We are 108,000 miles away from love

  The next day, I returned to Shenzhen with Bawang early in the morning. The second day after returning, I received a call from Lucy, saying that she might be pregnant. However, her tone of voice didn't show any excitement as one would expect from a mother-to-be.

  I exchanged a greeting with Ba Wang and then went to see Lu Yishu. The nanny opened the door, I walked into the room and saw her sitting alone on the sofa, looking a bit dazed. I called out to her several times before she reacted.

  She told me that her period was always very punctual, but this time it was delayed for a week, so she felt something was wrong and worried that she might be pregnant. She asked the nanny to buy a pregnancy test kit, and both brands of test kits showed two red lines. I asked her why she didn't take any measures.

  She said that Shixiu didn't let him take birth control pills, he thought it was too harmful to his body. Birth control measures had always been taken care of by Shixiu. One time when both of them had a bit of wine and were in the safe period, they both got a little carried away.

  Okay! Taking birth control pills is bad for the body, having an abortion is even more harmful to the body. Lu Yishu is still young after all, who says that a safe period is absolutely safe? I asked her if she had called Shixiu to tell him, and she said she didn't dare call Shixiu in the evening or morning. It seems that Shixiu is now accompanying his fiancée.

  This child, I think, is not worth keeping. What kind of family would produce someone like Shixiu? And now that the engagement between Shixiu and the precious granddaughter of the Sun family is in danger, how can he possibly keep such a huge hidden problem around?

  I asked Lu Yishu what she planned to do, and she remained silent. If a woman truly wants to have children with a man, she would be willing to make sacrifices. I think Lu Yishu wanted to stay, but deep down, she knew better.

  We can't just sit around, so I took Lu Yishu to a regular hospital for a check-up. Although the chances of pregnancy are slim, I'm still hoping that maybe there's been some mistake and Lu Yishu might have eaten too much folic acid-rich food, causing the pregnancy test to be wrong.

  The doctor's results indeed showed that Lu Yishu was more than a month pregnant.

  The doctor saw that our expressions were not happy, so he suggested that the sooner we had surgery, the better it would be for the child. I thanked the doctor and supported Lu Yishu, who was looking a bit pale, out of the room.

  We had lunch outside and I called Shixiu to tell him what happened. He said he would come back as soon as possible. I sent Luyishu back to the villa, and we waited for Shixiu's return.

  At four o'clock in the afternoon, Shixiu finally returned. He had to deal with two women a day, which was also quite suffocating for him. I saw that he had returned and stood up to bid farewell. It's not my place to intervene in other people's affairs.

  As I walked out of the villa, I felt a sense of helplessness and heartache.

  I returned to the Xiaobailou when Ba Wang was on the phone, I heard him say that side is light, that side is heavy, you don't have a number in your heart, what time is it now, how to do it, you have a number in your heart, I won't say anything.

  For them, women are always the lighter side, and since ancient times, they have always attributed men's mistakes to women, scolding them as "red beauty disasters", which is just a failure of men themselves.

  I was weakly heading upstairs when Bawang stopped me. He asked me why I had a look of desperation on my face as soon as I came back.

  I told him that Lushi was pregnant, and he said he already knew. Maybe just now he was talking to Shixiu, I saw his indifferent expression, and felt that there was nothing good to say between us. The words that had been bottled up in my heart were also meaningless when told to him, as he would never understand how much harm an abortion can cause a woman's body, nor would he comprehend Lushi's feelings.

  I said I was tired and wanted to go rest. I thought if we stayed there any longer, we would definitely quarrel again. Ba Wang grabbed my arm and said he had already warned Lu Yishu to be more careful.

  He indeed said that, and it's considered one of his rare kindnesses. I looked at him and said thank you for reminding me. He asked with a gloomy face who he was putting on an act for. He said Lu Yishu is who, the Sun family has always been neutral, the Sun family is related to Shixiu by marriage, and the Sun family will at least be biased towards their daughter's side.

  I interrupted what he was about to say, staring into his eyes and telling him that I didn't understand the big things in men's language. What I care about is just being good myself, Chen Sang and Lu Yishu being good, that's enough for me. A man who can't even protect his own woman, what else can he do?

  The Overlord heard what I said, gritted his teeth and said: Lu Xiaowen, you're quite glib! Do you understand? In a few years, the current atmosphere will become what kind of situation? Do you think everyone can still live well? A real man should take on the responsibilities he should have, don't get bogged down in trivial matters, what's the point of that?

  I am different from the Overlord, I am just an ordinary citizen, while he is different, this has determined that our outlook on life is vastly different. I said well, you are a big man, you are majestic and awe-inspiring, I am a small woman, living my own small life.

