I don't dislike you

  The overbearing man looked at me with a scornful sneer, his hand still patting my cheek. To be honest, I didn't like this gesture of his at all. It made me feel like he was treating me like a dog. Of course, maybe in his eyes, I wasn't even worth as much as a dog!

  He sat up, took out a cigarette from the drawer and lit it. He glanced at me and said, "You're scared, aren't you?" His words startled me, and I looked up at him. Don't look at Ba Wang's usual arrogant appearance, he's actually very cunning inside.

  I lay down for a while, feeling unwell, and sat up leaning against the bed. He lifted my chin and told me that he had been playing since he was 16 years old and had seen all kinds of women. He mentioned women with some disdain, saying that you women all like to pretend, pretending to be innocent, pretending to be noble, whether it's a Ph.D. or a young lady, they're all the same, just different prices. Once the price is right, they'll all take off their clothes obediently.

  I don't usually hold the women around me in high esteem, including myself, but when Ba Wang says it like that, I feel a bit uncomfortable. But how can I retort? I don't have the guts!

  He spat a mouthful of smoke in my face, I held my breath and didn't breathe until the smoke dissipated. I think he must have been hurt by some woman to be so resentful of women, but looking at Ba Wang, it doesn't seem like he would fall in love with any woman.

  The tyrant and I faced each other, he asked me if I knew why he often found me, who knows? I'm not a tapeworm in his stomach. No! He has praised my chest and waist, as well as that tight place! These should be the reasons he finds me, even the most intelligent man is an animal of the lower body.

  He extinguished the cigarette and told me that he didn't dislike me, this was the reason why he came to find me. He continued saying "Lu Xiaowen, you are a clever woman." I didn't expect him to call out my name, as he always used to call me "feed"! I thought he had completely forgotten my name.

  He pressed his body against mine, touching my body while chatting with me. He said you are greedy for money and afraid of death, but you grasped a degree, you know what money to take and what not to take.

  He whispered in my ear, asking if I knew what Chen Sang was doing with Wen Xin. I was worried about Chen Sang and didn't care about anything else, so I grabbed his arm anxiously and asked him. He looked into my eyes, and before, I just thought that the tyrant's eyes were big and bright, but now, facing him seriously, I saw the coldness and depth in them.

  He grabbed my hair with his hand, it was so painful that I felt numb. I found out he liked pulling my hair, several times when we were doing it, at the moment of release, he would tightly grasp my hair, and I don't know how many hairs fell off in his hands.

  He patted my face and looked at me, saying: "I wasn't just praising your intelligence, you've become stupid! Don't you know that some things are better left unknown, or else you'll die young?"

  Damn it, I think he just wants to be scolded. He brought up the topic and piqued my curiosity, but then he wouldn't say anything else. I'd better keep my mouth shut and not ask any questions, lest I end up getting myself killed.

  I didn't react, the tyrant pulled my hair with force, I screamed in pain, damn it, I must have lost a big handful of hair again. My hair has always been relatively scarce, every time I wash my hair, I have to be careful, afraid that it will fall out too much.

  He scolded me fiercely, saying "Are you trying to get rid of me? You call me, shout loudly. I'm in so much pain that I want to cry, but I couldn't. He said it himself, didn't he? Women all like to pretend, if I cried, they would say I'm pretending to be pitiful. Even if I wanted to pretend to be pitiful, I wouldn't do it in front of this bastard. This world is really messed up, how can such a scumbag live so freely?

  The tyrant suddenly slammed into me, and I arched my body to dodge backwards. It hurt, it really hurt. I saw that he was still in the position to continue, so I grabbed his arm and begged him softly not to do it again. He raised an eyebrow and told me that if I didn't want to be hurt, I should call out to him properly.

  I wanted to stab him with a knife, and then pretend to smile happily along with him. This kind of superb acting skill I couldn't do, but I had no choice, so I could only hug his waist, bury my face in his neck and shout at him to hurry up.

  After we finished, my partner and I lay there quietly, both of us feeling unwell. Every time I see him, I feel drained of energy. I don't understand where he gets his strength from; at this rate, he won't be afraid of premature aging or impotence in the future. In my heart, I curse him to become impotent, so that he can no longer be so arrogant and can never be a man again.

  The overlord suddenly stretched out his hand and pulled me into his arms. He asked me, "You obviously hate each other to the point of wanting to kill each other, yet you still smile and accompany him. What do you feel?"

  As soon as he spoke, I was so scared that I bit my lower lip. After today's ordeal, I think the tyrant is really terrifying. His acting skills seem so ridiculous in front of him. He didn't look at me and continued to speak. Let me tell you a story. In the yard lived a group of playmates who grew up together since childhood. To outsiders, they seemed harmonious, but in private, they were all calculating against each other, hating each other so much that they wanted to kill each other. The people in the gang were also infighting with each other. Don't you think it's ridiculous?

