Thirty-seven sacrifices for love

  "Don't talk anymore, I'm drinking soup, it's disgusting."

  "Aren't you afraid of anything?"

  "I, Xiao Xuanxuan, have never cared about this before, and I still eat popsicles without any issues."

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  "Seriously, if the boss's wife asks you how your consideration is going, what would you say?"

  "Just say I'm not interested, anyway it's not the first time I've rejected someone like this."

  "I really don't know what you're thinking."

  "I just want to be with you and Oulian, nothing else, and also what I originally wanted."

  "How can you forget? This is a great opportunity!"

  "Han Shi Ya, you're getting more and more... Alas, the emperor's sorrow is like a vast ocean! The imperial court's affairs are as complicated as a maze! The people's livelihoods are as fragile as a leaf in an autumn breeze!"

  "Fine, I won't mention you again, saying more is useless."

  Xiao Xuanxuan looked at Han Shiya and smiled, with a triumphant expression on her face. Han Shiya shook her head helplessly, looking at Xiao Xuanxuan, sighed, and said, "What can I do about it? It's really more frustrating than my own affairs."

  "Qianqian, have you considered it? The man is quite willing to be with you." Today, the boss's wife couldn't help but ask, and her smile was even brighter than a big fortune.

  "Chu Yi, I think we... aren't suitable for each other..." Xiao Juanjuan grasped the boss's wife's arm, looking at her with a pitiful expression.

  "What's wrong? What's not suitable about it? Look at the other person's conditions, they're very good. You don't know how many girls want to marry him. Your aunt genuinely likes you and thinks you're okay, that's why she wanted to introduce you to him. She said a lot of good things about you, and now he's agreed, what's not suitable about it?"

  "I haven't thought about finding a boyfriend yet, and he's not even my type anyway. So, Aunt Chu, this kind of thing really can't be forced, it will hurt me and him too."

  "How did it end up hurting? Qianqian, Auntie really wanted to match you two, otherwise you should think about it carefully again?"

  "To be honest, Aunt Chu, I didn't want to go on a blind date from the start, but since you were so enthusiastic, I couldn't bear to refuse. Now, I really don't have that kind of thought, so please forgive my lack of enthusiasm, Aunt Chu."

  "Alright, alright, Aunt Chu understands and sympathizes with you, it's okay. Next time when I meet someone good, I'll introduce her to you."

  。”

  "En en, Aunt Chu is the best, I'll go down and work first."

  "It's okay, don't mind it, go."

  It's good that Aunt Chu didn't blame Xuanxuan, she was so happy that afternoon, like she said, finally putting down the burden in her heart. However, I still feel a bit sorry for her, but can't say anything more, or this girl would go crazy again. Now, in her eyes, I'm just a standard... (illegible characters). The river is calm and peaceful, with a few boats sailing by. The sun sets slowly, casting a golden glow over the water. The trees on the shore are reflected in the ripples of the river, creating a beautiful scenery. But amidst this tranquility, I'm worried about Xuanxuan's future. Will she be able to find happiness?

  "Qianqian, go and pick up Oulian for me, I still have to finish these."

  "Okay, I was going anyway, you should head home early too, I'll have dinner ready for you."

  "You're really like a virtuous wife and good mother, whoever marries you will be blessed."

  "She's originally a good wife and mother, isn't she? Let's go, Oulian also needs to get out of school, see you later."

  "Be careful on the road."

  I really want to be like a mom, picking up my daughter from school and going home. Xiao Xuanxuan is originally a good wife and mother, haha, so who's the good husband? There isn't one, but someone praised you as a good wife and mother. Xiao Xuanxuan doesn't need a husband for her whole life because she has Shi Ya. Maybe that girl still doesn't know I started liking her since high school? She definitely doesn't know, if she did, would she still be with me now? Xiao Xuanxuan, does this count as being a playboy? It doesn't count, I didn't do anything, at most we just bathed together, that can't be blamed on me, it was her own will. The more I talk the more shameless I become, hehe, Ou Zhen, you can rest assured, I'll definitely treat you and Ou Zhen well, protecting you both for a lifetime. I don't know how long I prayed to fulfill my wish of being with you, but it's really fortunate that Ou Jiefen changed his mind. This is fate, we can't resist our destined fate.

  "Hey? Qianqian, I'll be home soon, you're going back so quickly, just cook dinner first, I..."

  "Excuse me, do you know Ms. Xiao Juanjuan?"

  "This, isn't this her phone? Who are you, how come you're using her phone?"

  "Hello, we are from the traffic police team. Ms. Xiao Xuanxuan has had an accident and is currently in the hospital. If you are her family member or friend, please come over?" At Municipal Hospital.

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  "What's going on? Is it serious? Alright, I'll be right there!"