  After finishing speaking, I threw down the words and ran into the bedroom to sleep until 8 o'clock in the evening. The middle-aged woman called me to go downstairs for dinner. Ba Wang and I sat on either side of each other, neither of us spoke. Later, Ba Wang slapped the table with a loud noise, pointing at me and saying: Lu Xiaowen, you don't drink the toast, you have to drink the penalty wine.

  I knew he was angry, but I really didn't want to lower myself to please him again. I bowed my head and said nothing, continuing to face the food in front of me. He swept his arm with force, and the bowls and plates fell to the ground. With a hint of thin anger, he put on his coat and went out the door.

  I made him uncomfortable, but there are people who make him comfortable, and he's not lacking in young women.

  The next day, I received a call from Lu Yishu. She asked if I had time to accompany her to the hospital for an abortion. I asked her if she was really determined. Lu Yishu told me on the phone that she didn't want to make Shixiu feel difficult. Last night, Shixiu smoked all night, and she could tell that Shixiu also wanted to keep the child, but he had no choice. In the middle of the night, Shixiu even got out of bed and touched her belly.

  I scolded Lu Yishu over the phone, saying that her brain must have been kicked by a donkey if she was still thinking of that man at this time.

  Lu Yishu said that if I fall in love with someone, I will understand. But I think this is not love at all, it's just being infatuated. If that's what love is, then I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life.

  But I clearly know that Lu Yishu's approach is correct, with her identity, she cannot give birth to a child. Ba Wang also said nothing wrong, it's just that I feel sorry for Lu Yishu, so I'm being unreasonable like this.

  As soon as I saw her landing safely, all my anger dissipated. Her face was originally thin and pale, with a pointed chin. After staying up all night, the skin under her eyes turned dark, and her complexion was pale. I let out a sigh of relief and didn't say anything else.

  The people in the queue, not a few of them were women in their early twenties. Sitting next to me was a young couple, seventeen or eighteen years old. From the tone of their conversation, I learned that the girl had had three abortions in one year. I glanced at the girl and saw that she didn't have any gloomy expression, but instead was engrossed in playing mobile games with her head down. It seemed that she was too young and was recklessly squandering her youth, without understanding what it means to cherish herself.

  Lu Yishu's child was less than 49 days old, so she could have a medical abortion. The doctor prescribed her some medicine and told her to come back the next day for the second dose. Lu Yishu didn't even wait to go home, wanting to take the medicine at the hospital instead.

  I saw her hand holding the cup shaking non-stop, so violently that the hot water in the cup was splashing out. I asked if she was okay, she shook her head, tilted it back and took a sip of water before swallowing the pill.

  In less than a year, the girl who was once full of vitality and beauty could no longer be found, shrouded in gloom, like a withering rose.

  I stood by and watched as Lu Yishu slowly changed, watching her sink deeper into the whirlpool. I wanted to reach out and pull her back, but was powerless to do so.

  After swallowing the medicine, Lu Yishu buried herself in my arms and cried. She made a soft "wu wu" sound, just like a gentle child.

  Shi Xiu's phone call came, he said the nanny told him that Lu Yishu had gone out, and asked where Lu Yishu was. Lu Yishu told him she was in the hospital, she had taken her medicine, and would be fine tomorrow. Shi Xiu fell silent on the other end, I really wanted to scold him, but I realized he was just a poor guy too. He's just a pawn in his family, unable to even choose which woman he wants to marry.

  I hung up the phone and supported Lu Yishu back. In the hall, I met Hongyan, and the probability of our accidental encounter was quite high. Beside her was her mother, but unlike the previous two times when she was dressed to the nines, this time she wore a hospital gown, without makeup, and no longer looked young, clearly over 40 years old.

  The woman with the red hair also saw me, she sized me up for a moment, we looked at each other, it was indeed awkward, we were clearly strangers, because of a man, we knew each other, but had an adversarial relationship.

  I and she, if compared in appearance and temperament, everyone would stand on her side, but we really have nothing to compare with, just like what Ba Wang said, those things are all trivial matters.

  Lu Yishu noticed that something was off about me, and she also looked at Hongse. Lu Yishu smiled at Hongse, who politely nodded in response. It seemed the two of them knew each other. Meanwhile, we treated each other like strangers, pretending not to have seen each other.

  I asked Lu Yishu how he knew Hong Se, and Lu Yishu told me that not long ago, Ba Wang had taken Hong Se to a villa.

  It turns out that I won't be the only one, nor will I be the unique one. I think it's okay this way, at least when my usefulness is exhausted, the Overlord won't make things difficult for me.

  I and Ba Wang have only hugged each other when we were lonely, love is ten million eight thousand miles away from us!