My dispute with Chen Sang

  Chen Sang's behavior startled me, and an idea flashed in my mind, but I thought it was too unbelievable. All along, I knew Chen Sang had been dependent on me, probably because she didn't have any family members since childhood! But her behavior just now went beyond that of a good friend. My head was all muddled, and I couldn't figure out what was going on, so I simply stopped thinking about it and closed my eyes to sleep.

  At noon, Chen Sang came in with a lunchbox, and I asked her that since she knew Wen Xin was a pervert, why did she still associate with him. Chen Sang told me to eat, saying that Wen Xin wouldn't do anything to her. I wanted to ask more clearly about the situation, but Chen Sang's expression turned serious, telling me it was better if I didn't know those things. I couldn't figure out what was going on with Chen Sang. Since getting to know Wen Xin, she had become mysterious and secretive, and I didn't know what she was doing.

  Chen Sang grasped my hand and advised me not to think too much, Wen Xin wouldn't come to bother me again, telling me to put my mind at ease, not thinking about anything. I lowered my head to glance at the hand Chen Sang was holding, hesitated for a moment, then opened my mouth to say to Chen Sang, after your birthday, I'll go home.

  Chen Sang shook off my hand, her face looking unpleasant. "Wen Xin won't come looking for you again," she said. "You have me to take care of you, what are you afraid of?"

  I grabbed Chen Sang's hand and told her that I really didn't want to do it anymore, I just wanted to live a stable life. Chen Sang stared at me and asked, "Do you think not being a prostitute means you can have a stable life? You want to go home, but do you even have a home? Don't make me tell you, your dad stopped considering you as his daughter long ago. Now it's too late for you to quit, do you think it's that easy to leave the profession?"

  Chen Sang's words made me feel uncomfortable, I was about to say something when Chen Sang took the initiative to hold my hand, she said that she didn't care about the position of mom either, she would slowly teach me and let me take over her work.

  I know in my heart that although Chen Sang and I are speaking nicely, if I don't get the hint soon, she won't be nice anymore. I'm afraid of Chen Sang, I've worked under her for almost three years, I've seen how she deals with the girls who don't listen to her. But I really don't want to stay here anymore.

  Even if Wenxin doesn't come looking for me again, who can guarantee there won't be a second Wenxin? Can I still be as lucky as today? I'm not sure. I grabbed Chen Sang's hand and begged her to let me go back, telling her that I wouldn't return home, but instead buy a house in the county town and live my life without marrying anyone.

  She stood up from the stool, shook off my hand and wouldn't let me continue speaking. She had made up her mind and it would not change. After saying some harsh words, she left. Ah Guang heard that I was quarreling with Chen Sang, came into the room and persuaded me that Chen Sang was really good to me. He said that Chen Sang didn't have a loving father or mother since childhood, so she really regarded me as her sister.

  I'm not going to be a miss, and I didn't plan on treating Chen Sang as a stranger. Even if I go back, I will still treat her as my good friend. Ah Guang told me that Chen Sang is afraid that once I leave the circle, she wants to clearly break off our relationship.

  I stayed in the hospital for a week, and Chen Sang didn't come to see me again. I knew she was angry with me, but I didn't think I was wrong. I thought about not telling Chen Sang that I had secretly run back, and if all else failed, I would run away to a remote province to hide for a while.

  Life is realistic, it has many restrictions, you can't just leave when you want to, or not do something when you don't feel like it. Every time I think of that night Chen Sang cried in my arms, my heart aches. These three years, if it wasn't for her taking care of me, I wouldn't know what would have happened to me. If I really left...

  My friendship with Chen Sang is over.