Chapter 10: That Fear (Part 2)
(This chapter has not been modified for time yet, everyone will take a look first, and proofreading will be done after going out and coming back)
The fear buried in Li Qiu's heart seems not to be his own, but rather something that has been stripped away from his mind! Every time he is stared at by the crowd and asked to do something, Li Qiu feels like his body is out of control, as if it has fallen into a hot pot, every cell in his body trembling in the water, yes, trembling uncontrollably!
Last time, with Jung Soo-yeon and Yuri, Kim Heng-jun in the practice room, although also being stared at by three people, but no one asked him to sing, he took the microphone and sang automatically. This time, it's also three people, six eyes, but just because of BoA's words, he couldn't bear it! His body kept trembling, gradually shrinking into a ball, the images that emerged from his brain again appeared, but he couldn't think of what happened, it seemed like this memory wasn't his...
"Xiao Qiu, what's wrong?" Boa was the first to notice Li Qiu's abnormality and immediately moved over. Then Cui Xiangying and Otaki Ai also noticed Li Qiu's abnormality.
"Sister... I'm so scared... it wasn't me... really, it wasn't me, I didn't do anything!" The heat from the dance practice still lingered in the room, but Li Qiu's voice trembled, and her body shook uncontrollably, as if she had fallen into an icy cave. The contrast between this feeling and the previous one of falling into boiling water was a double-edged torture that continued to torment him...
Boa knew that Li Qiu had a sister, and had already guessed how important this sister was to Li Qiu. On the first night, he even pretended to be his sister, and those words deeply moved her: "Sister knows it's not you! It's not you!"
In the past, Lee Hyori was also like that. In such a situation with Yoo Ah-in, she comforted him. Every time her words and hugs could pull him out of boiling water and drag him out of an ice cave. At this moment, BoA's voice came through, and in Yoo Ah-in's ears, it was as if Lee Hyori was right next to him. This sound was like a bright lighthouse, a warm fireplace, and a refreshing evening breeze, making him involuntarily wrap his arms around BoA's waist, anchoring this small boat that had been rocking in the stormy waves to a peaceful haven.
"It's okay, it's okay." Boa was suddenly hugged by Li Qiu, and at first, she was a bit startled. But then she immediately reacted and gently put her hands down to hug Li Qiu's head back. "Sigh... why does he always treat me like his sister? What happened to Li Qiu's sister that made her drive him away? What has Li Qiu been through? How did he become this way for no reason?"
On the side, Daichang Ai and Cui Xiuying were at a loss due to Li Qiu's reflection. They wanted to help but didn't know how. Seeing Li Qiu slowly calm down after hugging Boa, they both let out a sigh of relief. Li Qiu's transformation was too sudden, leaving them all unaware of what had happened.
After a long time, in the overly quiet practice room, a sudden "gurgling" sound rang out. This sound was like thunder suddenly ringing out in a deep and empty valley, shocking all four people sitting on the floor awake. Li Qiu raised her head, her reddened eyes gazing at Cui Xiu Ying; Boa stroked Li Qiu's head, turning his face to gaze at Cui Xiu Ying; Daiyuan Ai let out a stifled breath, turning his body to face Cui Xiu Ying.
"Sorry, I'm hungry..." Choe Soo-young was a bit embarrassed. At this time, her own five internal organs suddenly rebelled against her! "Hehe!"
"Haha……" The sound of Wu Zangmiao's protest suddenly eased the atmosphere in the practice room. Li Qiu, who was still depressed just now, had his attention successfully diverted by this sound, and the gloomy practice room was filled with Li Qiu's brightest laughter!
With Choi Soo-young, the hungry ghost, and Lee Chuu's unexpected arrival, Boa didn't have the heart to stay in the practice room anymore. After saying goodbye to Otsuka AiAi, she took Lee Chuu and Choi Soo-young to a nearby cake shop to eat something.
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It was night, and Tokyo, which had gradually entered summer, no longer had the coolness of spring evenings. Half a month had passed, and the bright moon had returned to its full shape, round and smooth like a jade plate, hanging in the dark sky. The silver light illuminated the entire black night, making it bright and dazzling.
It's the same special balcony, the same lush potted plants, the same gentle evening breeze, and it's still Li Qiu and Boa, but the only thing that has changed is the moon above their heads.
"Little Autumn, in the morning, in the practice room..." Boa, who had just finished bathing, emitted a special fragrance of bath products, carrying the scent that had just been immersed in the steamy air, filling the entire balcony.
"Boa... senior, sorry..." Why not his sister, her embrace could also make him calm down? Warm? Yes, very warm, the first night he already felt it, his embrace was very warm; Like? Not like, the first night he already felt that unfamiliar scent, but why could he mix boa and his own sister together?
"Can't you tell me?" She fiddled with the potted plant in front of her, twirling a stem of flowers between her fingers, blinking repeatedly as her long eyelashes fluttered.
"To be honest, I don't know either. As long as I'm in a crowd and being watched, when someone asks me to do something, I'll become like that." Looking back, because of his personality, he's only experienced it a few times, today was just three people, and he couldn't bear it himself.
"Will it often?" Boa raised his head, turned his face to look at Li Qiu, who was covered in moonlight. His profile under his long hair did not have the sternness of a grown man, but was very smooth, and in this moonlight, it looked like a mirror.
"My personality is not very good, I don't get along with others, so I don't often." Li Qiu thought for a moment and still answered.
"Oh."
"Actually, thinking carefully about the feelings I've experienced each time, I feel that the fear was imposed on me by others..." The fear came suddenly and left quietly, although it only happened a few times, but it made Li Qiu feel deeply.
"Imposed?" Boa seemed completely baffled by the meaning of this word, and anyone else would be too.
"Yeah, it comes really fast and is beyond my control. Once I enter that state, I feel like a bystander who can't control my own body. All the actions seem to be done subconsciously! He had never told this to Lee Hyori before, fearing she would worry. But facing BoA, he finally spoke out, feeling as if a weight had been lifted off his heart, and suddenly felt much more relaxed."
"Haven't you ever seen a psychologist?"
"I didn't tell my sister, I don't want her to worry about me." Thinking of Lee Hyori, Li Qiu raised her head and gazed at the round moon, a crystal clear and radiant moon, a breathtaking beauty.
"Is that so? Then, your sister..."
"My sister, so beautiful, she is like that moon, elegant and refined, gentle and pure, soft and warm. Being with her, even if we don't meet often, just smelling the scent she leaves at home makes me feel warmth; even when her face is covered in makeup, to me it's still the most beautiful face in the world..."
"So, is this the reason why you've never been willing to call me sister until now?" As she listened to Li Qiu's continuous praise, Boa couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy. This woman she had never met, who was said to be perfect, what was she like that could make Li Qiu so infatuated? Even when he was driven away by her, he still said, "Even as your pet, I'm willing" - such self-deprecating words!
Professor Boa taught his first Japanese word, "older sister", but after he understood the meaning, he couldn't bring himself to say it. In his mind, there were only four older sisters - Lee Hyori, Yoo Joohee, Lee Jin, and Sung Yuri. Today, in the practice room, words that sounded like Lee Hyori's, plus the hug from the first night...
"Good... sister..." (older sister)
