all just fate?"

  "But I couldn't bear watching you like this now, it's more painful than killing me."

  "So you want me to pretend nothing happened? I can't do that."

  "I know we can't accept this fact, but promise me that after grieving, you'll live a strong life, okay?"

  "I've lost direction in life, without Yuan Bin I don't know how to go on living."

  "Will you stay with me and keep alive the hope of Yuan Bin?"

  "We will ultimately be people of two different worlds."

  "Why say that? Haven't I always been by your side?"

  "That's different, our lives will never intersect, just like Yuan Bin will never come back."

  "What? Don't you believe I'm sincere with you?"

  "Are you being sincere with me?"

  "Ou Zhen, I like you, it's true, don't reject me from a thousand miles away, okay?"

  "Guo Lunxiu, is this really what you want? Less than a week after your brother's death, you're confessing to his girlfriend? What do you expect me to say? Will I be moved to tears and then be with you? Sorry, I'm not that sentimental."

  。”

  "Ou Zhen, I didn't mean it that way. You're such a good girl, there will be good boys to take care of you too. Although Yuan Bin is gone, your life still has to go on."

  "My life will go on with or without you, so please don't say things like that to me again, it makes me very uncomfortable."

  "Alright, but I'll show you, just wait."

  "You don't have to try so hard anymore, my heart is already dead, I won't fall in love with anyone else again."

  "Even if it's not love, I want to exchange for a bit of feeling, even if it's just a little bit, I will be very satisfied."

  "You go out, I want to be quiet for a while."

  "I'll bring you some food later, people need to eat, and it's not possible to just keep injecting nutrient fluids all the time."

  "Suit yourself, I'm going to take a rest."

  "Take a good rest, I'll come over in a while."

  Yuan Bin, I've managed to get through this week without you, but how am I supposed to spend the rest of my life alone? I don't want to hear anyone else make promises to me except for you, because they're not worthy. Guo Lianxiu can't be like that either, no matter what, I will never betray you. Guo Lianxiu can't like me, I'm not worthy of owning anyone's love anymore, I don't want to hurt him, my heart is already dead, it's impossible for me to accept a new emotion again, even if it's just pity.

  "How is older sister Ou Lian? Older brother Ling Xiu?"

  "Not eating yet? I just came out, do you want to go in and accompany her?"

  "Alright, you go rest first, Li Xiu Ge."

  "I'll send her lunch later."

  "Xiong Ge, you've been taking care of Oulian Jie for so many days, it's really tiring."

  "Ou Zhen is Yuan Bin's girlfriend, which means she's the person closest to me. Of course I have to take good care of her for Yuan Bin's sake, otherwise how can I face him?"

  Chapter 22: Revival (End of Chapter)