Deceiving oneself and others

  When Chen Sang came back, I had just finished work and was curled up on the sofa watching TV and eating instant noodles. At that time, an expert told everyone in a very authoritative tone: when a person eats a package of instant noodles, it takes a month to clear out the toxins left in the body. I looked at the Master Kang's instant noodles in my hand, I've been eating Master Kang's for three years, it seems that the toxins accumulated in my body will take forever to be cleared, maybe I'll die before they're gone! I gritted my teeth and drank all the soup.

  Chen Sang was led in by Ah Guang, and her outfit was extremely unusual. In our place around mid-October, the temperature is still around thirty degrees, and beautiful girls are wearing short sleeves and hot pants to show off on the streets! While Chen Sang wore a black coat with a scarf tied around her neck.

  When I untied the scarf around her neck, I saw the purple and green bruises, pinch marks, especially the ring around her throat, which looked like someone had strangled her with something. I was shocked. Even if it were intense marks left from doing something, they wouldn't be so terrifying! Her white skin was covered in patches of purple and green, some with blood stains.

  I asked her what was going on and what had happened. She refused to tell me, instead pulling out a set of Lanc?me cosmetics from her bag and tossing them at me, saying they were the latest style, targeted at women who stay up late.

  I know her temperament, she wouldn't tell you things even if you put a knife to her neck. I asked her if she wanted to take a bath and she said yes!

  I put down the water and she asked me if I had taken a bath. I told her that I hadn't, so we both got into the bathtub together.

  She lay in the bathtub with her eyes closed, telling me that she had already paid off the high-interest loan and still had some money left. Suddenly, she brought up her biological father, and her eyes snapped open, filled with resentment and sorrow. She said that one day, she would have a lot of money, and she would use it to smash her father to death.

  In fact, she didn't even know who her biological father was. She had asked her mother, but her mother couldn't give an answer. It's possible that she was left behind by one of her mother's clients, or maybe she was the child of a wealthy man who supported her mother.

  She curled up in my arms, like a young child snuggling into her mother's body. I patted her back and said to her, "A San, have you ever thought of Ah Guang?"

  She looked up at me straight, silently. I continued to say, Ah Guang has been guarding you for four years, he even quarreled with his family members for you, why don't you two go to another city and live a good life?!

  She suddenly sat up from the quilt, her eyes staring at me motionlessly. She loudly questioned me, "Xiao Wen, are you naive or stupid? Do you think you can still be innocent after entering this circle? You're not unaware of how many people I've offended over the years. If I really quit, I'd be a corpse on the street the next day."

  She picked up the makeup set on my dresser. "You know this makeup set is worth at least 100,000 yuan. You're saying you want to leave? Are you willing to go back to wearing clothes that cost tens of dollars and using low-quality makeup? Look at Ah Yuan, didn't she get married? But her husband found out she used to be a mistress, took all her money, and divorced her. Now isn't she back again?"

  Qian Sang's attitude was infuriating, I didn't want to say anything else. Actually, what she said wasn't wrong either. I turned over and closed my eyes to sleep. Qian Sang slipped into the quilt, she hugged me from behind, she lowered her voice and asked if I wanted to leave? She advised me not to deceive myself.