  I don't know how I ran to the hospital, I even forgot to hail a taxi and didn't care about the traffic lights, just crying and running in the direction of the hospital.

  The hospital's business was booming every day, I rushed to the emergency department and asked the doctor, coincidentally those police were also present, I hastily wiped away my tears all over my face, just wanting to see Xuanxuan, take a clear look at her.

  "Doctor! Where's Qianqian? Where is Xiao Qianqian?"

  "Are you Xiao Xuanxuan's family member?"

  "I'm her friend, let me see her, how is she? By the way, isn't there a little girl too? Where is she? Doctor, speak up!"

  "The little girl was greatly stimulated and has been given an injection. She is now sleeping in the ward. You go identify the deceased first."

  "What... did you say? Death, the dead? What do you mean?"

  "Miss Xiao Xuanxuan suffered a massive impact resulting in severe cerebral hemorrhage, by the time she was sent to the hospital... you go take a look."

  My tears kept falling on the white cloth covering Qianqian, I didn't know how much courage I needed to lift up that sheet. I couldn't bear to see Qianqian like that, yet at the same time I wanted to prove with all my might that it wasn't her. My hands trembling, I lifted up the sheet, and what I saw was exactly what I least wanted to see. Instantly, I fell to my knees and wailed loudly.

  This is the most desperate cry of my life, even when Ou Jie Feng abandoned me, I didn't cry to that extent, almost fainting. I dare not believe this fact, how can I believe it.

  That night, I took a sedative and barely fell asleep quietly. The next afternoon, I personally sent Xuanxuan to the crematorium and got a box of ashes in return. I had forgotten how to cry, but just held her quietly, reluctant to let her leave me for a second.

  Ou Lian seemed to know what had happened too. Perhaps she had already seen that scene with her own eyes. As soon as she woke up, she would cry uncontrollably and have a persistent high fever.

  The driver who caused the accident did not run away, he said that at first it was impossible for such a thing to happen. I watched the surveillance video of the road surface at the time, and saw that Oulian suddenly rushed onto the road, and Qianqian pulled her over just in time to see the car coming, she was trying to protect Oulian when the accident happened.

  Ou Zhen personally witnessed Xuanxuan being hit by a car and flying in front of her own eyes, no wonder she was so traumatized.

  Looking at Oulian, I wanted to scold her, wanted to beat her up badly, wanted to say it was all her fault that Xuanxuan died! But how could I bear to do so, she's still so young, how could she take it? I just hugged her and cried, she didn't say a word the whole time, I was even afraid she would lose her voice from the shock. Fortunately not, but instead got a heart condition, another huge hospital bill and surgery fee. (As for whether one can get a heart condition from being scared, I'm still not very clear myself, please consult 120 for details)

  After sending Xuanxuan's ashes back to her hometown, my wish was also fulfilled. However, her parents couldn't forgive me because they knew it was an accident that happened while trying to save Oulian, so they can't accept us. I can understand too, we are the culprits who caused her death, and I am the one who killed Xuanxuan, this is something that cannot be made up for in this lifetime.

  Ou Lian's condition is getting worse and worse, I plan to take her away from here and also go to the big city to help her see a doctor. No matter what, I must take good care of her, this is also what Qian Qian hopes for, just like replacing her to love Ou Lian better.

  Today I have to help Qianqian move again, I came to her room, looking at everything familiar here, telling myself not to cry anymore, if Oulian sees it, she will cry again, everything is over, and we need to start anew.

  But how could I dare to believe that I could see those things - Qianqian's diary from high school to now... it actually mentions me every day, I'm shocked. The box also contains things like love letters, and they're all for me! I looked at them, feeling touched and yet having goosebumps. I would never have thought that Qianqian had liked me for so many years, and she's a lesbian! I sat on the ground, finally understanding why she never found a boyfriend - it was because of me. Should I accept this love or reject it? I didn't know she loved me so much, why did she... we were good friends for so many years, and every time Ou Jiefeng would take me away from her side, I remember she would smile and see me off. If she really liked me, how many times must she have been heartbroken? Has she become numb to it? It's truly unbelievable, I didn't dare imagine that a girl could like me, and that girl is my best friend - how absurd.

  I'm so touched, Qianqian. I'm really moved by everything you've done for me. You're so selfless and unregretful. When I say I'm touched, it's not just to comfort you - I swear that from now on, my heart will never be swayed by any other man. The heart I retrieved from Ou Jie Feng will forever belong to you, even after I die. Just as you've never changed your heart towards me, I won't let your love be in vain either.

  I accept, happily accept all your love. Although it's already too late, perhaps if you could hear what I'm saying now, would you also be very happy? Unfortunately, I won't get to see the smile on your face again, but your smiling face will forever remain in my heart. I'll never forget everything about you and will guard them for a lifetime.

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