Chapter90

  Looking out the window at the bare tree trunks, she couldn't help but sigh. The sound of water dripping from the melting snow was annoying. The departure of the dust of the moon always made her feel like something was missing in her life, but with two big living people around her, it wasn't so bad after all.

  Looking back on the comical actions of Chihiro and the others as they tried to regain their memories over the past few days, it's quite amusing. It seems that her "amnesia" and "weakness" had a significant impact on them.

  Fortunately, Yun'er and her relationship gradually improved. This morning, she put wasabi in the toothpaste. Although it took some effort, seeing Yun'er's expression was really funny. However, I calmed down to comfort her. Because of this, their relationship soared, but who knew that Xia Moli was behind this prank?

  These days, Shallow Night and Moon Creek have been pestering her every day. She's not an EQ-low, scary love idiot. They both clearly know their own feelings, and they also know that they're only purely interested in her, not in love.

  Xia Mei sometimes returns home, only to come back in the middle of the night. People who don't know her might think she's having an affair. No one knows what that dead woman is busy with, at least she's very interested in her own affairs. She just doesn't have any interest in investigating anything about her, not for any reason, because they're sisters, it's that simple.

  As for her own illness, since everyone seemed to be avoiding something, she didn't ask anything, but had a bad premonition. Frowning and pressing her temples, if they didn't want to say it, then forget it, anyway, one day she would know.

  She once yearned for a beautiful love, but now she is no longer that naive her. She is the Poison Queen, she is the God of Thieves. Although they are just hobbies, they are also protecting herself. She knows she has harmed many people, but those were not good people. Even so, she doesn't think she deserves to have love. In the end, she will be betrayed.

  She is clear about her own arrogance, she likes to play with others' emotions, she is promiscuous and cannot be denied, she has had countless boyfriends, but she has never invested her emotions, so she is still confused about the feelings of Shallow Night and Dusty Moon, before they understand their own emotions, she does not plan to give them an explanation, or rather, give herself an explanation.

  She couldn't deny her own ruthlessness, and she even thought several times that she would be the villain in a story. She was very clear about the boundaries between herself and Xia Mu Xuan, two points that could not be crossed. Although they had commonalities, Xia Mu Xuan's exterior was cold, but his heart should be kind, unlike hers. That pure heart had been destroyed long ago, crushed by the cruel reality at the moment of Mu Ya's death.

  However, for her, Xiao Si was a special existence, stuck between lover and friend, it could only be like this. As for his tenderness towards her, whether it was gratitude or infatuation, she herself wasn't clear.

  If she had to say who she cherished the most, it would undoubtedly be her cousin Lan Xinyue. That undeniable trust and that unspoken understanding represented everything, but how long could it last?

  Thinking of this, I glanced at the empty space where Xia Muzi used to be, my eyelids drooping down, a layer of sorrow spreading across my face. To me, you are an insurmountable object, the only one. So, what am I to you?

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  This chapter is Xia Moli's psychological narrative.