  I don't understand why Ba Wang wants to discuss these things with me, does he really have a conflict with some playmate? This thought flashed by, I clearly know how Ba Wang could limit himself to such childish tricks, others want to play high-level games.

  I wasn't sure whether to say yes or no, I was worried that if the answer was wrong, it would provoke the tyrant, so I told him I didn't know. He lowered his head and looked at me with one eye, leaning close to my ear, he said you'd better not understand anything.

  I sensed the threat in his words, and I've felt more than once that Ba Wang is not normal. Why did he tell me these things? Is it so I can pretend to be deaf again? Maybe he's like Fatso, treating me like a trash can, dumping all the things he can't say onto me.

  The tyrant pulled the quilt over me and ordered me to sleep. I really wanted to run to the bathroom to clean myself up, after the intense exercise just now, except for being sweaty all over, my whole body was sticky, especially my lower body was slippery and wet.

  I was thinking of waiting until the tyrant fell asleep, then I would sneak to the bathroom. The tyrant suddenly kicked me with his foot, and I turned around to look at him. He scolded me, saying if you move again, get out of here!

  He thought I really wanted to sleep with him in the same bed, but I'd rather be accompanied by a wolf dog. At least I dare to put a chain around the dog's neck, while I only have the share of being tortured by him.

  He fell asleep, and I didn't dare move again, lying straight as a board. Even if the king of bandits was sleeping, I didn't dare turn over, fearing that I would wake him up and end up like a zombie myself. I don't know how long I endured before I fell asleep too.

  I was woken up by the noise, and surprisingly it was the national anthem. Get up, get up, people who don't want to be slaves! I'm speechless. Last night I curled up in a corner, and my husband slept on one side while I slept on the other. Now his head is pressed against my chest, almost his entire body is leaning on me. No wonder I had a dream all night that I fell into a lake and couldn't breathe.

  I looked around and found myself still lying in the corner. It seemed that the tyrant had rolled over. He asked me to turn off the alarm clock, turned his back and ordered me to call him in three minutes, then buried his head under the pillow.

  My eyes stared fixedly at the clock, and I didn't even dare to blink frequently. Just three minutes had passed, and I told my tyrannical brother that it was time, but he didn't budge. I knew that when people wake up, they tend to be in a bad mood, so I didn't dare to disturb him. So I adjusted the alarm clock again, and the national anthem started playing once more.

  Ba Wang repeated to the second get up, he lifted the quilt, picked up the alarm clock and smashed it on the ground. The beautifully crafted woodpecker alarm clock was broken. Ba Wang sat up staring at me with a loud curse, saying "Didn't I tell you not to wake me up? Are your ears deaf?"

  I don't want to deal with him, really, I've never seen anyone with such a bad temper. Although my dad gets drunk and beats me up, at least I know he's only like that when he's drunk, so I'm mentally prepared. But what about the tyrant? He can explode at any moment, one second he's smiling at you, the next second he's furious, and you have no idea why he's angry.

  I really want to tell him, I'm just a young lady who is not responsible for waking up guests, and don't do the things your mother does.

  What a tyrant! I thought what, he doesn't even need to use his eyes, he can probably understand everything. He pointed at the door and told me to get out. My body was still naked, I ran to the bathroom to put on my clothes and quickly ran away. This time the tyrant was furious! He forgot to give me money, according to his usual habit, he should have looked down on me with a superior attitude, thrown the money in my face, and called me a bastard.

  I'm a bit sorry about the money, after all, I let someone sleep with me for free. But compared to not having to suffer in this small white building again, I guess I made a profit!

  But it turned out later that I was overthinking things.

  This godforsaken place is so remote, not a single car in sight. I opened my bag to find that my phone was dead, and I cursed out loud. I kicked the door of the small white building with one foot, I was so angry that I almost lost control of myself. This time, I had to walk to the highway to hitch a ride, just hoping that at this time, there would be more cars that could take me back to the city, and then I could take a taxi home.

  Shenzhen's security is not very good, and it's even more serious outside the city. I stood by the road, and many car owners whistled at me, some even drove up to ask about prices. In the end, I hitched a ride on a long-distance bus heading into the city.

  As soon as I returned to my residence, I charged my phone and found that there were already seven or eight text messages and more than a dozen unconnected calls. Among them, five text messages were sent by Chen Sangfa, two by A Guang, and one by Nian Nian. I was clear about Nian Nian's sudden closeness, most of which was because I let her take over my work. People are just so realistic and utilitarian.

  I called Chen Sang back, she was scolding loudly on the other end, her words were unpleasant to hear, but I was laughing on this end, responding continuously. Chen Sang got angry and said that dead fat woman, J person is so arrogant, when I go back, I will definitely deal with her.